Fenris: “I May Not Get The Chance To Say This Again, Meeting You Was The Most Important Thing That

Reblog if you remember Huntik: Secrets & Seekers and their super awesome theme song

So I was recently rereading the Way of Kings, and in the middle of reading one of Kaladin’s flashbacks I had a thought. Deaged Kaladin. LIke they, (probably Navani), would be experimenting with Stormlight or a new fabrial or some new technology in Urithiru, and there’s an accident and suddenly there’s a teenage Kaladin who remembers nothing of the last 7 to 8 years. ‘Cause wouldn’t it be cool if Bridge Four, and Adolin, and Dalinar and all them could meet/interact with teen Kal. Because they would be shocked about how much different he is then compared to now. Like teen Kal has awe for lighteyes, and he hates to hurt people, and he’s torn between being a soldier or a surgeon. He believes in both, and he has to make a choice between them, and then in the middle of all his confusion, bam. He’s in a strange place with people he’s never seen before. If Dalinar or another like “warrior” lighteyes is there, cue the hero worship. Dalinar would want to adopt him on the spot. And Bridge Four would never let him out of their sight because their Captain is insane and always getting in trouble, and they expect the little Captain to be the EXACT SAME WAY. Teen Kal and Lift would be best friends, and she and Syl would enable him in his troublemaking ways, because he would absolutely go around and help all the people who are hurt that he can. And he would constantly be ditching Bridge 4 and Adolin, because you know Adolin would love and be fascinated with this Pure Child who actually likes lighteyes, because whenever Miny Captain leaves their sight he is GOING to get in trouble, and Lift and Syl enable it, because Lift is Lift and Syl finds it simultaneously sweet what Kaladin is doing, and Bridge 4′s attempts to stop him hilarious. 

Here’s another way of putting it since I’m all over the place with this.

Kaladin being deaged in Urithiru and the rest of them dying over this Pure Child. Some sort of accident happened to cause it. He and Lift become best friends. Bridge Four wants to protect this smol Pure Child, and basically stalk him. Or just blatantly never leave him alone. Because their Captain is reckless and insane about his own safety, and they don’t trust him by himself. Dalinar wants to adopt him but Bridge Four keeps thwartng him because the tiny Captain is theirs damn it! Adolin and Shallan love him and join Dalinar in fighting Bridge Four for the small Kal, Renarin is torn between enabling Adolin or Bridge Four. Eventually they set up a rotation over who gets to watch him. Kaladin finds medical supplies and then proceeds to run around all of Urithiru with Lift healing people. It drives everybody crazy. No one but Lift can keep up with him, and she enables him. Syl thinks it’s both sweet and hilarious, so helps Kal. Everyone who he helps loves him. 

Basically, it would be awesome and amazing for Kaladin to get deaged and for all of them to see how he used to be.

HEADCANON#6

Person A: What are you doing?

Person B: *squiggling in person A’s arms* Hiding

Person A: …..do you mean hugging?

Person B *pauses* : Did I fucking stutter.

Person B : This is my safe place.

Person B : Now shut up and put your arms around me.

While looking for some flags, I stumbled upon this one and thought

yEP this is my flag

crowley. also pls reblog this shit it took so long. for real i made this over the course of four days.

Yay to all fic writers!

Yay to those who write book-length stories that keep me company when I can’t sleep or the ones who keeps me awake until dawn.

Yay to those who write short stories that I can read quickly for my dose of daily happiness.

Yay to those who give me angst/fluff when I need it.

Yay to those who put tears in my eyes, joy or sadness, I love them all.

Yay to those who taught me how to keep a straight face when reading smut but can’t make me not blush when reading fluff.

Yay to those who put feelings into words.

Yay to those who fixed it. To those who broke it.

Yay to those who give us more time with our favorite characters.

Yay to those who support the common ship.

Yay to those who navigate on a raft.

Yay to those who put hours Into research to make it more real.

Yay to those who didn’t because it’s fiction and it should feel like it.

Yay to those who do justice to characters.

Yay to those who give good and diverse representations.

Yay to those who are the foundation of fandoms.

Yay to those who write by passion, for free, to us.

Yay to fic writers.

Okay I’m still not over Dead Apple

Sorry if it has already been said before, but I was thinking A LOT about one parallel.

It is situated at the beginning and in the end of the movie.

Two scenes paralleling each other perfectly. But at the beginning we can 100% agree that Dazai came here to commemorate his friend, and in the end of the movie… most of us couldn’t agree with Atsushi’s words because our opinions on Dazai can vary. Because everyone of us sees him differently, and so do other Bungou Stray Dogs characters. Mostly, they hate him for what he’s done. For his actions that broke people’s souls. For everything that still itches inside Dazai’s heart.

Dazai by himself thinks that he’s evil. And yes, he’s made lots of things that make him (and us) think so.

But Atsushi doesn’t have the same opinion.

Even knowing that Dazai has done lots and lots of bad things in his life, Atsushi still thinks of him as a good person.

And I think that this parallel shows us real Dazai. Because even if he himself doesn’t think so, he changes. Slowly, painfully, overstepping his past mistakes and accepting himself, but he changes. He’s still manipulative and he’s still doing everything to get what he needs even if it means he should injure somebody.

But Atsushi still sees a good person in him despite everything Dazai did and does. Atsushi, one of the few people, believes in him and in his kindness. Atsushi CAN see through his masks and CAN understand Dazai, so both of his phrases – at the beginning and in the end – are true. He’s confused because it’s obvious that Dazai came to the grave with a certain purpose and it’s obvious that Dazai has opportunity to be good.

And Dazai is shocked. He has not so many people who have seen through him so deeply and who have believed in him so sincerely.

Dazai is not an angel. He’s kind of devilish sometimes, sadistic, pain in his soul makes him want to end all of it. He hates pain. He hates the process of living. He hates himself. He can’t end it.

But when there are people like Atsushi around him, who believe in him despite of everything, he still can manage. Dazai still has a chance to become a better person, even if it’s not what he’s used to. And Atsushi several times showed that he’s here to save him.

Just like Dazai ones saved Atsushi.

let’s talk about racism in the danmei fandom

alright so originally i wrote this for twitter, but i felt like tumblr could benefit from it too. today we’re finally getting the long awaited “deconstruction of racism in the danmei fandom” post. and lemme preface this by saying- i’m chinese-american. i’m nblm. i do, in fact, have the cultural and historical background to know what i am talking about. so let’s get into it. 

this is gonna be a long post, because we have a lot to talk about. first, racism doesn’t have to be as blatant as calling me a chink, or saying all asians look the same, or not wanting to consume asian media, or making ching chong jokes.racism can be as subtle towards asians as it can towards any other race. if you think i shouldn’t have to say that, join the club, bc same. 

second, racism towards asians, especially in the west, has a long history of being overlooked and accepted. now, let’s talk about how racism dictates some of the takes you see in the fandom. firstly, what originally inspired this thread- the mxtx rumors and the jokes being made about her and censorship. now, obvs some ppl are gonna say that they were just jokes made in poor taste. and, sure. but they were jokes made in poor taste, steeped in racism. the jokes being made about mxtx going to jail happen bc ppl do not view her as a real person. not rlly. she’s an author, sure, the author of one of their favorite novels, but she’s not, like. a person with thoughts and feelings and a life. and that sort of casual lack of humanhood and agency given to danmei authors is rooted in the severely racist dehumanization of asians that’s prevalent in the west. this is something that can be seen other places, too- a good example being when parasite was notably nominated for every oscar category *except* the acting ones. 

it’s this lack of personhood, this lack of agency, that allows ppl to have takes like “censorship isn’t actually bad, and here’s why”. yes, this is a real take that i saw. this take argues that the cql is better than mdzs, bc it is “softer and less graphic”. in general, a lot of ppl have the take that mxtx’s works in particular are too graphic, with problematic sexual elements. now, i’ve talked before about how that’s a homophobic take bc gay relationships should also be allowed to be messy. but it’s also deeply entrenched in racism. it’s why white gays can have the take “this is Problematique and here’s why” and claim it’s not homophobic. 

racism against asians has long since created a trend of sexualizing them- thinking asian men are sexy while also removing their sexual agency. asian men can be sexy, but they can’t actually *have sex*. not explicitly. there’s a historical, real world element to this. “not fats no femmes no asians” could definitely be seen on ppls grindr profiles, back in the day. asians can be sexy, sure. look at kpop boys. but they can’t be sexual. they’re infantilized. they have to remain pure and wholesome, or they’re dragged as problematic and homophobic and fetishizing, a word that’s thrown around so often it’s practically lost meaning. fetishizing is my ex-bf telling me i’m sexy bc* i’m asian, it’s bl/yaoi fans approaching a gay couple on the bus and gushing over how “cute and yaoi they are.” fetishizing is *not* showing your 2 male main charas having explicit sex. if it is, then every white fan in danmei is fetishizing asians. 

but i digress- back to the point about racism. the fact that ppl can argue about censorship shows that they, as a whole, aren’t considering the ramifications of censorship on the literal country it exists in, and it’s citizens. i, obvs, do not live in china. but i’ve got relatives who do, and who did. i’ve got relatives who fled china. not everything is about you and the media you want to consume. and then, of course, there’s the casual racism. the everyday racism. the racism that lies in things like saying all the names are too similar and it’s hard to keep track of them. the racism in saying things like “i’m just here to have fun,,,like sure, i’d persevere through dostoevsky, but this is danmei”, as if danmei is somehow inferior, as if danmei isn’t meant to be critically engaged with, as if danmei doesn’t tackle and critically explore some of the deepest and darkest issues. 

asian media is often presented that way, from kung fu movies to danmei. there is a type of racism, of eurocentrism, that exists in the belief that western media has deeper, more engaging morals. asian media is more “fun”. asian media is almost entirely based on morals and deep thought, it’s just not based in western ones. for example, two of my favorite authors are haruki murakami and kazuo ishiguro. both are japanese authors, who’s works i’ve heard westerners describe as weird and without a point, when in fact they are simply telling stories with innately eastern asian morals and teachings. it’s the same type of racism that causes ppl to make jokes about asian food, to not view it as a craft the same way they do french food. it’s asian- it must be “less than”, be inferior, be inherently not worth as much. 

casual racism about asians is normalized, which isn’t a word i use often. it’s normalized to the point where ppl don’t even realize they have that sort of implicit bias, and we know ppl don’t rlly come on the internet to think critically. but unintentional racism is still racism. it still has an impact, still does damage. ppl need to think intentionally and critically in how they consume and interact with media not made for them, but they don’t, instead choosing to come in with their preexisting biases, and bc of that, it’s easy for fandom members to dismiss the cultural concerns of chinese ppl within the fandom. it’s easy, for example, to say “calling them martial brothers is incest apologism”, ignoring the inherent cultural roots of martial brothers. 

now, we’re gonna get in to the current “drama”. i do not ship chengxian. i think that even bears repeating. i Do Not ship chengxian. i have written them, in a modern au, as adopted brothers. but there is a real historical and culture relevance to the idea of martial brothers, of community, that westerners willfully refuse to hear, claiming instead that “you’re disregarding adopted families!” no. that’s not what’s happening at all. what’s happening is ppl are refusing to look at their own, western bias, and placing western values on an eastern idea. community raising of children, community family bonds without being adopted families, is important in east asian culture. there is a long history of community being whats important, and ppl don’t get that you can be a “communal/community family” without being considered familial. jyl choosing to view wwx as her brother, bc he is a martial brother, and chengxian being in love, are things that can technically coexist. whether or not you choose to perceive them as such, refusing to acknowledge the real history of martial brothers, and scremaing “incest apologism” whenever someone tries to explain it, is inherently racist. it’s you assuming you know my culture better than me. it’s you assuming your western ideas are the only ones that exist. which is, at its core, the basis for most racism in the danmei fandom. 

most racism in the danmei fandom comes from this idea that casual racism against asians isn’t *really* racism, and therefore asians don’t *really* get to have a say, and it shouldn’t matter anyway bc we’re lucky you’re even engaging with danmei, with asian content, since it’s shallow and inferior anyway. the racism comes from a place of moral superiority, of ownership, of this assumption that westerners are entitled to not just consume danmei but also bring their western lens and apply it to something that was never written for them in the first place.

and i’ll fucking do it again

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