Tomatomustache - I Like Pencil Sketches

when snake takes miller's hand to get on the chopper in the end of ground zeroes, i wonder if he remembered the time he took the boss's hand on the bridge. back then, his world was crumbling because she was defecting, and he accepted the hand only to be broken (literally broken bones first and metaphorically in the operation snake eater in general). in ground zeroes, his world is probably crumbling again together with the oil rig, and a person who is close to him extends their hand to help him up. i wonder if he thought of it briefly before placing his trust in that person again, both times not having much choice anyway. i wonder, if he could go back in time, both to virtuous mission and ground zeroes, and if he had some other option, would he still accept the hand. both times he did it led to major changes in life and getting hurt.

ironically, the man who was a double agent stayed loyal to him in the next 9 years, and the woman who was immaculate kept her loyalties too but he felt betrayed.

finished mgs4. naomi is straight up scariest and most "evil" mgs character to me (no hate though)

in mgs1 i kind of liked her trolling snake, injecting him with foxdie and then answering his question on how much longer he can live with some vague stuff like "doesn't matter how long, you should live good". but in mgs4 she's not only a threat (which is ok, in mgs4 many people try to kill each other) but is also trying to get close to her victims feelings-wise. and when she succeeds with otacon (which ends up not even being crucial to her mission), she keeps hurting him: first dying on live stream while even holding the mk (unnecessary) to keep otacon looking at her, and while i can understand the sentiment behind enjoying other people suffering from your death, acting on it that much is a different thing; and then in her recorded message after all the business stuff she takes time to be emotional with otacon and hurt him again. it's like she's the opposite of solid snake in the sense of expressing feelings.

i was irritated by eva's constant hitting on snake in mgs3 when he clearly couldn't trust her (and for a reason) or mb wasn't interested in general, and succeeding when he was distraught by what he later admits to be a deed after which he was dead inside for the rest of his life, and using him ofc, while continuing to force herself close to him by claiming they loved each other (funny how ground zero briefing mentions that the boss was the only woman he loved). in mgs4 her views on friendship are unconventional to say the least but she's a much more loveable character, especially since it turned out she didn't plan to force big boss to stay unconscious and alive infinitely in that form to maintain jd or out of some vile sentiment.

naomi in mgs4 though is trying to get close to other characters and each time (except vamp) it screams danger and ends up being successful and true and then she openly enjoys and prolongs the suffering she caused, which is scary and evil in my book. at least she didn't hurt sunny. at least it's rude but funny how she reminds snake to die every time they talk, even in the recorded message - i was surprised that wasn't the message she passed to him in the after credits scene, but even there big boss mentioned that it's ok that the new fox die will mutate too, as long as he dies first.

that being said, mgs is not about nice and kind people and she's not a bad character, on the opposite - quite interesting one. but i'm glad i am neither snake nor otacon when it comes to interacting with her, lol.

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used pen instead of pencil today, i liked it. did 1 hour practice and then some 10 minute pics. some pics are bad (mostly the penultimate one) but mostly i am satisfied and had fun.

Honestly the funniest part of Conclave was every character whipping out their reading glasses whenever they needed to look at something because they're all old as fuck and can't see.

would be cool if the real mgsv plot twist would be that it was the ishmael snake in mg, he became a cyborg and rescued what remained of outer heaven, then it was him again in mg2, body parts collected and kept alive by the patriots until he was "repaired" with liquid and solidus parts as seen in mgs4. and venom snake just fucks somewhere off in the end of mgsv, or dies of ligma or smth idk. would explain why mg and mg2 big boss has both arms and no shrapnel

quick monsoon bc i think he's nice

idk who would even want to disable tumblr ads, they add to the experience imo. i have a collection of screenshots. i especially like when it's in a language i don't understand or something very irrelevant (like "get a new comprehension on usa-china relationship now" or "learn how the habits of drivers from some usa state impact your daily life"), or it's unclear if it's a hardcore bdsm thing or a christian resource. or just so seemingly random thing that i can't even guess what exactly is the product

my tumblr ads are alternating between reminding me i’m a dyke and telling me to fear the space scorpion

read a few raisune fics and they hit too close to home... also im bored outta my mind at work