Fanfiction Truly Being The Savior For Everyones Sanity

me stalking until i find something that will leave me crying so hard i throw up

i'm going to unalive myself

Thoughts about school spirits finale episode????

she actually hacked me for this one

chasing city lights

chapter 19 - what if

synopsis: you move to new york to start fresh, hoping to find comfort in the city’s atmosphere. that’s when you meet sarah cameron, where she takes you to a concert and you catch sight of the lead band member, rafe cameron. it only takes a moment for you to realize you’re captivated by him. as sarah helps you navigate your new life in the city, you start to get pulled deeper into rafe's world—the music, the fame, the chaos. the more you get to know him, the more you realise that rafe is not just the rock star he seems to be. he’s wrestling with his own demons, and the last thing he needs is someone like you getting close.

masterlist

cw: language, angst

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it had been a week since you and rafe had broken up, and you didn't know what hurt more. the fact you were no longer with him, or the fact he hadn't tried to reach out. not once.

you know you couldn't be upset about that, considering you broke up with him, but part of you hoped he would've tried harder to stay.

and that hurt more than anything.

because now you were left wondering, had it really been that easy for him to let go? had he moved on ? had you spent the last eight months loving someone who was only waiting for an excuse to walk away?

your phone sat on your nightstand, untouched, as if the silence from him was something tangible, something suffocating. you had checked it a million times, hoping to see his name flash across the screen. but it never did.

not a single message. not a single missed call. nothing. you should be relieved. this should be making it easier. but it didn't at all.

you didn't even ask sarah how he was doing as you were too scared to find out the answer. what if he was doing good? what if he realised actually he was better off without you? what if he was happy without you?

what if losing you didn’t break him the way losing him was breaking you?

the thought made your chest tighten, a sharp, suffocating ache settling deep in your ribs. you had spent the last week convincing yourself that you did the right thing, that walking away was the only option. but if that were true, if you had really made the best decision, then why did it feel like this?

you swallowed the lump in your throat, blinking up at the ceiling as if that would stop the tears from forming.

the truth was, no matter how badly you wanted to hate him, no matter how much you told yourself you had to let go, a part of you was still waiting.

waiting for him to show up. waiting for him to fight for you.

waiting for something that clearly wasn’t coming.

every little thing reminded you of him. you hadn't seen the girls in a few days, as even being around them reminded you of all the times you'd been together as a group. everything was so quiet now.

the quiet was the worst part of it, the loneliness. the brutal realisation that maybe you had been waiting for nothing. that maybe rafe had already decided you weren’t worth the fight. because if he had really loved you the way he claimed, wouldn’t he have come after you by now? wouldn’t he have done something?

but all you had was silence.

you clenched your jaw, trying to force yourself to stop thinking about him, but it was impossible. his hoodie still hanging on the back of your chair, the faint smell of his cologne on your pillow, the way your body still instinctively turned toward your phone at every notification, only to find nothing.

you hated that he still had this much of a hold on you. you hated that you were here, in this room, drowning in heartbreak while he was god knows where, probably just fine. probably moving on.

a fresh wave of nausea rolled through you at the thought.

had he already found someone else?

had he kissed someone new with the same mouth that used to whisper i love you?

the idea of it sent a sharp pain through your chest, but you shook your head, forcing yourself to breathe. it doesn’t matter. he's not yours anymore.

that thought alone nearly broke you.

because deep down, no matter how much it hurt, you still wanted to be his.

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a/n: i fear i took this one straight from my journal when i got broken up with LOL

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I need this man in a way that sets feminism back 100 years I'm sorry. I need him biblically

goddd i just wanna ride him and kiss him and kiss and lick his neck and feel his cute moans ugggdhdnd

I'm crushing so hard over Milo Manheim. I'm not used to crushing on someone that's my age, generally is some dilf or 36yo guy. He's so boyfriend material just look at that---

he's such a silly, orange cat boy

chasing city lights

chapter 14 - 3 words

synopsis: you move to new york to start fresh, hoping to find comfort in the city’s atmosphere. that’s when you meet sarah cameron, where she takes you to a concert and you catch sight of the lead band member, rafe cameron. it only takes a moment for you to realize you’re captivated by him. as sarah helps you navigate your new life in the city, you start to get pulled deeper into rafe's world—the music, the fame, the chaos. the more you get to know him, the more you realise that rafe is not just the rock star he seems to be. he’s wrestling with his own demons, and the last thing he needs is someone like you getting close.

masterlist

cw: language and fluff

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waking up knowing your boyfriend and your best friends had been nominated for a grammy was a feeling like no other.

once rafe had texted you the news he came straight over to yours to celebrate together.

"i can't believe it" he screamed as soon as he walked through your door, picking you up in an excited hug.

"me neither baby, i'm so proud of you." you replied in his arms.

he pulled back slightly, looking into your eyes and his face lit up with pure joy. you smiled, running your fingers through his hair, feeling the excitement radiating off him. "you deserve this so much rafe."

he kissed you softly, his lips lingering a little longer than usual, before pulling away with a wide grin. "i couldn't have done it without you, you know that, right?"

you chuckled. "i don’t think that’s true. you’ve been amazing from the start, and you’ve earned every bit of this. but i’m glad i get to share it with you."

he kissed you again, harder this time, full of emotion. "i love you y/n"

"what?"

"i love you so much. so," he kissed you, "so" another kiss, "so much."

you pulled away to look straight into his eyes, making sure your next words would go straight through to him.

"i love you even more rafe."

he smiled, his eyes softening as he held you close. "you don’t know how much that means to me," he whispered, his voice full of raw emotion.

you rested your head on his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear. "i think i do," you murmured. "i think we both know how much this means."

rafe pulled back gently, wiping a stray tear from your cheek, and laughed softly. "i swear, this is the happiest moment of my life."

you grinned. "well, it’s only the beginning, right?"

he nodded, his eyes sparkling, "yeah, just the beginning princess. i'm gonna need a date to the grammys after all."

"well," you said, wrapping your arms back around his neck, "i'm not going anywhere.”

he kissed you one more time - this time with the promise of a future full of more moments like this.

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a/n: you guys in my last chapter making me giggle with your trust issues, have a feeling this is only going to fuel them further😝

reminder that reblogging is the best way to support writers <3

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