what's your problem?
my problem is me
We all laugh at the "Everyone is Jin Ling's Uncle" thing but can we actually talk about how the Yunmeng sibs and their various marriages/murders almost single handedly ruined the line of succession for like every sect. Jin Ling is technically the heir to two sects because Jiang Cheng refuses to get married, except that isn't really practical but who else? Wei Ying technically would be heir if he was re-acknowledged except OH WAIT he's marrying a fucking Lan, and his only kid is freaking Lan Sizhui who is, that's right you guessed it, technically in line to be leader of Gusu Lan because once again, Lan Xichen didn't have his own damn heir! And that's not even touching that he is A WEN! Which isn't public knowledge but can we talk about the fact Wei Wuxian fucked up so bad (or good??) his actions somehow led to a WEN being in line to be sect leader of GUSU LAN??? And maybe technically Yunmeng Jiang. And maybe the Wen sect if it ever somehow came back. So that's three. Best boy Lan Sizhui could pretty much lead any sect he wanted. And then there's the dumpster fire of the Nie clan line of succesion, which I think ends somewhere around Nie Mingjue's decapitated head. You can't really blame the Jiang trio for that but Nie Huaisang is definitely like two steps away from doing some weird shit like misusing that Lan Xichen was the sworn brother of the sect leader. Just throw them into the pot as well so he doesn't have to deal with it. Absolutely obsessed with the fact one of the main plot tools of period pieces has just been ripped to smithereens because almost all the dudes refuse to fuck any women.
another random epiphany i had on my drive home from the store was that things that are the most obvious often feel the most profound. i was looking at the sunset through my window. i was like “this is beautiful and it changes all the time so every sunset is a little different and also beautiful.” which led me to think “if you look at the earth from space, the clouds are never pink or blue or yellow or orange, they are just white and grey all the time. in space perhaps the sunsets are not very different or very beautiful.” which led me to think “the sunsets are only beautiful because i am so small.” which led me to think “so many things are only beautiful because i am so small, or if not only then they are at least much more beautiful than they might otherwise be, either because my vantage point of smallness allows me to see details that big things wouldn’t see, like when i see the flash of the sun at sunset with my little eyes on this big planet, or because my briefness finds vastness so incredible cuz it’s so much bigger than me, like when i sit under a very very old and very very tall tree.” and this was all somewhat obvious but it didn’t make the feeling of epiphany go away or diminish at all
2ha is such a beautiful book wish i could talk to people more about it because it's so ?? idk how to describe it but i love how it addresses everything mo ran did in the past without romanticizing any of it. this book has so many problematic themes but i feel like every character is so complex and interesting it's hard putting it away
Please help a queer black woman leave an abusive household
TW: Abuse, Rape mention and mention of cancer and homophobia/queerphobia
Hi everyone, I am a queer black woman, my name is Chelsea and I desperately need $3500 to help move out of an abusive household.
Throughout my life I have been living with my narcissistic parents who are frequently abusive (both emotionally, physically and homophobic/queerphobic) and it has taken a toll on my mental well-being as I've been diagnosed with chronic anxiety and undiagnosed adhd. My parents continue to speak negatively to me and they have a tendency of using personal hardships that I have been through to belittle me. In 2018 I was raped by someone I knew in highschool. That incident made me ill and I had to be treated for vulvar intraepithelial neoplasia which is a precancerous skin condition. Both my parents use this incident to gaslight, belittle and manipulate me. They also constantly speak down on the queer community and say hateful things, which suggests that they would be physically violent towards any queer people. They are unaware of my sexual orientation and I've been hiding that from them to keep myself safe.
They do not allow me to leave the house unless I am accompanied by someone. I have been trying to look for work so I can become financially independent, but they physically stop me from going to job interviews. I do not know how many more years I can go on being trapped like this.
I’m raising money so I can move out and afford a one-bedroom apartment and start healing in a safer environment and to gain financial independence. I will need funds for transport to move, and for a couple of months groceries and rent as well as funds to get a new ID and passport, my parents keep them from me. I’m hoping to be able to move to another city because my rapist lives in the same neighbourhood and city as me, so not only am I not safe when I am at home, I'm also constantly paranoid during the few occasions that I'm allowed to go out. Please please help if you can!
I will be extremely grateful to anyone that donates any amount at all. If you can't donate may you please share it and hopefully reach someone that can.
I have a PayPal account which is currently the only place I can accept donations:
My PayPal is: paypal.me/chelseanovasummer
Update:
I've added some proof about my living situation with my parents because someone accused me of being dishonest, and basically scamming people for money.
time: [passes]
me: what
and maybe i am a little bit in love with all of my friends. how could i not be when they place their whole heart in my hands and trust me to carry it safely home? lazy days spent in comfortable silence, tearful nights spent giving each other a reason to live. the exhilaration of learning your little quirks melting into a future where i know you better than the lines on my open palms. mutual understanding to be forever gentle with one another. inside jokes that follow me long after you've gone, reminding me to slow down and laugh a little more. your eyes are the lens through which i can see the world with love. your embrace is the shelter under which i find strength to continue on.
do you ever get slightly annoyed with a character choosing to be the better person. like i know it's probably more benefitial to you and everyone around you bestie but i feel like if you went a little apeshit in response to what some people did to you it'd be justified ❤️
sighs