I Love You So Bad But Maybe It Wasn't Meant To Be?

Sometimes it is your fault.. Sometimes you don’t listen well enough, you’re selfish, you’re rude and you aren’t always right. Sometimes you fucked it up and tbh that’s okay. It happens, learn from it, apologize and keep it moving. Just because you fucked up doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. Don’t dwell on it

Mary Oliver, from “Marengo.” [ID in alt text]

— Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Vera

When a person tells you you hurt them, you don’t get to decide you didn’t.

not mad just outside your house with a gun

Sylvia Plath, aged 22, in a letter to her mother (dated Sunday, 9 January 1955)

-Margaret Atwood, Selected Poems 1: 1965-1975

Trista Mateer, from Small Ghost: Poems; "Small Ghost Checks Her Self History,"

Internal Persecutor

An Internal Persecutor is an alter who's persecutory behaviors target the system itself, whether it be other alters or otherwise internally. [An Internal Persecutor typically doesn't target those outside the body.]

coined by @destructionsys !! flag by @littlest-bugz [aka us!]

BASIC COLOR MEANINGS

Dark Red ; The negative feelings associated with being a persecutor

Medium Red ; The pain caused to the system by the persecutory behaviors

Bright Red ; The persecutory behaviors the persecutor participates in

Black ; The targeting of the system

White ; The safety those on the outside have

Light Grey ; Representing the system as a whole, all alters in the system

Dark Grey ; Representing the pain inflicted on other alters of the system

Darkest Grey ; Representing the negative feelings towards the system.