2024

if you were the toriel cosplayer who gave me a blowjob at dragoncon, PLEASE inbox me. i think you took my wallet. it looks like an NES

every time someone talks about someone "faking disability to live on welfare" or anything to that effect i think about how my mom worked in law and directly knew of a case of a guy who had terminal brain cancer with an estimated few months to live and got rejected the first time he applied for disability income. like, he was 100% going to die and that wasn't disabled enough to not have to jump through a million hoops and get lawyers involved. non-disabled people "living off of welfare" is such a non issue because i cannot bring myself to care about the like, 3 people who maybe successfully do it compared to the thousands of people rejected who need aid

i genuinely cannot put into words how much damage these tiktok "educators" are doing to the ramcoa community. there is already huge issues with survivors being unable to access therapy not even because of the uptick in people claiming it, but because of the fact that so many dissociative specialists don't fucking advertise that they're dissociative specialists anymore because of the faking tiktok shit. this is not even a speculatory thing, this is a real thing that's happening.

what the fuck happens when they start seeing organized abuse, which is already highly HIGHLY fucking stigmatized and ritual abuse which is largely disbelieved by the professional community due to the satanic panic and FMSF situations, as trends on social fucking media? what happens when our resources GENUINELY get taken away from us? what happens then?

i am begging you guys to use critical thinking skills. if people don't cite jack shit for sources when asked, or if they're claiming they're making some beneficial source like the stupid fucking alpha through omega of programming shit legion made and says "i used sources" at the end but never fucking lists them, don't listen to them! literally even if their source is "i extrapolated this information from the resources i have read like (examples provided) and i was able to draw a conclusion from them because this is a common trend among them" that is SO much better than the bullshit these fuckers are pulling.

do you know how tiring it is to answer the same five questions over and over and over again? do you know how tiring it is to rehash the exact same point you've been making for the last two months because some fuckwad on tiktok says "no that's not true :)" and then people are asking you about it again and it's just running in fucking circles?

we are not a trend. we are real people.

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but please don’t break promises you make to yourself just because it’s you the promise is being made to. You told yourself you’d go on a walk with tomorrow morning? Do it. You said you’d set more consistent with your skincare routine? Make it happen. You promised yourself you would work on establishing boundaries regardless of who’s on the other side of them? Follow through with that. Don’t wake up the next day and go “well I don’t HAVE to do this” “it wouldn’t hurt to postpone this” “this isn’t a big deal” because it literally is. Every promise broken is another nail in the coffin of your self-actualization. It’s another major roadblock to developing healthy self-love and self-respect. Weigh promises you’ve made to yourself the same way you would weigh promises you’ve made to others.

Happy late 413 AAAA

vampire knight backgrounds from the vampire knight artbook by matsuri hino

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

happy birthday to the game ever <333

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people misunderstand what ‘gifted kid’ actually means but it’s ok it’s fine it’s cool it’s good

Chiitan, Japan's crazy mascot beats up Orihara Izaya from the hit anime Durarara!! (colorized)