opened commissions again after a long time! there are 9 slots available for simple sketches :)
@goleb I found some more DHMIS fan art I thought you’d like and would brighten your day!
Another art dump ! CW blood and gore
i come to you with some very bad news and a long story, i guess. it's a story of financial abuse and years and year of my life in vain.
snippets of this were things ive talked about before, but theyve been intensifying recently to a point that i can't ignore them anymore. they dont blend into the background anymore. figurateively, im being poisoned, and im feeling it.
look below the cut for further details of what's happening. i wish i could've been more concise, but the ongoing situation is convoluted and its hard to wrap my whole head around it sometimes.
ive had my patreon for around 7 years, now. since the beginning, i wanted it to become sizable and to earn me a living eventually; it never did.
ive also released several games, which, again, didnt earn me a living. ive done a lot of work on projects under nda, which didnt earn me a living either.
none of it came together.
as a result of this, i have spent that past while being strongly supported through donations from people like you on tumblr and discord (thank you ;;) and... from my parents.
the latter is the crux of this. their control over my finances lends them a very strong influence over what i am allowed to do and what im not allowed to do in my life.
as a result of this, they have essentially kept me from pursuing the jobs and the life ive wanted to pursue for the past 7 years. anything i was able to come up with wasn't good enough. game development is an "expensive hobby". "an outcrys" nomination was a "costly adventure that didn't retain value". my art is "sad and depressing, no one wants to see it". video games are "not real, you need a second foot to stand on".
so ive been toiling away, trying to please their whims of what im "supposed to be doing", using precious time i couldve used entering the industry i actually wanted to enter learning skills i didnt want for jobs i didnt want, applying and being denied. for a brief while, between 2020 and 2023, i was allowed to do my game development thing, finally, because of covid and such. that grace period is now over.
they have also been strongly controlling my bodily autonomy as it relates to choices im allowed to make without having to suffer emotional damage from them, which has been paranoia-inducing to say the least.
either, i take on a job that pays whatever my parents think is enough for a living and is the "right kind of job" (with my lack of education outside of artistic fields: close to impossible); or i find a well-paying high-profile job in the video game industry (with my qualifications and the state of the industry: close to impossible); or i enter my country's disability pay system.
i have a disability diagnosis, so this would be within reach. it would also be a good deal more money than my parents are keeping me drowning with. to succeed with my application however, id need to:
close my patreon
stop developing games (not enough resources, mental or financial)
be at the whims of this country's political situation and how it relates to welfare, which is in sharp decline
i want to be free from their financial influence. i want to be able to instantly send them back their "alimony" and know that they can no longer direct my life according to any whim they may have. i want more time to be allowed to stand on my own two feet without being emotionally hurt and financially controlled - because it is nothing short of killing me.
i've started goal on ko-fi - 6000 $. i need a buffer like that in order to be able to have a bargaining chip in this arrangement, at least for half a year.
i need that money to be able to refuse the money my parents only use to have power over me and my life choices, to be able to consistently emotionally harm me and my prospects to become independent in the way i want to.
thank you for reading. even just talking about this makes me feel a little better. please help, and donate if you are able.
Lots of big expenses happening at the start of the year, again! Augh!! I need money to make it through that, so I'm offering my services as a silly little pixel artist once more!
3 slots open - these are gonna be the last ones for a while since I have to catch up on my queue!
(please allow for a turn-around time of up to 6 months; I am disabled and work multiple freelance jobs simultaneously to try and make ends meet)
If you can afford to send a tip my way, you can do so HERE.
If you can't, it's totally cool, my art will always be available to view for free <3 Even things like my Patreon get you early access but is designed to be just that, with my art being posted publicly eventually. I appreciate the time people give and the eyes on my work so much!!
this gofundme by @doniatanani still needs about 14k more euros, please share and donate if you can, even small amounts add up
Hey I'm just going to toss my kofi out there cause I could really use help with upcoming bills. I have my comms open and you can get rugs like the ones pictured!
My ko-fi
i'm a black autistic person with an autoimmune disorder + other disabilities and i need community aid while looking for a place to live. no set goal bc idk how much longer i'll be jobless and couch surfing, i was fired bc of my speech difficulties. everything helps.
green money app: $piscesmadness
blue money app: p-ypal.me/mojippang
Links for those interested:
And a news article with further details:
There’s a game that’s getting removed from Steam soon that I think you’d like, and it’s now free before it’s gone for good, it’s called Mouthole!
already got it a while back but passing on that recommendation to folks who might not know
Copper Odyssey 2 is available to wishlist on Steam! The world of Copper Odyssey returns! You play as an Angel named Celeste who must touch 30 paintings to bring color back to them. This is a press-turn JRPG that takes place in a museum. Respect the craft and yourself by fighting against the living artworks who want to make you one of their own.