Bitch Please Old Age Is Simply Self Destruction.

I feel like starving today and few days ago might remove some of the weight gains, but getting lean is my goal. I might have sped up to extreme though, firstly i drink protein and then feel like almost dying, without enough water and carbs it is impossible for me to process glycogen enough, i don’t know medicine stuffs…. But if i eat carbs i still need to be in calorie deficit, one way or another i will be getting skinnier, all that monthly progress might jave been in vain.

But Ive heard one doesnt lose muscles quickly, I drink protein but I only eat light salad and very foods.

That said I feel headwise dizzy and its second time I remember messing up proportions of protein, drink too much and my head becomes hell, heart is aching feel like I’d die.

I’ve been reading higurashi so far and i am honestly going nuts with starvation, its definitely not good but ive eaten quite a bit too. Its confusing….. i have trained today either and I didnt yesterday barely, because i feel so little energy plus for most of day I had no access to containers of water because the water got boiled and therefore undrinkable. Having the pretaste of chocolate flavorsd protein left for so long without water feels disgusting. I can say that I probably have lost fat but it feels… ugh horrible and i dont know jow much muscle i lose since i javent trained today i am going to sleep tomorrow is sleep

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is now public again.

none of it was funny, but was procrastinating.... i was thinking of doing some quizzes or spin the wheel, or something of that crap on the web.... nah, i decided to find one of these old "team" memes so I've made this, albeit it was hard using only my meme folder.

my meme folder, apparently, hasn't grown even remotely since the last year..... its pretty awful

It doesn’t seem in our world anyone truly cares about it. We are aware and when we are aware we dont particularly follow quality. There’s nothing wrong with living that way, living like a mechanical person, doing same things over and over even though cold to the mind is warmful to your heart, just because of far worse existence as mind that is cruel in its apoptosis forming network of sin. It’s comfy. Being static and habitual, ultimately one would want to learn many skills and excel at these skills instead of picking as many hobbies as fraud maniac, but I myself think who reads my rambling? Do human beings only tender to what is in their benefit? Do they understand what these cretins want too?

My idea bein’ o algo

First, I go through this logic. I imagine the world without pedophilea, is this world any different? Is this world any better? Are the people more moral? Do they help each other with no benefit for their own soul?

No.

Then, let's go farther, the wrold without death, the world without weapons... Bla Bla Bla. Will people not find ways to hurt each other? If after the people are traumatized, they no longer make coherent cynical decisions, then wouldn't that be possible that pedophilea is not bad either? In the world as it is I really advocate for wokism, fort he way for trash to wake up. I want them to be wokne up. If you are moral solely because of random bias subjectively that you've encountered, my sword or anyone's sword is moral and justice, I cannot imagine the world without pedos as they will be replaced by the very ones who hated them, as their jealousy is shown true color.

As long as Satoko Houjou cooks, she is perfect muslim haram wife

MerfolkCHADS won. Troons lost again. YWNBARW

had contractors come by and forgot i was wearing this shirt

I don’t feel like doing anything right now. Sigh… Sometimes I wonder what’s the point of doing anything especially hobbies… I overthink like I always have done, God…

I think I should give up as much as possible, but i need some kind of alarm thing like so that when i get intrusive about writing my doushjin somebody snaps me or i need some cue.