Idk What Are You Talking About Tbh, Pw Has Many New Cool Features Starting With Consecutive C!q!c! And

a friend said sleep deprivation works similarly to being drunk. if i was still into alcohol i would draw after, like, one beer, almost sober to be able to comprehend stuff and make effort to figure out and remember how things look, but drunk enough so anything i draw seems good enough

will draw sober instead (mb with a tasty non-alcoholic beer) and learn to be just as chill on my own

looking at yesterday's drawings after getting some sleep. hilarious (good)

having friends is great sometimes they draw naked women for you

(i own nothing, tsurumi is stolen from the manga and slightly altered, poppy flowers are stolen from the internet)

previous time i thought "nice, finally nailing it". think again)0

huey must've implemented a version of the boss ai into one of his vapes like how we have vapes with screens on them now

@/the-crooked-library write that lilacs are ellen's favourite flowers and there are even more mansions of them than i remembered writing this. now i see, when thomas gifts a lilacs bouquet to ellen, he does so bc it is customary expression of love, but for ellen it is killing the beautiful flowers, and she doesn't want to put them in water since they will wither soon anyway or are already dead (i don't remember which of these it was). i assume that their views of marriage are similar to their views of the lilac bouquet, her being the flowers, and that remark (as well as the mentioned user's assumption she died from blood loss bc of asking her lover to drink more of her blood) reinforces my assumption that she did want to die with nosferatu more than live as the wife of thomas.

upd: also lilac means first love which makes sense since the movie is about ellen's first love.

my impressions about the new nosferatu movie (spoilers ahead)

first of all, i see it as a movie about a woman who didn't get enough love and appreciation from society and whose wishes weren't prioritised by her husband (and society in general) as much as she liked, so she got herself a powerful demonic lover whose sole purpose for being in this world is to please her and he is ready to sail the sea in a coffin and kill entire city with plague to get her to willingly (as much as possible under aforementioned things) consent to be with him, and dies a hero saving everyone when no one else could, rather than lives a life of a person disregarded and deemed hysterical and of secondary importance. she is the most informed and in control in this situation (the doctor finds out a lot too but she already knows everything he knows), as opposed to before the plague, when her worries were disregarded and she was considered hysterical. her wishes and her role in defeating the nosferatu seem to be different from a typical male oriented fantasy, so i wasn't the assumed target audience and the most relatable character was friedrich harding who was unable to adapt to the irrational and occult stuff, got exhausted and died lol, but i still enjoyed the movie. i am not a woman and only know about feminine traditions in horror genre from youtube videos on "wicker mag" channel and podcasts by the same person, so sorry if i am misinterpreting it.

second thing is the vampire metaphor. rather than being an image of a feudalism related class fears, in this movie (in the first half of ot) nosferatu rather seems to embody immigrants related fear. i am not xenophobic and haven't moved out of my country of origin myself but i assume that this correlates with some real and popular fears: a guy goes to a foreign country that is considered less civilised and is frightened by local customs, he then meets a person who he must invite to become his neighbour, and is even more terrified by him. despite the count being not fond of local scary customs too, it's not hard to imagine the guy might think now that there's a reason behind them. after arriving to the other country where everything seems to be going well, the immigrant then immediately contaminates it with plague and tries his best to have sex with the guy's wife. looks like exaggerated real fears about immigrants that i don't personally have or approve of but that might be popular enough to be reflected in a movie.

third, the cat was in the room during the final epic hot kamikaze sex, very funny, i laughed aloud in the cinema.

fourth, ellen hutter reminded me about real person behaviour. when a person was unable to get the love they need and safe reliable relationship, and it has effect on them (in the movie it was her summoning the demon) which helps to cope at first but becomes not fun later, and when they finally meet a person who loves them and wants to be with them, they get very close (like the movie character wanted her husband to disregard work and chill with her) and the next moment they push them away (like she said she's unworthy of his love bc she sinned or smth). it's a cruel irony, people being unable to maintain a relationship with no complications precisely as a consequence of needing it very much and that need being unfulfilled for a long time. this was probably the scariest part of the movie for me personally bc although young husband tried better than me he failed anyway, either being unable to protect his wife or being a less preferable partner for her than the vampire depending on how you interpret her decision.

fifth, epic of nosferatu to disregard the impending sunrise to get his partner off for the 9999th time. and funny that there is a scene of him literally bouncing on a man's pelvis (clothed) and moaning. it is also amusing that in this movie nosferatu seems to be an incubus (yet the ladies sitting next to me seemed to find him unattractive lol - although i'm sure there are people who disagree)

also could anyone tell me what lilac means in the movie? thomas hutter brought a bouquet to ellen hutter in the beginning, nosferatu said ellen's hair lock smells like it and the doctor put it on the bed in the end. is there some symbolism in this flower?

i hope this post was interesting, feel free to engage in any form, share your own thoughts or criticise or correct me

wow shading in digital is just like painting (i am bad af at it and don't understand how it's done). i think i have learnt something towards the end of my attempt to shade it, but not nearly enough ofc. big shaded areas are especially hard for me (look at his thigh lol). didn't do a full hour of practice but did some quick doodles and then ~10 minutes or so of 3 layer image (line of action and other messy lines, the outline and my attempt at shading). at least it got fun enough in the end for me to see next digital practice as a fun activity and not just something necessary.

anyway, never give up, i will get there some day and so will you

i heard you have to draw from imagination to learn to draw from imagination so here's miller on a beach. i adjusted his pelvis and head many times and still haven't got it right, and i didn't even really try to make the light direction convincing. but this looks much less stiff and cardboard than my previous attempts so i am glad it is what it is

old sketch. Quiet 😁😁😁😁👍👍👍