And They Say Brunettes With Dimples Can’t Stabilize The Reactor Core 😏

i don't know man, i just wish that we could [suddenly realising i'm coming dangerously close to expressing a real and earnest thought instead of filtering everything through several layers of intangible running bits] blow up the entire world. or something.

Not all heroes wear capes

”Free will is a length of rope and God wants you to hang yourself with it” is such a RAW line for Cas to say like whoever wrote that sentence needs a Nobel prize for literature

sometimes im like "wow holy shit im being really fucking annoying. i should stop talking" and then i pull out my magic 8 ball and it says "youve always been annoying and your friends chose to talk you anyways. youll be fine" and im like wow thanks magic 8 ball. and then the ogre attacks me

ok so this is the worst thing ive ever drawn

rereading homestuck for the first time since i was 16 and now my mental landscape (headspace? idk we just call it da narrative) has changed drastically. i think? actually it feels like it shed some light onto the more obscure corners and returned language to me.

the effects from the epilogues and BC are astounding though.

me at 5pm: being single is objectively the healthiest choice for me and I don’t feel like dating anyway and don’t enjoy using dating apps, I’m fine with it

me at 10pm: My God I’m so lonely So I open the window To hear sounds of people To hear sounds of people Venus planet of love Was destroyed by global warming Did its people want too much too Did its people want too much And I don't want your pity I just want somebody near me Guess I'm a coward I just want to feel alright And I know no one will save me i just need someone to kiss Give me one good honest kiss And I'll be alright Nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody Ooh, nobody, nobody, nobody I've been big and small And big and small And big and small again And still nobody wants me Still nobody wants me And I know no one will save me I'm just asking for a kiss Give me one good movie kiss And I'll be alright Nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody Ooh, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody (nobody) (Nobody, nobody) Nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, no

oh, ok *smokes enough weed to forget who i am*

this is what i've been working hard to remind myself lately

The wildest part about being a system and having known you are a system for a while (6+ years for us) HAS to be seeing people who are just figuring it out fall into holes that you've long left behind.

Like. Yeah. We also thought we needed to keep tabs on everyone to increase communication. In the end it became too unwieldy. Especially since DID evolves with what you experience all the time.

Microlabels are cool and I fully support anyone who uses them, but figuring out what to call every single structure in your system isn't for us anymore.

Another thing we notice is people who try their best to know who is fronting at all given times. A lot of that comes naturally to us nowadays, but it's also... OK not to know. Especially if you're not focusing on anything system related at the time.

I guess a lot of this boils down to, it's okay not to care. It's okay to go with the flow of things and figure out at your own pace. Identity is fluid, especially if you have a dissociative disorder. You don't HAVE to have everything figured out 100% of the time.

It's okay to take it slow. It's okay to not know. It's okay to just exist for a bit. It's okay to live and experience things beyond being a system.

To all the people who are just starting to comprehend this. You do not need to know and label exactly what is happening in your head all the time. Fuck, we sure don't. And we're happier for it.

It's okay to just be you.

i genuinely cannot put into words how much damage these tiktok "educators" are doing to the ramcoa community. there is already huge issues with survivors being unable to access therapy not even because of the uptick in people claiming it, but because of the fact that so many dissociative specialists don't fucking advertise that they're dissociative specialists anymore because of the faking tiktok shit. this is not even a speculatory thing, this is a real thing that's happening.

what the fuck happens when they start seeing organized abuse, which is already highly HIGHLY fucking stigmatized and ritual abuse which is largely disbelieved by the professional community due to the satanic panic and FMSF situations, as trends on social fucking media? what happens when our resources GENUINELY get taken away from us? what happens then?

i am begging you guys to use critical thinking skills. if people don't cite jack shit for sources when asked, or if they're claiming they're making some beneficial source like the stupid fucking alpha through omega of programming shit legion made and says "i used sources" at the end but never fucking lists them, don't listen to them! literally even if their source is "i extrapolated this information from the resources i have read like (examples provided) and i was able to draw a conclusion from them because this is a common trend among them" that is SO much better than the bullshit these fuckers are pulling.

do you know how tiring it is to answer the same five questions over and over and over again? do you know how tiring it is to rehash the exact same point you've been making for the last two months because some fuckwad on tiktok says "no that's not true :)" and then people are asking you about it again and it's just running in fucking circles?

we are not a trend. we are real people.