They’re Literally The Same I’m Gonna Cry 🥺

i feel like all my stories are me trying to answer the philosophical question "why did they do that to me" and the answer is literally "it's what worked out best for them" and i sometimes feel very, very sad over the fact that this truth has given me so much to write about

hi, dear author! i hope you're doing well. i just wanted to say that i love your satoshoko and reading your stories always feels like time well-spent. you're an excellent writer which ig would only stand to reason you're probably a reader as well haha. anyway, ive been itching for more of them so I was wondering if you could pretty please w a cherry on top give me book recs in the vein of (your) satoshoko? doesn't even have to hit the same tropes as stsk, just their general vibe, and/or your writing style for their stories. thank you in advance if you answer ♡

Hi! Thank you for your kind comments about my writing. I have a weird relationship with my own stories, so it’s nice to hear that they are a) being read and b) liked by readers. I do read a lot, guilty as charged. I don’t, however, read a ton of romance, so a lot of my suggestions are more along the vibes of dealing with alienation that I think haunts the SatoShoko ship. 

So anyways, the books I have selected are about loneliness, and the strange humor that is found within sadness. I hope you haven’t read at least some of them, nor see them on the list and think less of me. I am obviously not even a shadow of these writers, so I suspect that you will find them way more entertaining to read. As always, some of these stories could have triggering content so if there is anything you are hoping to avoid, look them up on Goodreads or Storygraph first. 

Normal People by Sally Rooney is a literary romance for sad people, and the man isn’t completely toxic, so it has to go at the top of the list. 

“The depressed person” is a short story from David Foster Wallace that is in his collection Brief Interviews with Hideous Men. It’s my favorite of his books and is full of great stories but is also the one that repulses me the most. The short story itself is about a woman coping with depression, and was the vibe I was going for in the story “Displacement.” 

The reason it took me some time to answer this message is because I had to reread at least two of the stories in Eleven Kind of Loneliness by Richard Yates. Each story is in plain prose, and focuses on the different ways that people deceive themselves. I had to reread it just to re-check the vibes, but it’s great and I really enjoyed it. Hopefully the rest of it checks out! I guess I'll find out as I continue my reread lol.

My last recommendation is a book I just finished. Life Ceremony by Sayaka Murata is a collection of stories that are a little surreal, pretty strange, and are all about connection in some way or another. I feel like SatoShoko probably watch and read weird shit all the time, so that’s my pretence for including it, but I actually just think that it’s a really great collection of short stories. 

Now, if you’re looking for SatoShoko stories, I know that there are several collections and bookmarks featuring different writers. My writer pal bby_rabbit wrote me a good SatoShoko, “heartbreak soldiers, disappointment junkies” (NSFW, M). It’s a great story, and to be frank, there would be no antioedipus without bby_rabbit (or Bawgdan, as she was going by when we met). 

Happy reading, and let me know if you need anything else! 

He probably had it coming.

This is their foreplay btw <3

My GetoHime Trash

When I die and go to heaven, no doubt an angel will ask why I put so much GetoHime content onto the internet. I shall have no good response, other then things just played out this way. My head, heart, and gut all say ShokoHime, but GetoHime is too conceptually entertaining for me to ignore.

Below is a master list of my GetoHime stories. They are all on ao3. Please note the rating at the end of the description. All adult situations depicted are between consenting adults. There is also drug use, mental health issues, and violence in a few of the stories. Please mind the tags of each story - I go out of my way to ensure that readers know what they are getting into. It is all NSFW, lol.

Ongoing

In every dream home a heartache: When Suguru comes back to pay Mei Mei his half of the rent, he finds that Utahime has moved into his old room. He doesn't know how to feel about it. Rated M.

Multi-chapter

Father and Mothers and Daughters and Sons: Suguru and Utahime realizing that adulthood is purgatory. Rated E.

Kept in Place: Suguru and Utahime, evolving. Rated E.

I give you my life: No one ever wants to wait for their real life to start. Rated E.

Invite the Weight: Being with someone doesn't fix the hole left behind by someone else. It's worse when you invite that person back into your life. Rated E.

Even Cockroaches Can Dream: Watching someone change right before your eyes. Or: Suguru’s charm and Utahime’s denial can only hide their crazy for so long. Rated E.

Osteosarcoma: When it's over, it's just Geto and Utahime. Rated E.

Lightning Strikes Twice: When Suguru stops being the person Utahime thinks he is, he decides to make sure that she can never forgive him. Rated E.

When the Birds Began to Die: Being stuck with someone you haven't seen in years for days doesn't usually end so well. Rated E.

One shot

But I love him: "I love you, call me back." Rated M.

If We Make It Through December: So, where was Utahime during the Night Parade? Rated E.

Melted Brains: Suguru and Utahime, getting into it. Rated E.

Sticking Point: Worst cab ride ever. Rated M.

The Past Participle: Coming down easy. Rated E.

SatoShoko + GetoHime art + GetoHime ficlet by two talented creatives - I feel like I am finally being seen!!!!

Your art style is so visually pleasing 🤩‼️‼️ I'd really love to see satoshoko and getohime on a double date with your art style, I think that'd be really cute. 💖

I fixed Lilies (changed the names + corrected Ijichi’s name (lol) + the worst typos + cleaned it up so that the reading experience has much improved) and now I feel a lot better about it. It's no longer my shame lol.

Lilies - SatoSho, E. No archive warnings apply, but please mind the other tags.

I have a lot of mixed feelings about this story because I wrote it right when I got into JJK so a lot of it reflects my own misunderstandings about canon. I got some comments on it that made me feel misunderstood and hurt my feelings. Life happened to me and I feel like I became a lot more disillusioned and cynical, so it was hard to remember the person who wrote that story.

It has its faults (and some of the typos, my god), but when I went to edit it, and saw all the nice things people said about this story, and how it led to people reading my other stories, I ended up appreciating it a whole lot more. I usually feel like I'm talking into the void, but that's what being a fic writer is all about. There's a lot I could say, but I think thank you sums it all up.

Fai and Chi are one of my fave brotps across all of fandom and I wish we had more content of them lying around eating popcorn and listening to pop music.

Like, how sweet!!!

When he's not good enough for your friend but you have to keep your mouth shut and hope that you're not right.

upcoming projects

wasteland, baby!'s final chapters (in which taichi and yamato navigate the end of the world) are baking in the oven as we speak, but I also hope that by throwing the rest of this list into the world, y'all can hold my feet to the fire if I don't deliver:

over and over (becoming, become): mimi deals with the fallout when a long-held secret unleashes public mayhem after taichi stupidly opens his mouth on live television. or, how you never forget your first.

harrowed, hallowed (stone, stone): painting mfa student sora and engineering phd candidate yamato struggle to understand who they are, much less who they might be to each other.

something in the orange (tells me we're not done): after taichi, koushiro and yamato slowly learn how to become friends, only to unexpectedly become something more.

salted: after a scathing review, newly minted chef daisuke vows revenge on unbothered food critic takeru. but what's that they say, about the best laid plans?

butterflies in august: a tribute to the best little fandom corner, coming soon, I really, really promise.

belated v-day updates!!!

Lovesickness - Naruto, Older Jounin, E.

wholly mad and half undressed - xxxHoLic/Tsubasa, KuroYuko, E.

Private Life - Chainsaw Man/X/1999, Kishibe/Karen Kasumi, E.