Waiting Waiting Waiting . . . It Sucks.

No one tells you about the negative sides of ⭐️ving. No one warns you about the impact it has on your relationships. No one tells you that you’ll start to gauge your size based on everyone else in the room. There’s no verbal explanation for why your relationships start falling apart, it just happens. You’re bitchier, you complain more, you’re exhausted so often you rarely want to go out because you’re too tired to move. Too tired to have to deal with the spots in your vision as you try to stand, and the wooziness as you walk up a flight of stairs.

You just bleed a bit on the inside. Fall a little further down the hole. Starve a little more often. Perhaps if you lost a little weight, they’d like you more. I hate the comments I get. From family, from old friends. “You look so thin,” “I could’ve sworn you had anorexia when I first saw you, but you ate just fine.” Yeah, then I didn’t. For another few days, just so I stay consistent with my weight loss. For my strong will to be slimmer than the others, like I once was. It outmatches my weak desire to connect with people by far too much. Yet I’m okay with that. Whatever it takes. Whatever I lose, to be at that goal weight.

- Peachez ☆

☆ I'm Peachez

☆ She / Her

☆ I'm 20 years old

☆ I'm officially in recovery right now !

I'll post about my 3d and my recovery here. <3

Never hesitate to block me if I trigger you. I don't want to and I want everyone to be safe. <3

This shit is such a scam

The number goes down by a lot, body looks same

The number goes slightly up, AND I LOOK LIKE A ROTTING WHALE WTF

Thigh gap check ! part. 2

TW : 4norex1a. ( I'm in recovery ! )

I found another pictures of me when I was not underweight ! I think I was healthier in those and I wanted to compares those pictures to show you that you don't need to loose weight if you don't need to ! Remember that, because of the 3d, you don't see yourself like everyone else see you. I don't see myself like everyone else too. You'll probably in pain or you probably are in pain already.. You are beautiful ! You are strong ! You're not a weight, you are a person ! 3d doesn't define yourself !

Recovery worth it. Your life worth it. Yourself worth it.

Xoxo. <3

Before and after, in May 2025.

Hi loveliez ! <3

Little recap' of this morning : I exercised a bit and I 4t3 ~ 257 c4l$ at lunch ! I drinked a half of a water bottle for the moment and, I think, I'll walk this afternoon !

- Block if triggered. ( I'm sorry if you are.. )

100 Reasons To Be Th1n

⭒ To always be cold

⭒ To know anything being said about me behind my back is out of envy

⭒ To be too small to find anything at a store

⭒ To have people worry

⭒ To have people be jealous

⭒ To be able to wear bracelets as garters

⭒ To make him touch me gently

⭒ To make people think I’ll break

⭒ To never have to cover myself

⭒ To never be shamed for not looking put together

⭒ To feel my bones hit against each other

⭒ To change the dosage

⭒ To never hit fat

⭒ To always turn heads

⭒ To be able to say “I guess its just my metabolism” when asked how I stay thin

⭒ To never have gaps on button downs

⭒ To always be the smallest in a room

⭒ To never be offered someones leftover

⭒ To say “lets get something to share” and only eat 2 bites

⭒ To never feel greedy when eating at a function

⭒ To have a hunger high 24/7

⭒ To always feel my heartbeat

⭒ To never have to hide what I eat

⭒ To say yes to going out for food without feeling like a pig

⭒ To have people ask “are you sure you dont want something to eat” out of concern instead of malice

⭒ To be called fat as a joke and know its a joke

⭒ To have a hollow face

⭒ To always be hydrated

⭒ To make people think I eat clean

⭒ To feel the fat leaving my body every time I breathe

⭒ To never spill out of jeans

⭒ To always need a belt

⭒ To have tshirts fall off my shoulder

⭒ To look thin even in big clothes

⭒ To make everything around me look bigger

⭒ To move without a sound

⭒ To blackout

⭒ To be a lightweight

⭒ To be told to eat a burger

⭒ To be told I need help

⭒ To be told im beautiful

⭒ To feel beautiful

⭒ To actually accept compliments

⭒ To never feel like people are being nice to prove a point

⭒ To never think someone is being nice to laugh at me later

⭒ To walk away from any argument knowing they’re the bigger person

⭒ To never be asked out on a dare

⭒ To never be ignored by a group of guys

⭒ To make him concerned about my health

⭒ To be lightheaded

⭒ To see stars everywhere

⭒ To never want to sleep

⭒ To focus everything on school

⭒ To redefine what food is to me

⭒ To be in control of my health, mind, and body

⭒ To never wonder if Im being excluded because Im fat

⭒ To never be the one taking the group photo

⭒ To never make a boxspring creak

⭒ To never sweat

⭒ To walk slow and enjoy it

⭒ To breathe deeper

⭒ To love being outside

⭒ To never wondering if an outfit looks good or not

⭒ To train myself to never need to look at a nutrition label

⭒ To be able to wear everything I thrift

⭒To never be worried that im bring judged for what im eating

⭒ To always hurt

⭒ To never need makeup

⭒ To never need s*x

⭒ To never think an outfit would look better on someone else

⭒ To have my bones dig into everything

⭒ To barely raise the water in the bathtub

⭒ To never feel hot in the shower

⭒ To wrap my hands around my waist

⭒ To never drop a deuce lol

⭒ To say “do you want a cookie?” in an argument and someone get mad

⭒ To be on peoples minds

⭒ To shrink my stomach

⭒ To be so hungry that I dont know what it feels like to feel hungry

⭒ To always decline food

⭒ To be allowed to be picky

⭒ To never feel greedy

⭒ To save money

⭒ To make people kind to me

⭒ To make people think I hate junk food

⭒ To never need to step on a scale

⭒ To never purge

⭒ To never binge

⭒ To have more room on a plane seat

⭒ To never be judged for having a soda

⭒ To never need to be weighed at a water/amusement park

⭒ To never get stares of disgust

⭒ To never be though of as low brow

⭒ To be able to walk though a thin barred fence

⭒ To never worry if anything will break under me

⭒ To never worry that my old clothes will rip

⭒ To use less soap

⭒ To feel clean

⭒ To feel euphoric

⭒ To feel like who Im supposed to be

Diet✨

All from Rednote ❤️

I don't like ⭐ving myself but yes, I have this secret that I try to hide. ( I secretly hope that someone can see it one day.. )

i love starving myself

nobody knows what i’m doing, i walk around with a secret, and i love it

I have a real problem with my thighs.. 💔

its so annoying i have thin arms and a toned back but MY TUMMY AND THIGHS ARE SO F4T

quick reminder: take your vitamins ✨