they really captured that transition to adulthood right
SO MANY FUCKING THINGS stood out in tonight’s belter of an episode of His Dark Materials, but Marisa Coulter’s meeting with Mary Malone and her subsequent Blue Screen Of Death on realising the reality of the patriarchy was something I will. never. forget.
Look at her. Look at her eyes, listen the words she uses. Marisa is absolutely fucking full of blinding rage at the truth she’s suddenly been hit in the face with. All her life she has been better, clever, smarter, and stronger than the men who dominate her society. And she has been forced to kowtow to these pissants, these simpering dull crude men, slaving constantly in labour and cunning to secure the meagrest of breadcrumbs of respect and recognition in her academic and political fields. She has been forced to swallow the bitter pill of being ineligible for a doctorate, despite the undeniable superiority of her work. She has had to submit to her papers being published under the names of male peers and them taking her rightful credit. She has had to smile and simper and be agreeable and claw her way to power and respect through the utmost ruthlessness and cunning - and even though those things were always in her nature, the mental and emotional toll it’s taken on her is crystal fucking clear. She’s destroyed her own soul to rise to her rightful place.
And then she steps into another world and meets Mary. A doctor in her own right, with academic research in her own right, with her own brilliance in her own right. No fuss. No compromise. Just recognition on the basis of merit. And she realises, in that moment, what has been kept from her all her life, and how incandescently fucking outrageous it is.
And she is blinded by rage.
taika waititi would not be afraid of using “toxic” by britney spears during a fight scene
Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind: What type of apocalypse do you think you would have the best chance of surviving?
Castle in the Sky: If you could live in any fictional place what would it be? (laputa, atlantis, narnia etc.)
Grave of the Fireflies: Top five sad songs?
My Neighbor Totoro: Favourite mythical creature?
Kiki’s Delivery Service: If you were a witch, what area of magic would you excel in? (flying, potions, divination, spells etc.)
Only Yesterday: Favourite childhood memory?
Porco Rosso: If you were an animal, what animal would you be?
Ocean Waves: Tell me about your best friends from high school.
Pom Poko: Favourite animal?
Whisper of the Heart: What are you most passionate about? Why?
Princess Mononoke: What elemental sign are you? (fire, earth, air & water)
Spirited Away: Tell me about a time you faced your fears.
The Cat Returns: What is the coolest adventure you’ve ever been on?
Howl’s Moving Castle: Which movie adaption do you prefer to the book?
Tales From Earthsea: Tell me about something that everyone else hates, but you love.
Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea: Favourite fairytale?
Secret World of Arrietty: Tell me about the most beautiful place you have ever been.
From up on Poppy Hill: Tell me about an experience that changed your life or your worldview.
The Tale of Princess Kaguya: What folktale/wives tale from your childhood stuck with you your whole life?
The Wind Rises: Tell me about your greatest accomplishment.
When Marnie Was There: Who do you miss the most?
Mary and the Witch’s Flower: What is the last movie you watched? What are your thoughts on it?
Hayao Miyazaki: Who is the person that you look up to most?
Isao Takahata: Who is the person that helped you/is helping you achieve your dreams?
Studio Ponoc: Do you like change?
Studio Ghibli: Top three Studio Ghibli movies?
Diane: diane realizing that she doesn’t need to do something intensely personal or ‘deep’ to make a genuine difference. sometimes being happy and making people happy is the deepest thing there is.
Princess Carolyn: pc and judah!! but honestly it’s about so much more than that it’s about pc finally letting herself be taken care of for the first time in her life. so much of her character arc is about doing it all herself, and the reason she fires judah in the first place is because he TRIED to take care of her. that growth is perfect for his character.
Mr. Peanutbutter: i LOVED mr pb’s story! i always kinda hated him since the beginning, not because he was annoying, but because he forced so much on people who just wanted him to be genuinely himself (obviously diane is the main example but i think this applies to bojack and pc as well). seeing him actually take the time to define himself as an individual rather than letting himself be defined by a relationship is HUGE.
Todd: todd’s connection with his family this season was so real, because we’ve seen his life in just the way it is throughout the series, but examining where that comes from was pretty awesome. ALSO him and maude make my heart happy. he deserves someone who understands him, and he’s never had that until now.
Bojack: god i don’t even know what my thoughts are on his story this season holy shit. i think seeing him get caught up and eventually relapsing from being embraced by genuine toxic masculinity was so powerful. it really illustrated that that’s who he is to so many people. however, seeing the subtle but important differences between him and vance wagner really showed who he is as a person. because in truth, his actions proved that he was that kind of person, but we know that he has a very real goodness in him. also, the view from halfway down was so fucking raw and insane and it tore my heart out. the whole episode fucking broke my heart because i KNEW bojack deserved better than to die like that. at the same time, i had no idea about what i thought was right. bojack going to prison was perfect. he deserves it. he really really deserves it. ALSO seeing him actually try to influence people through art while in prison really moved me, and proved that he has his morals in check. ALSO when he talks to someone (i forget who rn) and he says that the routine is good for him, that was super powerful. he has always been a good person, but has never known how, and has hurt so so so many people in his attempt to ‘find himself’ unsuccessfully over the years. but at this point, i think the ending was perfect. the season showed us that bojack CAN be a good person, and can make people’s lives better when he’s sober and honest with himself and others. at the same time, it’s not happily ever after, and he has to pay for,,,,, everything i guess.
LASTLY: i really like that the characters who have often been characterized through their being alone (PC, Todd, Diane) all ended up with someone and were allowed to explore how having someone to support and understand you can improve your life. at the same time, the characters who have often been defined by their relationships with others, especially the negatives of their relationships with others, (mr PB and Bojack), ended up on their own, and were asked to examine themselves as individuals.
anyways, i still don’t really know what to think at this point, so here are my ramblings about the show that literally means the world to me ending. i think i’ll make a video on it soon. i know for sure that i’m going to make a bunch of posts as i let myself process it more. if you actually read all this, thank you. this show means so so so much to me, and the challenges this show has brought me personally were so deeply intimate and they have really truly impacted me. hard. i’m sad to see such an amazing show go, but i’m glad it got its time.