I Know I've Said This Before But I'm Going To Say It Again Because The More I Work With Geriatric Women

it sure was venom snake in the operation intrude n313 bc the man could run. i think he's at least as fast as the running man from mg2, who claims to be the fastest mercenary in the world

i wish there was a way to put reblog under cut instead of having gajillion long ass mgs related text posts on my page

a metal gear themed birthday card from @ultraeyepiss <3

i am not a private but i hope i still have time hehe

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featuring an ugly liner drawing of a kitten

tried to use a liner instead of pencil today. it was fun for short ones but starting with 5 minutes i felt like im wasting time since i couldn't "fix" the lines that were already there and adding new ones would just look dirty, so i returned to pencil. i like the 10 minute drawing more than the 25 minute one but it was enjoyable sketching that guy, his body breaks into nice shapes and his poses entertaining to capture.

have read "the sun also rises"/"fiesta" by hemingway. review below

i'd say it is a slice of life about bohemian american expats in paris with lots of casual conversations and description of their leisure, with a side of nature and bullfighting. although not explicitly stated by the narrator/main character, upon closer inspection the book is focused on how the virility (no pun intended, i can't think of a better word) of young men (and possibly women) was broken by ww1 despite wars being supposed to be both outlet and forge of virtue and merit.

i haven't read a lot of hemingway and not big on reading in general, but the intentional omitting of things makes it really good as well as suits the tendency of many characters to avoid thinking about some things. there are a lot of diverse and believable characters, both recurring and mentioned only once. their friendly chat and banter reminded me of philip k dick's "a scanner darkly" in some way. besides war, it depicts issues of living in immigration, loneliness and alienation in a city, scepticism, insecurity, discrimination, feeling emasculated and toxic polycules.

it also has an interesting depiction of a female character's life values but that is up to women to comment. although she also admits to feeling miserable most of the time, it seems she is better adjusted than most of the male characters.

it is sad that 100 hundred years later it is relevant (not talking for everyone) but comforting that people in the past felt the same way. personally i am going to adopt ways of coping depicted in it, such as group trips, spending time outside the city and competitive games/sports. note that any character probably wasn't supposed to be a moral role model probably even at that time: befriend people of other genders for the sake of good friendship, don't blame your irritation with a person on their nationality etc.

cw for this book are mention of discrimination, slurs (i counted 3), animal abuse, a bit of gore, alcohol abuse, consequences of war and a weird open relationship where no one is really happy.

i would also say it might be relevant for trans guys with bottom dysphoria but (ending spoiler ahead) main character doesn't think much about it and eventually realises that it doesn't even matter bc he and his peers are messed up mentally and a healthy dick would not grant a happy relationship. which still might be relevant but i'm not sure if it's the message anyone would be looking for :)

i had a lot of fun first listening to it on youtube and then switching to a paper book, highly recommend it. reading the litcharts review was a bit irritating for me and more gendered than it could be, but provided an interesting insight on where stuff i thought to be just "default" comes from and reflect on my own (civilian) life.

widen with boobs

read a few raisune fics and they hit too close to home... also im bored outta my mind at work

short line of action (the longest is ~10 minutes)

my first digital line of action. messy but it's a start!

i stopped at 10 minutes bc i wasn't having much fun, having no idea how to shade and the lines being very messy and crooked. i think i should do a bunch of quick ones to learn to draw smooth intentional lines

the last pic is the first i drew. i tried drawing in digital a year ago or so, but idk where those files are, might've deleted them, don't even remember what it was