Venus In Furs

somehow when making the setting sons the jam knew exactly how it feels to be a 16-19 year old transgender man

i’ll be chillin and then all of a sudden i literally turn into this thing

gallery wall (my art, museum prints, charity shop prints, maps and old shirts)

Have to choose my final year topics and dissertation in a few days, don’t particularly know what to choose, I constantly question whether dropping philosophy was a bad idea and I should of just stuck with it even if I thought it would be hard or uninteresting, and there’s the question of what I want to be when I grow up (I’m not sure when that point is) I just want to make an impact somehow and be remembered and it feels like doing that is dependent on my degree and what I do during it (I know realistically it’s not but some lecturers imply it is unfortunately).

I feel like I go through phases of having my ‘look’ very sorted and coherent and I feel great about myself and then phases of being in a fashion rut and not being able to feel confident in any outfit and feeling like my hair and everything about how I look is just slightly off (it’s the latter rn)

Bit too much for the instagram but this painting came out better than I thought it would:)

actually incredibly real

ohhh manic street preachers. you are so lovely but the memories are so tragic. listening to you is like texting an ex.

I need to learn to crochet. I need to make items out of crochet

recently got told its very likely i have ocd and i never realised how much it actually effects me until now its crazy, i thought i had like a few symptoms of it but nothing huge and i fear i may of been wrong

One of my housemates parents comes to visit him almost every week and they stay in his room for hours on end watching shows and normally order food (and sometimes offer to get everyone else stuff because they are lovely) and I can always hear them talking and laughing together which is nice to see but it does give me a deep feeling of missing living at home and reminds me of the fact I haven’t seen my family in the best part of 4 months and also that I have a deeply different relationship with my parents and family