Anaïs Nin, Delta Of Venus, Originally Published: 1977

Persecutor culture is taking your time and learning to make connections and friends in a healthy way.

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Julian K. Jarboe, “As Tender Feet of Cretan Girls Danced Once Around an Altar of Love.” Everyone on the Moon is Essential Personnel

Audre Lorde, from The Black Unicorn: Poems; “Power”

[Text ID: “I have not been able to touch the destruction within me.”]

made another one. :+)

Giuseppe Ungaretti, from a poem titled "Christmas," featured in Selection of Modern Italian Poetry

Do you ever feel like this reality is just not made for you.

anyone else feel like theyre on the verge of insanity in an undescribable way

I keep getting harassed for my abusive past actions even though i'm trying my best to recover and said sorry, it makes me feel sometimes like I'm unfixable and just destined to be a monster forever, and that I deserve to feel in pain, how do I move on from that?

You aren't a monster or incapable of change. All you can really do though is keep your side of the street clean; keep doing better, and give yourself grace. We are allowed to be kind to ourselves, even when no one else is. We can't change the past, and we can't change how it affects other people, nor their response to what happened. I know it's a sucky thing to accept, and accepting that doesn't make any of those permanent, dehumanizing judgements true.

You are who you are today; not who you were before you learned better. Set boundaries as you need to, and remember there will always be people who will support and love you. People are complicated and far from perfect. There is a future for you, and that future can be bright and peaceful. Just stick around and keep going, and you'll find it. ♡