Queerbaiting Is Good Because The Yearning Is Always Better Than The Having

i'm tired of reading about women having unfulfilling sex with their male partners and religious guilt and how the internet is affecting our ability to connect with each other and ultraspecific references to name-brand products and disaffected writers writing disaffected prose about how disaffected they are and thinly-veiled elite university campuses and conspicuously nameless first-person protagonists and bargain bin nihilism and sparse utilitarian language and marriage plots and conflicted feelings about motherhood and metacommentary and vaguely liberal politics. i want to read just one beautiful sentence

god I love being queer

Most architects are fascist adderall addicted perverts and thats why everything looks like shit. The amphetamines and porn rotted their brains and they were probably jerking off designimg your shitty little studio apartment and thinking about you suffering. Sorry to tell you this

"And Cain says, “When you split me and my brother in the womb, you did not divide us evenly. He got kindness, and I got longing. He got complacence, and I got ambition. I want to kill him sometimes. I think sometimes he wants to die.”

- Nathaniel Orion, "Hevel"

Love is not a state, a feeling, a disposition, but an exchange, uneven, fraught with history, with ghosts, with longings […]

Judith Butler, Take My Advice: Letters to the Next Generation from People Who Know a Thing or Two; from 'Doubting Love' 

Maybe it’s better to have the terrible times first. I don’t know. Maybe then, you can have, if you live, a better life, a real life, because you had to fight so hard to get it away⸺you know?⸺from the mad dog who held it in his teeth. But then your life has all those tooth marks, too, all those tatters and all that blood.

James Baldwin  This morning, this evening, so soon