Endless Monotony; That's What Life Has Become.

Personal growth demands that you contradict yourself. Unless you do that you remain a slave to what you currently know, think or feel. Don't look for mirrors in conversation with others that they reflect what you say. Don't look for Black holes to converse with who soak in everything you say but look for people who question the validity of your world view and have ability to think differently.

I wish you were the one who kept my wildness alive.

Get what you like or you will learn to like what you get.

How much can we ever know about the love and pain in another heart? How much can we hope to understand those who have suffered deeper anguish, greater deprivation, and more crushing disappointments than we ourselves have known?

Orhan Pamuk, Snow

God knows why is it so difficult to speak our truth with our own people, with our loved ones.

Realize that there are three layers of you: your identity, your shame, and your true self. Your identity is your outermost layer, it’s the idea that you think other people have of you. Your shame is what’s shielding you from expressing your true self, which is at your core. It is from your shame circle that irrational thoughts breed and thrive. Work on closing the gap between who the world thinks you are and who you know you are.

We can't change the card we are dealt, just how we play the hand.

Finally the 11 PM thread holding our joy together snapped too. No more waiting is to be done to hear and tell moments during the day we missed each other. No exclusive sq. ft. left for me. A dead heart beat that's all I am now. That's what I always have been.

So many times have I been used in love that I am scared to bare my heart open before you. I fear losing you, precisely the reason i will never win you.

I obey my lusts as a servant obeys his master.