Talking Heads // Girlfriend Is Better

Here’s a VHS that was really popular when i was finding the internet.  Is it fake, probably, is it entertainment?  Oh yeah...

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious Disingenuousness

I hate fake enthusiasm, I hate overly friendly/touchy people, disingenuous things in general, dont sell me anything, let me shop around, and maybe I’ll buy.  Young girls are the worst, like age 15-25, “ omg HAI IM BECKY!  It’s SO good to meet you!!! “ Literally no one gives a shit becky, calm the fuck down.

The Russians have this sort of unspoken cultural thing, they never smile at people on the street, rarely do they smile in public period, because when a stranger smiles at you, he’s deceiving you, he wants something from you, there’s no reason to be smiling right now, we dont know eachother.  Smiles are for friends and family only, no smiles for you, asshole.

an observation on the sexes by no one, IE me.  Women appear to be small children always, always needing validation, attention, affirmation they are alive via pretty nailpolish and well groomed hair, what have you, however when one is to observe this, they are reprehensible, terrible people, and are surely just sexist. 

Women dont lead the statistics in cutting and bulimia because men demand that of them, thats their own fuckin looney minds at work, and i refuse to be the scapegoat for womens fuckin hysteria, both sexes are damaged, your sex is just damaged in a very vocal fuckin, look at me sort of way...charming.

Aldous Huxley’s death note.

Concerning Lilith, and of the Lillum:

I’m not religious, none of this is real, have fun.Ask alot of people and they don’t know who Lilith is ( though they will know this painting ).  The story goes, in the garden of Eden Adam and Lilith were created out of clay, and Lilith wouldn’t be subservient to Adam because they were made of the same thing and thus equal.  So god cast her out of the garden, and she became a demon.  God then created Eve of Adams rib, and since eve was made from Adam, she was thus indebted to him and subservient.  This is just one of many many bouts of sexism in the bible.We are children of Adam and Eve...or are we?  Wouldn’t it be a real kick to find out we’re actually the Lillum, of Lilith, and maybe Eves offspring were actually saved despite their parents nose and went to some other existence somewhere.  It’s easy to make the religious people go rabble rabble in atheist terms, but don’t tell them gods dead, or challenge their ideas from a standpoint that you believe in their ideas, it drives their little minds crazy.   Are we all demon children?  Have the Lillum been abandoned by their former god?  Has it been Lucifer, who has always pitied man been the one to keep us afloat in this chaos?  Don’t worry I’ll rant about Lucifer too later.  God says hes a spiteful vengeful god, perhaps you are dirt to him, hell even better maybe you made god kill himself to escape his last great mistake.

Even the most courageous among us only rarely has the courage to face what he already knows.

Nietzsche

Watching nazi shit lately, Anne frank made it til something like 3 weeks before the war ended, she and her sister died of typhoid, shall we then assume that despite good or bad, we are to make it right up until we may make it, and die short? Do we all simply live JUST to die? what is life, is life truly contingent on those around you that allow it?  Is life forever a witch hunt?

Are you only heard when some crazy force silences you?  if anne frank, despite her words that should have been heard, were ugly, would her diary sell as well?  Many many MANY deep thinking minds were destroyed in ww2,i find it strangely convenient that the stories that sell best are the ones with a good face that are edited well, are all stories contingent on how we sell them to the tribe of man?

What makes a story you want to read,is it the thoughts therein or is it how pretty the thoughts are worded, do the sounds need to come out of a face you somehow remotely relate to?  what IS it you consider depth, and more importantly WHY is it considered depth?  Have you any questions to ask?  Is the editor of the story really the one that makes ya dick hard/ginny tickle, do you even know what it IS that really tickles you? Questions Questions.

Shall it then forever be a battle of who has the prettiest words,or is it, supplementally the one who says the words closest to your own thoughts?  Do you strive to relate to people or do you strive to find those who would mirror yourself in your small view of the world and tiny endeavors therein?  

shall you then punish those who would deny your instant gratification?  should a stifling word become you antithesis?   Have I done too many mushrooms in my life?  Probably...

Do you really know what it is to be alive before you face death?  How many people do you have to bury do you think before youve outlived enough people?  what is it you want from life, what the fuck IS it you want?!

Do you imagine death as some floating experience in the clouds, do you see it as the end?  Are there truly any ends?  What IS it to end?  are not all beginnings some other end?  Can your tiny brain even conceive of not being?  If not, is that some copping mechanism?   Are you just stupid?  what IS stupid?

Are the victims of the world the only voices that matter?  Do we all not suffer our own hell, Is the winner not really a loser? Has not every action we should do have repercussions of which we cant comprehend, can we even comprehend ourselves?  

Will our spouses that cheat on us, or our self involved children save us from such fates?  are we just dooming those around us to suffer in our fate, to drown in the tides of our own raging waters?  Why is it we only destroy that which we hold dear?

Are you breathing right now?  Are you sure?  if you were to wake up tomorrow after that 8 hour death and find out there were infact no life to return to,would YOU be any different?  Do you cry out of pain or do you cry for attention?  What IS it to cry?....

https://www.youtube.com/embed/OnOWE47ew4I

https://www.youtube.com/embed/U2bMIvY3twI

If you have any deductive power you will know, A.) I AM a rap fan, and B.) 90% of rap is just, total shit.  When I took poetic verse in school we learned different formats for rhyming most rap A rhymes with B and sometimes C is thrown in, so you get blahblah blah A, blah blahblah B, C A B C C, if you can follow all that.

Much like Reggae, Funk or Blues rap is very formulaic, but this is a man who not only has something to actually say but does it in a format entirely his own.  Does he have better songs, absolutely, does this song prove the point, definitely.  Ladies and Gentleman if you dont know that DOOM’s nervous large you don’t know rap.  I’ll put money on it, interview any rapper worth a fuck and he will tell you he’s a DOOM fan. 

Here’s me drunkenly playing” Cheap Day Return “ by Jethro Tull, I have terrible audio equipment and suggest headphones to even hear me....