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last night i had the craziest fucking dream

there was this island off the coast of los angeles called thelena iirc. (sidenote, i didnt know what it was called for the longest time. i pulled out my phone in the dream and used google maps and saw all of the city names and ferry routes) iirc it gained significant popularity and acted as a refuge for many people after some climate disaster killed a lot of the usa, but i also remember the usa being bustling, so thats a continuity error in my dream. the other part of thelena was as a massive experiment by the united states government, as they wanted to see if they should switch the usa over to a socialist nation, as well as switch over to public transit/walkable cities because thelena was relatively small (iirc around the size of los angeles), and was isolated from the mainland, it was a perfect testing ground.

unsurprisingly, thelena socially blew up, with many thousands of people migrating to it, and being a hub for scientific and technological advancement, all in perfect harmony with nature

*sigh* i wish thelena was real

also, some whacky shit happened in that dream.

- there was a pizza hut on thelena and one of the toppings was whole brains

- i had a derelict boeing 737 with broken cockpit windows which i flew around in and fucked around with

- i fought ganondorf (from the legend of zelda) but with horse legs at the beginning of the dream

- one of the ways you can tell if you're in a dream is by noticing text, and if its all weird and moves due to the fact that your brain cant render text, you are in a dream. my brain just didnt do this. thats how i knew it was called thelena (although i might have forgot the exact spelling)

- my brain somehow almost perfectly rendered google maps on my phone? there were a few graphical glitches with nonexistent islands filling up ocean bays and it looked really weird, but other than that my brain perfectly rendered google maps text, zoom, roads, and ferry routes

you’re sitting across from me in a shitty diner in anywhere, america, and i watch you pour too much creamer in your coffee and i think “i love you.” you look up, catching me staring, and for a moment i think i’m brave enough to say it, but i take too long and the moment passes. i take the balled up straw wraper and flick it at you, pretending that was my plan all along. you laugh. i never want to go another day without hearing that laugh. i think i will have all the time in the world to say it.

whatever man, you're a fake creator. you're not playing spore, you're playing something else entirely

i made this anon in spore [2008]

next time show your face

The Independent

How two trans women ran a legendary underground surgical clinic in a rural barn

The neighbours had no idea. The medical equipment came from eBay. But in a dark time for transgender people, these anarchist medics treated

extremely cool article you should read if you haven’t already

THIS EXACTLY!!! also for sensory stuff too. like are you hiking and absolutely miserable because you hate the way that sweat and dirt feels on your skin? turn off that sensation until you're ready

it's about full and total control. and for me, i think it'd be pretty cool to wrench on myself, too

Sometimes, I want to be a robot girl. Outside of the context of kink, I mean, which is what I largely see on this site. I mean the kinky stuff, too, but just what the ramifications of being a machine could be intrigue me a lot.

Robot girl who can temporarily disable emotions that aren't useful or socially appropriate.

Robot girl who can power off when she's overwhelmed.

Robot girl who can patch her missing knowledge about social situations and rules.

Robot girl who can change her body at will.

Robot girl who shows you her operating system because she wants you to know her. Really, really, know her.

Robot girl connected to a whole network of other robot girls so that she never feels alone.

I just want to be robot girl.

huh. I did the BDSM test but I was expecting "submissive" to rank higher.

half baked morning rant

I do want to make it clear that the reason I talk about HRT and its biological effects so much is not because HRT or medicalization defines your gender.

Its because, for me personally, the interface of my biology education and my transition was mostly centered around figuring out what sex hormones do. I learned about basic biology principles like DNA organization, gene regulation, cell biology, and physiology in high school and undergrad. Taking that understanding and extending it to the mechanisms that hormones use to change gene regulation, and by extension, the rest of your body broadly, was something I did as my understanding became more complete in later undergrad and grad school. It was the key to me starting my own transition.

Why?

Because it was the first time I realized that the "basic biology" arguments of transphobes were complete and utter bullshit. From that point, it was a cascade. As in, wait, if dynamic changes in gene expression are considered "biological" to them, and I know that isn't true, then why am I believing anything they say about anything else? When they talk about gametes, and try to include infertile cis people in their definitions of biological sex by talking about what gamete you're "intended" to make, what do they even mean? Why does my current gene expression not define that "intent"? And wait, back up, why is the brain suddenly not considered part of our biology? Why are neurological differences suddenly not "biological"? Why can we say someone's thinking patterns aren't "biological"?

Backing up even further, why does any of this matter more than psychological gender, or sociological gender? If the way we navigate society is gendered, that affects a lot of our lives, and we're just throwing that away?

Basically, being educated about how deep the biological changes of HRT really go was the first domino to fall when I worked through my internalized transphobia.

This is one of many reasons why I hate, hate HATE the concession that uninformed allies and even many trans people themselves give: "well NO ONE is saying that you can change your biological sex, sex and gender are completely unrelated, sex is binary and gender isn't!!!!!"

Well. I am saying that you can change your "biological" sex, I am saying that biological sex isn't binary, and I am saying that misunderstanding of those points has set back transgender advocacy. It makes medical decisions surrounding us less informed, it poisons conversations about how we interact with society, and it makes trans people feel like their gender and sex are less "real" than cis people's.

Not to mention the horrific way it discards intersex people from the conversation entirely.

Recently, I've seen this point enter the mainstream a little, by using intersex people and variation of sex in other species as a "counterargument" to "binary biological sex" thinking. It still doesn't sit right with me. One, because it uses intersex people as a prop for trans advocacy while not actually addressing the needs of either group. And two, because it completely disregards that your current biology and physiology is not 100% predestined from birth, and using people who were "born this way" as a prop does absolutely nothing to increase people's acceptance of trans people who change their biology later in life.

Ugh. This got away from me but yeah. That's my sipping coffee ramble for this morning. If anyone wants to add comment or correct me on discourse here, please do. Especially if you're intersex- this is all the observations of a perisex trans woman.

cw: discussions of transphobia, swiss politics, us/uk politics

as promised here is a video of the speech i gave at the protest yesterday! it's an angry trans speech about the current state of trans politics in switzerland and in the world :)

my silly and tired engineering brain saw this and tetris-effect'd my way into dividing and eliminating the factors of both "medusa" and "dyke" leaving 1

by our powers combined....