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Ive been affirming all day for few days, when I fall asleep im so confident and happy that I will wake up in my WR but i still didnt? Whats going on :(((

confidence and assurance go hand in hand, and at times people forget the second

confidence is when you build up the momentum and motivation, when you start believing in yourself and your dreams and how simply you can turn imagination into reality

assurance is the innate knowing, the unwavering faith, the strong willed persistence in the face of a 3d that looks like it’s not changing

i promise you darling, it is changing, it changes constantly, fluidly — it’s a stream that flows without obstruction and continues its path to the vast ocean that is the multiverse

i’m so proud of you for having your confidence, for feeling that joy and happiness that you will wake up in your wr — i’m right there with you, i go to sleep every night with the anticipatory feeling of waking up to a reality that is pure relaxation

so just take my hand and turn away from what your eyes show you. don’t pay it any mind. you may see your cr, you may see an old life when you open your eyes. but what i want you to do is take a deep breath, look inwards, your inner eye, your inner self, the true reality, and just know that you’re there. right now.

shrug off shit that doesn’t align with what you want

having confidence is amazing, but pls pls pls also have assurance.

disclaimer!! it is okay to feel discouraged, i actually encourage experiencing that feeling to its fullest, pull yourself through it, bcs it is better to feel it all and come out of it as a rejuvenated, lighter self.. than bottling it and letting it fester as doubts

persevering because i need to know what his eyes look like in the sun and how warm he is when he first wakes up

our shifting princess fr

let me show y’all how I manifest right quick…

me: “i’ve already shifted tonight.”

subcon: “ooh yippee how fun!”

…

that’s it.

it’s truly that simple.

so here’s why i personally didn't like *and* left shifttok. the thing is. it’s not that it’s inherently bad, it’s just… sort of missing the point. like, wasn’t the whole goal to shift? to get out, to go somewhere else, to slip through the cracks of reality like a goddamn pro? but somewhere along the way, it turned into a glorified pinterest board. edits on edits on edits. wattpad drabbles disguised as scripts. playlists that are less about actually shifting and more about curating an aesthetic, a moodboard, a vibe. and suddenly, you’re not shifting, you’re just making content about shifting.

like, i get it. romanticising your dr is half the fun. i did and still do it myself !! who doesn’t want to bask in the idea of their perfect world? but when that becomes the main event, when it overtakes the actual act of shifting, what are we even doing here? it’s like planning a trip, making all the itineraries, buying cute outfits, but then never getting on the plane. just sitting in your room, looking at your suitcase, rewatching your own tiktoks about how fun the trip is gonna be. that’s what shifttok became. this endless loop of people hyping up their drs but not actually going to them.

and maybe that’s the problem. because if you spend too much time making your dr look good instead of actually experiencing it, you start treating it like fiction. like something separate from you, instead of something you’re literally living. people started making edits of their drs like they were making fandom edits of a tv show. like, is this a real place you’re shifting to or is it just your latest hyperfixation? be honest. you spend so much time cooped up on video star or capcut and suddenly you don't remember the last time you affirmed or even thought about shifting.

and i’m not saying you can’t have fun with it. obviously, dream up the most insane, gorgeous, cinematic dr possible. but at some point, you have to ask yourself: am i actually trying to shift? or am i just roleplaying the idea of shifting? because shifttok is great at making shifting look cool. but the second you start seeing your dr as something to be consumed rather than something to be lived, you’ve already lost the plot.

so yeah. i left, and as soon as i did, i started actually shifting. because i actually wanted to do it. not just make a trailer for a movie i’m never gonna watch. does this make sense?????

so let’s talk severance. and shifting. and briefly about loa.

because. i'm confused. this is an open forum for anyone who has ever stared into the abyss and had the abyss stare back, except the abyss is a fluorescent-lit office cubicle and the abyss is also your bedroom, and you are in both places at once, except not really.

quick recap for the uninitiated: in severance, employees undergo a procedure that splits their consciousness in two. the ‘innie’ only exists at work, the ‘outie’ only exists outside of it. neither remembers the other’s life. a clean, surgical divide. a self cleaved in two like some corporate-cooked ouroboros. make sense? no? yes? congratulations, you are alive.

now. shifting. shifting isn’t exactly that. but. isn’t it a little bit that? just a fraction? a sliver? because your dr self isn’t some blank-faced mannequin waiting for cr you to clock in and take over. they’re not a placeholder, not a consciousness-on-pause. they exist. fully. they are you in the same way you are you. and when you shift, you don’t overwrite them. you sync with them. it’s stepping into a river that was already rushing, already frothing, already carrying you forward before you even realized you were ankle-deep.

so no, your dr self doesn’t ‘know’ about shifting. until you shift. unless they were already aware of shifting. but let’s not go full inception just yet. because before that moment, they were just living, unbothered, thriving, possibly drinking a very good martini, possibly about to be hit by a cab. and now, here you are. a new awareness superimposed onto the old. which begs the question: if you can shift into them, could someone shift into you? could cr you be the outie in someone else's severance? is some other version of you sliding into place, right now, reading this, wearing your socks, stealing your morning?

let’s get messier. let's talk homework. let’s talk clones. let’s talk about whether or not i would even know if i had shifted. because. okay. say cr me is the innie. and the shifting me.....the one actively intending, scripting, affirming....is the outie. would my innie know the outie had shifted? would i know? or am i a paper doll, neatly folded into a reality i had no hand in choosing, while some other me slides into the cockpit?

because let’s discuss. people talk about clones. about leaving something behind to keep up appearances. but are they aware? do they feel it? do they have the creeping suspicion that reality is off by a fraction of a millimeter? do they ever get that thing where they walk into a room and forget why they’re there, except it’s their entire life? if shifting is severance, who's the innie and who's the outie? is cr you the outie, with full agency, only vaguely aware of the other? or is cr you the innie, there in a single slice of reality, while your dr self gets the full panoramic view? maybe it’s neither. maybe the whole premise collapses because, unlike severance, the connection is never actually severed. i think that this can be applied to manifestation too. because. if you manifest, say, a different face.....is the you with the old face aware that it worked???

maybe you are both. maybe it depends on where you stand. maybe it depends on where you shift. maybe none of us know what we’re talking about and reality is a mobius strip we’re all just scrambling across in different directions, trying to make it make sense.

anyway. thoughts? feelings? a growing sense of dread?

guys im thinking abt woozi anr i might genuinely explode

missing my bsf hours😔

*sighs really loudly*

heloooo sheezu how are you I love your acc. need an advice bc what you said abt your past circumstances was very relatable (hope it doesn't sound intrusive or smth. it just resonated bc I screwed myself over big time and now everything sucks). so I'm in a big steaming pile of deadlines and hellish circumstances rn. and obv I want and need to shift. if I sit on my ass all day hoping to shift then I'm stressing. if I get myself together and make myself do all that crap then I think that it send the signal to my subconscious (or whatever) that I don't believe in success bc if I knew that I'll shift then I would't be worrying abt deadlines. but then like. I do worry. meaning I do in fact have an assumption abt failure. bc I'm stressing. If I had an assumption that I'll succeed then I wouldn't be stressing. what do I do man I just keep on digging my grave hoping it'll fix itself. bc I can't do stuff bc it means I manifest failure but I can't not do stuff bc I am in fact stressing (meaning I do in fact keep on manifesting failure)

btw not trying to be dramatic or vent sorry if it looks like it. do not invest your energy in here just idk. some thoughts maybe would be appreciated thank you in advance

You have to surrender yourself to your dr.

Don't worry about whatever you think about before you start to shift.

But when it's time, distract your self by your desired people, desired circumstances and dr self, it almost feels there is no turning back.

Shifting isn't the name of escaping, it is the act of embracing another reality completely.

Just know, nothing can stop you when you put your entire attention towards your dr, when you're the one making it.

just spent 45 mins watching woozi edits i should sleep its 4am😪

*sighs really loudly*