Whitelightningoverasunset - Layla Rose

Mom: Why can't you just trust me?

Me: trust isn't the issue one the table here.

Mom:then why can't we watch tv together?

Me: cuz you're as straight as a pencil and I'm too gay to function.

Mom: I thought you were ace!

Me: I still think girls are cuter than guys!

unpopular opinion: the eragon books are unique and creative

like sure, they’re a bit derivative of Tolkien and the first book reads like it was written by a 16 year old, but they also have some absolutely fantastic and unique concepts and scenes that have stuck with me to this day, despite me having read them when I was 14 (okay yeah I’m affected by nostalgia but who cares?!?!) Like hear me out: Angela and her grumpy talking cat??? The little girl who Eragon accidentally curses to feel the pain of others?? Nasuada in the trial of the knives?? Safira crashing through the giant stained glass window?? Murtagh’s lengthy redemption arc??? THE FACT THAT THE ORCS ARE A WELL-DEVELOPED SPECIES and Eragon allies with them eventually?? The Heart of Hearts?? That scene where Eragon forges his sword?? Eragon’s cousin becoming a war general?? The entirety of the dragonriders??? Have I mentioned Nasuada and Murtagh who are still some of my favorite characters from literature??? So. Fucking. Great. And Unique. The Inheritance Cycle doesn’t deserve the hate it gets and I will absolutely fight you over this.

let’s talk about racism in the danmei fandom

alright so originally i wrote this for twitter, but i felt like tumblr could benefit from it too. today we’re finally getting the long awaited “deconstruction of racism in the danmei fandom” post. and lemme preface this by saying- i’m chinese-american. i’m nblm. i do, in fact, have the cultural and historical background to know what i am talking about. so let’s get into it. 

this is gonna be a long post, because we have a lot to talk about. first, racism doesn’t have to be as blatant as calling me a chink, or saying all asians look the same, or not wanting to consume asian media, or making ching chong jokes.racism can be as subtle towards asians as it can towards any other race. if you think i shouldn’t have to say that, join the club, bc same. 

second, racism towards asians, especially in the west, has a long history of being overlooked and accepted. now, let’s talk about how racism dictates some of the takes you see in the fandom. firstly, what originally inspired this thread- the mxtx rumors and the jokes being made about her and censorship. now, obvs some ppl are gonna say that they were just jokes made in poor taste. and, sure. but they were jokes made in poor taste, steeped in racism. the jokes being made about mxtx going to jail happen bc ppl do not view her as a real person. not rlly. she’s an author, sure, the author of one of their favorite novels, but she’s not, like. a person with thoughts and feelings and a life. and that sort of casual lack of humanhood and agency given to danmei authors is rooted in the severely racist dehumanization of asians that’s prevalent in the west. this is something that can be seen other places, too- a good example being when parasite was notably nominated for every oscar category *except* the acting ones. 

it’s this lack of personhood, this lack of agency, that allows ppl to have takes like “censorship isn’t actually bad, and here’s why”. yes, this is a real take that i saw. this take argues that the cql is better than mdzs, bc it is “softer and less graphic”. in general, a lot of ppl have the take that mxtx’s works in particular are too graphic, with problematic sexual elements. now, i’ve talked before about how that’s a homophobic take bc gay relationships should also be allowed to be messy. but it’s also deeply entrenched in racism. it’s why white gays can have the take “this is Problematique and here’s why” and claim it’s not homophobic. 

racism against asians has long since created a trend of sexualizing them- thinking asian men are sexy while also removing their sexual agency. asian men can be sexy, but they can’t actually *have sex*. not explicitly. there’s a historical, real world element to this. “not fats no femmes no asians” could definitely be seen on ppls grindr profiles, back in the day. asians can be sexy, sure. look at kpop boys. but they can’t be sexual. they’re infantilized. they have to remain pure and wholesome, or they’re dragged as problematic and homophobic and fetishizing, a word that’s thrown around so often it’s practically lost meaning. fetishizing is my ex-bf telling me i’m sexy bc* i’m asian, it’s bl/yaoi fans approaching a gay couple on the bus and gushing over how “cute and yaoi they are.” fetishizing is *not* showing your 2 male main charas having explicit sex. if it is, then every white fan in danmei is fetishizing asians. 

but i digress- back to the point about racism. the fact that ppl can argue about censorship shows that they, as a whole, aren’t considering the ramifications of censorship on the literal country it exists in, and it’s citizens. i, obvs, do not live in china. but i’ve got relatives who do, and who did. i’ve got relatives who fled china. not everything is about you and the media you want to consume. and then, of course, there’s the casual racism. the everyday racism. the racism that lies in things like saying all the names are too similar and it’s hard to keep track of them. the racism in saying things like “i’m just here to have fun,,,like sure, i’d persevere through dostoevsky, but this is danmei”, as if danmei is somehow inferior, as if danmei isn’t meant to be critically engaged with, as if danmei doesn’t tackle and critically explore some of the deepest and darkest issues. 

asian media is often presented that way, from kung fu movies to danmei. there is a type of racism, of eurocentrism, that exists in the belief that western media has deeper, more engaging morals. asian media is more “fun”. asian media is almost entirely based on morals and deep thought, it’s just not based in western ones. for example, two of my favorite authors are haruki murakami and kazuo ishiguro. both are japanese authors, who’s works i’ve heard westerners describe as weird and without a point, when in fact they are simply telling stories with innately eastern asian morals and teachings. it’s the same type of racism that causes ppl to make jokes about asian food, to not view it as a craft the same way they do french food. it’s asian- it must be “less than”, be inferior, be inherently not worth as much. 

casual racism about asians is normalized, which isn’t a word i use often. it’s normalized to the point where ppl don’t even realize they have that sort of implicit bias, and we know ppl don’t rlly come on the internet to think critically. but unintentional racism is still racism. it still has an impact, still does damage. ppl need to think intentionally and critically in how they consume and interact with media not made for them, but they don’t, instead choosing to come in with their preexisting biases, and bc of that, it’s easy for fandom members to dismiss the cultural concerns of chinese ppl within the fandom. it’s easy, for example, to say “calling them martial brothers is incest apologism”, ignoring the inherent cultural roots of martial brothers. 

now, we’re gonna get in to the current “drama”. i do not ship chengxian. i think that even bears repeating. i Do Not ship chengxian. i have written them, in a modern au, as adopted brothers. but there is a real historical and culture relevance to the idea of martial brothers, of community, that westerners willfully refuse to hear, claiming instead that “you’re disregarding adopted families!” no. that’s not what’s happening at all. what’s happening is ppl are refusing to look at their own, western bias, and placing western values on an eastern idea. community raising of children, community family bonds without being adopted families, is important in east asian culture. there is a long history of community being whats important, and ppl don’t get that you can be a “communal/community family” without being considered familial. jyl choosing to view wwx as her brother, bc he is a martial brother, and chengxian being in love, are things that can technically coexist. whether or not you choose to perceive them as such, refusing to acknowledge the real history of martial brothers, and scremaing “incest apologism” whenever someone tries to explain it, is inherently racist. it’s you assuming you know my culture better than me. it’s you assuming your western ideas are the only ones that exist. which is, at its core, the basis for most racism in the danmei fandom. 

most racism in the danmei fandom comes from this idea that casual racism against asians isn’t *really* racism, and therefore asians don’t *really* get to have a say, and it shouldn’t matter anyway bc we’re lucky you’re even engaging with danmei, with asian content, since it’s shallow and inferior anyway. the racism comes from a place of moral superiority, of ownership, of this assumption that westerners are entitled to not just consume danmei but also bring their western lens and apply it to something that was never written for them in the first place.

So, I wanted to create an appreciation post for the ships that are scorned and receive hate.

For the ships that are treated with homophobia, and are belittled for no other reason than for being between two people of the same gender. The ships whose beautiful emotional developments are ignored, and instead stereotyped into false pictures of “lustful yaoi pairings,” which they are most certainly not.

For the ships that are overshadowed and ignored due to their more popular competition:

For the ships who, conversely, are “too popular,” or have “taken over the whole fandom.”

For the ships who are sent hate for ‘queer-baiting’ in spite of their beautiful, long-developed bond:

For the ships that are considered ‘abusive’ or ‘wrong’ because the characters have problems (and work them out, in DirkJake’s case!):

And the ships between two characters who are “clearly straight,”

(Yes, I have actually seen this argument used against Kagehina XD)

Because every pairing, no matter how minute, mainstream, or controversial, deserves respect. It’s okay if you don’t ship it. Hell, I don’t ship all of the pairings in this post. However, that gives you no excuse to behave with hostility towards the people who do.

(I will likely continue making edits to this post. I didn’t include every ship that has ever received hate, of course, and I may have mis-categorized a few of them. I understand that not everyone will like these ships for a variety of reasons, but I would appreciate it if everyone avoided any shiphate :)

I should be studying but have my take on this meme instead

Bonus:

I recognize that canon has made a decision, but given that it’s a stupid-ass decision, I’ve elected to ignore it and indulge myself in fanfic

Okay I’m still not over Dead Apple

Sorry if it has already been said before, but I was thinking A LOT about one parallel.

It is situated at the beginning and in the end of the movie.

Two scenes paralleling each other perfectly. But at the beginning we can 100% agree that Dazai came here to commemorate his friend, and in the end of the movie… most of us couldn’t agree with Atsushi’s words because our opinions on Dazai can vary. Because everyone of us sees him differently, and so do other Bungou Stray Dogs characters. Mostly, they hate him for what he’s done. For his actions that broke people’s souls. For everything that still itches inside Dazai’s heart.

Dazai by himself thinks that he’s evil. And yes, he’s made lots of things that make him (and us) think so.

But Atsushi doesn’t have the same opinion.

Even knowing that Dazai has done lots and lots of bad things in his life, Atsushi still thinks of him as a good person.

And I think that this parallel shows us real Dazai. Because even if he himself doesn’t think so, he changes. Slowly, painfully, overstepping his past mistakes and accepting himself, but he changes. He’s still manipulative and he’s still doing everything to get what he needs even if it means he should injure somebody.

But Atsushi still sees a good person in him despite everything Dazai did and does. Atsushi, one of the few people, believes in him and in his kindness. Atsushi CAN see through his masks and CAN understand Dazai, so both of his phrases – at the beginning and in the end – are true. He’s confused because it’s obvious that Dazai came to the grave with a certain purpose and it’s obvious that Dazai has opportunity to be good.

And Dazai is shocked. He has not so many people who have seen through him so deeply and who have believed in him so sincerely.

Dazai is not an angel. He’s kind of devilish sometimes, sadistic, pain in his soul makes him want to end all of it. He hates pain. He hates the process of living. He hates himself. He can’t end it.

But when there are people like Atsushi around him, who believe in him despite of everything, he still can manage. Dazai still has a chance to become a better person, even if it’s not what he’s used to. And Atsushi several times showed that he’s here to save him.

Just like Dazai ones saved Atsushi.

This is me and my best friend. I’m the one reading fanfic

Oof get you a friend who cares.... but still... fanfic

girls don’t want boys girls want servamp season 2

PSA for Star Wars fans:

PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD ON THIS!!!!