It's Been Like A Month Since I Drew This And I Finally Decided To Post It

about Ben being queer coded

I must start saying this post won't be about ships. This is about some of the things in Ben's character arc that can be paralleled with queer experiences. Feel free to add more parallels on the comments or reblogs.

These are just some general observations that I already pointed out before and that I wanted to put in a single post.

For me, seeing queerness in Ben is not about simply putting him in a relationship with a men. For me, it always has been about Ben's identity as a person, about how his queerness could be inherent to his character.

Now talking about Ben's character during JWCC, the first thing we should mention is how his arc portraits a journey of self-discovery.

The way he changed after the monorail incident. The way he transformed himself and started doing things he hasn't done before. He clearly was trying to achieve more freedom by doing that.

When he turns into his "island boy" persona in season 2, his identity is not clear for him yet. He tries to perform some confidence, constantly trying to affirm himself as brave, but he doesn't know who he is.

In season 4, he freaks out about it and starts thinking he is not good enough for being that persona he was trying to be, and to protect camp fam.

This identity "crisis" is so common for queer people. Not just that, but the feeling of displacement he expresses in S4 when he's thinking that who he already is is not enough, really resonates with lgbtqia+ realities.

When he turned into an "Island Boy" we finally thought Ben was feeling free to do whatever he wanted. But the truth is that he kept feeling insecure about who he was and S4 shows this to us.

That's why I used the word "displacement" to describe his situation. I know he had his friends' support. But anyone in his situation would feel out of place, after all, he was questioning his own identity.

When he advises Yaz after she came out to him on season 5, it looks like he knew what he was talking about. For me, what justify he having that specifically knowledge about life is that he has been questioning himself too. And I'm not even talking about Ben questioning if he is queer himself, I'm talking, again, about him questioning his own identity in general. And this is already enough for us to make a parallel with queer experiences.

In conclusion: questioning his own identity, having a journey of self-discovery, feeling out of place, wanting to achieve more freedom to be who he is, giving advises about coming out...It all feels queer coded to me.

Remembered that Brian got to be Walt’s dad for longer than Michael did and now I want to kill the lost writers with hammers

Brokeback Mountain (2005)

Do yall think Ben ever has dreams where John and him are raising Alex together on the island and after he wakes in such a cold sweat because he knows he will never have that because he wants it so bad

I haven’t been able to look up anything about LOST yet because I haven’t finished the show but I just finished ‘Left Behind’ and I was so convinced while watching that this episode was going to reveal that Kate was bisexual 😭 the tension with her and Juliet was crazy. The forbidden toxic yuri. Ladies pls stop fighting over stupid Sawyer and Jack who gaf about those boring dudes you’re both so much more beautiful and interesting just kiss each other.

The flashbacks of the episode being about her meeting Sawyer’s baby mama and hanging out also seemed like it was going to reveal that she was gay I’m dead. She had more chemistry with Cassidy than Sawyer and she was dressed gay as hell. I kept waiting for them to hook up and then they never did??? My balls are so blue.

Anyways, bisexual Kate and Kate x Juliet live on in my dreams.

people on here will be blorboposting about their averagely named blorbos with their first names only. "john is sooo wet cat coded especially when he made that lady shoot herself" john who exactly. john as in the republican kid who goes to my school and swears he isn't gay but likes mens thirst traps on instagram ? we must elaborate on the johns.

I know Ben was sweating thinking about how he had to leave John on the island with Eyeliner Richard. Like not only can he not return to the island or bring his boyfriend with him off the island John is now buddy buddy with a man that has beautiful eyelashes and doesn’t age. He must of been breaking out in rashes the minute he left

Ive been binge watching lost, almost done season 4🤤

Of course i have to draw the evil rat guy😔 (+sayid, eko, daniel, and a young ben drawing ill never finish )

i want to eat the dharma fish biscuit