Thinking Of Drawing 50 Millers In A Row To See Whether I Get Consistently Better After It

i love how if you look at low poly rats, the less polygons there are the more it explores the basic shape of a rat, the rat shape essence. i am always excited to see a lower poly rat model. which even more simple shape can a rat be boiled down to?

Rat by @intenselyfloofyartist

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morning line of action. focused on shadows today: looked at the whole photo and thoughts which parts are the darkest, the lightest, a bit dark etc, picked a part (all the darkest areas, for example), drew a light line to mark the edges of that area and filled it in with respective value. i should think of a better way that allows more than 3 values and smoother transitions between shadow and light, but for now i like how it came out compared to yesterday. focused on faces too; it only goes for longer sketches but i resisted the temptation to leave the face blank or draw a -_- like thingy; i disliked what i was seeing while drawing them but now i think it's not horrible. i should do faces practice later to improve.

noticed that for some reason it takes me longer to draw feminine looking models than masculine looking ones. 5 minutes was enough to draw and shade the curvy guy, draw his face in a simplified way and his genitals (something i do rarely), and for the next 5 minute sketch of a lady i didn't even get to her head before time ran out. 10 minute lady's boobies are unshaded bc i ran out of time too. i wonder why is that; the answer might be bc i get lots of pictures of that particular guy for some reason and mb i learnt to draw him faster, but who knows. i wanted to shade the orb on the 25 minute one, but ran out of time exactly as soon as i was finished with the man. look at that orb tho, guess who is failing hard at drawabox ellipse tasks lol

it's the second time i do line of action in the morning instead of evening and both times i am satisfied more than on average; mb will make it a part of my morning routine (which is currently washing face, brushing teeth, mb shower and breakfast lol)

seeing other people in tumblr do same exercises daily makes me want to practice every day too

metal gir

i should do line of action in digital, but would kinda prefer to do pencil or pen instead since i suck at digital.. but that's exactly why i should practice in digital more... sigh

i should also practice just drawing lines from point a to point b since i have trouble guessing the right direction when using the tablet, i will keep struggling at basic stuff until i learn to do that but that's an even less satisfying exercise

she’s in your dream

Used an ancient draft for practice

yukio mishima: this example illustrates the point that a person can fill his life with pursuit of words or sculpting his body and feel content either way, but a man who chose to rely on the words and disregard the body will eventually find himself helpless and deceived in the face of death

me drowning in a lake while my friend, 11th century french rabbi and prolific scriptural commentator Schlomo "Rashi" Yitzchaki (zy"a) stands nearby: help im drowing help me rashi

Schlomo "Rashi" Yitzchaki (zy"a): "drowing" is likely a scribal error for "drowning." "im drow[n]ing" is to say: my lungs have become filled with water, and i am struggling to breathe. "help" once followed by "help me" a second time: the first [help] is directed to the Holy One, blessed be He, and means: "may He help us by swiftly delivering the World to Come;" the second (i.e., "help me") is to invoke direct assistance in this world, spoken as if to a personal friend. the meaning of "rashi" here is unclear.

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featuring an ugly liner drawing of a kitten

tried to use a liner instead of pencil today. it was fun for short ones but starting with 5 minutes i felt like im wasting time since i couldn't "fix" the lines that were already there and adding new ones would just look dirty, so i returned to pencil. i like the 10 minute drawing more than the 25 minute one but it was enjoyable sketching that guy, his body breaks into nice shapes and his poses entertaining to capture.

also i liked it a lot that when ellen does a scary face, it is not achieved with cgi or makeup but mostly by the face expression. they didn't rely on something unrealistic and did what a human is capable of in reality instead which is always cool imo.

my impressions about the new nosferatu movie (spoilers ahead)

first of all, i see it as a movie about a woman who didn't get enough love and appreciation from society and whose wishes weren't prioritised by her husband (and society in general) as much as she liked, so she got herself a powerful demonic lover whose sole purpose for being in this world is to please her and he is ready to sail the sea in a coffin and kill entire city with plague to get her to willingly (as much as possible under aforementioned things) consent to be with him, and dies a hero saving everyone when no one else could, rather than lives a life of a person disregarded and deemed hysterical and of secondary importance. she is the most informed and in control in this situation (the doctor finds out a lot too but she already knows everything he knows), as opposed to before the plague, when her worries were disregarded and she was considered hysterical. her wishes and her role in defeating the nosferatu seem to be different from a typical male oriented fantasy, so i wasn't the assumed target audience and the most relatable character was friedrich harding who was unable to adapt to the irrational and occult stuff, got exhausted and died lol, but i still enjoyed the movie. i am not a woman and only know about feminine traditions in horror genre from youtube videos on "wicker mag" channel and podcasts by the same person, so sorry if i am misinterpreting it.

second thing is the vampire metaphor. rather than being an image of a feudalism related class fears, in this movie (in the first half of ot) nosferatu rather seems to embody immigrants related fear. i am not xenophobic and haven't moved out of my country of origin myself but i assume that this correlates with some real and popular fears: a guy goes to a foreign country that is considered less civilised and is frightened by local customs, he then meets a person who he must invite to become his neighbour, and is even more terrified by him. despite the count being not fond of local scary customs too, it's not hard to imagine the guy might think now that there's a reason behind them. after arriving to the other country where everything seems to be going well, the immigrant then immediately contaminates it with plague and tries his best to have sex with the guy's wife. looks like exaggerated real fears about immigrants that i don't personally have or approve of but that might be popular enough to be reflected in a movie.

third, the cat was in the room during the final epic hot kamikaze sex, very funny, i laughed aloud in the cinema.

fourth, ellen hutter reminded me about real person behaviour. when a person was unable to get the love they need and safe reliable relationship, and it has effect on them (in the movie it was her summoning the demon) which helps to cope at first but becomes not fun later, and when they finally meet a person who loves them and wants to be with them, they get very close (like the movie character wanted her husband to disregard work and chill with her) and the next moment they push them away (like she said she's unworthy of his love bc she sinned or smth). it's a cruel irony, people being unable to maintain a relationship with no complications precisely as a consequence of needing it very much and that need being unfulfilled for a long time. this was probably the scariest part of the movie for me personally bc although young husband tried better than me he failed anyway, either being unable to protect his wife or being a less preferable partner for her than the vampire depending on how you interpret her decision.

fifth, epic of nosferatu to disregard the impending sunrise to get his partner off for the 9999th time. and funny that there is a scene of him literally bouncing on a man's pelvis (clothed) and moaning. it is also amusing that in this movie nosferatu seems to be an incubus (yet the ladies sitting next to me seemed to find him unattractive lol - although i'm sure there are people who disagree)

also could anyone tell me what lilac means in the movie? thomas hutter brought a bouquet to ellen hutter in the beginning, nosferatu said ellen's hair lock smells like it and the doctor put it on the bed in the end. is there some symbolism in this flower?

i hope this post was interesting, feel free to engage in any form, share your own thoughts or criticise or correct me