I Want An Okarun Type Of Boyfriend/husband 🥺😩

the thing about having hope is that it is so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so difficult. but you have to do it anyway

i'm holding these lil guys so gently

high standards protect you from low quality experiences.

being a person in your 20s is like being 40 and being 16 at the same time. i am simultaneously too old and too young for this shit

I love neurodivergent people and our ability to live lives that are true to ourselves despite the fact that the world around us is not always understanding or kind.

I love our communities and the way we seem to be drawn together without even realising it and create spaces that say "I see you, I hear you, I love you, and I want you to be able to be yourself here".

i love the way we can be so, so passionate about the things that are important to us and how vastly different those things can be between us!

i love that we communicate by sharing information and finding common interests!!

I love that we don't always have to talk, we can just exist and do our own thing together.

I love neurodivergent people <33

sometimes i wish i could grab my childhood self and shake them by the shoulders and say YOU'RE GOOD. YOU'RE WORTH LOVING. THERE ARE PEOPLE WHOSE LIVES ARE MADE BETTER BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU ARE NOT A BURDEN. YOU ARE NOT DAMNED. SOMEDAY YOU WILL CRY OVER SUNSETS AND POETRY MORE THAN YOUR OWN PAIN. I NEED YOU TO REMEMBER THAT YOU'RE GOOD. YOU'RE WORTH LOVING. but i can't go back in time, so i say it to myself now. because i believe there's a future version of me looking back on this moment feeling the exact same way.

mindset shift that changed my perspective on the journey to reaching my goals

1. words have power instead of seeing your efforts as strict discipline, begin to view them as acts of devotion to yourself and your dreams. your goals are a labor of love, not a chore. you don’t NEED to be disciplined, you need to be LOVINGLY devoted to yourself.

2. honor your goals devotion IS love and when you are devoted to something, you care deeply about it. applying this to your goals means you are treating them with the proper respect and love, not just as tasks to be checked off. it is not hard work, it is self love.

3. stop trying to follow others their path isn’t your path & what worked for them probably won’t work for you. cater your daily goals to YOU. don't follow their exact diet & add your favorite healthy food to it, eat it in your favorite plate, make a ritual out of it. honor it.

4. embrace failure have ambitious goals but don’t punish yourself for not achieving them. aim high, and if you fail, reflect on why. adjust what didn't work. failure is a part of the journey, not the end of it. with devotion, you see failure as a step forward, not a setback.

5. taking accountability instead of punishing yourself if you ruined your diet today, sit with your actions and allow yourself to feel those emotions, including any shame. but then, be kind to yourself and move on. stop fearing that you will fail again and trust yourself.

6. believe in yourself. this method works because it builds self-confidence. the more you practice & succeed, the more you trust yourself. by being devoted to your life, things just fall into place. *i’m not afraid of failure bc i know that, in the end, i will succeed as I always do.*

7. doing the hard things isn't hard do the hard things because your future self will thank you for it. be a gentle caregiver to yourself and give yourself the best. facing challenges that lead to rewards isn't just difficult, it's simply what you deserve for your devotion.

8. start implementing things you love into the hard things. don't like going on a walk? find something that you like about the place you go to. i personally pick flowers for my room. go visit a monument. go shopping. instead of feeling guilty about enjoying a non planned meal, allow urself to enjoy it by making an event out of it. go to a beautiful place, eat it & get something productive done. replace the guilt w/ productivity.

9. reflect on your progress after succeeding realize that the thing you dreaded doing has become a pleasant activity that you now look forward to. keep doing it. watch yourself become the person that you have always wanted to be.

10. research goes a long way. when studying a particular subject that isn't of your particular interest at the moment start reframing it as working on your own self concept and self mythology. knowledge is power. become interested by it, everything has value. and make the space you study in beautiful.

remember <3

I am very tired and I want to be held by someone who loves me