If I Hadn’t Gone To Gwangju In May Of That Year, If I Hadn’t Met You In Gwangju, If I Hadn’t Let

‘My happy place is you teaching me how to dance in the kitchen at two in the morning.'  — Lidia Longorio 

1.joy harjo / 2,6,8,12.norwegian wood / 3.camille a. balla / 4.sansnovazuhause / 5.e.a. bucchianeri / 7.tennessee williams / 9.jenny slate / 10.milknhoneyvalley / 11.banana yoshimoto / 13.kenneth mahuka

„[...] and I hope life is treating you well.“ / March 28th

Talking about the break, i don’t know whether to be sad or happy, honestly. I’m not afraid that they will break the promise because i know they will not. I’m just afraid if there is something that makes them unable to be back, whether it comes from themself, or maybe from us or from whoever. Like you know everything could change in every time, i know that also but i’m afraid all turn into what i didn’t expect. I know it sounds so selfish but i’m just not ready if that happened. I used to spend the last 5 years with them in every single day, they rule my life so i have no idea if they’re gone. I know one day i’ll have to let them go, forever. But not this fast. Besides all of my fears, i also feel happy they finally get time to rest. I can imagine how happy they are when they wake up on their own bed, when they out of the room and saw their family gather, hanging out until midnight with some friends, date whoever they like, do what ever they want to do, and go back sleep till afternoon. No early phone calls to wake them up, guard less, no rules for everything they should do, no compulsion, everything is just relax. 18 months is a long time but i think it’s fair compared to what they have gave to us for the last 5 years. They really deserve it. I felt so happy to be with them virtually for the last 5 years. Now it’s turn for them to be happy with people they want for years. It’s gonna be so hard for me but it’s ok. I’ll be ok. I know someday it will happen, no more counting down for new album, no more concerts, no more new stuff will be launched, but my mama say just enjoy what you have now. If i can ask for some things, please always keep yourself safe, each of you. And don’t forget you always had us in every corner of this world. For this time, i don’t care what will be happen soon, i’ll not let them go, i’ll never forget them, just if they ask me to. It’s a mutual. They are the best idol in the world, and so we are the best fans in the world. We have promised each other.

hello !!! do u know any poems that are abt not giving up and finding strength in urself etc? kinda like intructions on not giving up by ada limon! it can be book recs too ! boooks that just keep u going when things are hard?

poems.

“a litany for survival” by audre lord (i believe ive read that ada limón had this poem printed on her wall to look at every day during a difficult time in her life.... i have too)

“the peace of wild things” by wendell berry

“wild geese” by mary oliver (you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves)

“from blossoms” li-young lee

“the trees” by philip larkin

“á la recherche d’ gertrude stein” by frank o’hara (all is wiped away revealing lifes tenderness)

“this morning” by lucille clifton (i survive survive survive)

"have you ever tried to enter the long black branches" by mary oliver (listen, are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life?)

“i am not ready to die yet” by aracelis girmay

etc.

if you want something philosophical: the myth of sisyphus by albert camus

if you want something fictionalized and slowburning: his dark materials trilogy by philip pullman

if you want to read those whose words will never fail me: letters of vincent van gogh, letters to a young poet by rainer maria rilke

no, but listen to me. ziall has that type of relationship everyone wishes they had; the low-key, being in love but not sharing your love type of relationship. their touches aren't for the cameras benefits, they're to reassure the other, to support each other. their smiles aren't forged or exaggerated, they appear as soon as the other is within eyesight, along with the looks and glances. they don't need to shout their love from the rooftops. they show their love by the hugs they share, the tight grip they hold on each other when they wrap their arms around the other for comfort. its in the way they listen to each other, truly listen to the words as if it's a beautiful poem to their ears. it's shown in the way niall slowly breaks zayn out of his shell, and how zayn can simmer nialls ever present energy by a touch to the waist or an arm around the shoulder. their love is quiet, overpowered from the rush of the band, but loud in the way they shine for the other. where zayn is usually quiet, the shadow of the band, the light within him bursts out in the form of fond around niall. their love is secretive, barely noticable of you don't pay attention. and I think that's beautiful. ziall is beautiful.

feeling blue

LEE DO HYUN as Hwang Hee Tae YOUTH OF MAY (2021) dir. Song Min Yeop

—Li Bai, Question and Answer on the Mountain, tr. by Keith Holyoak

A thread on Olive And Palestine And Hope. 🇵🇸

mahmoud darwish / sharif s. elmusa, “flawed landscape” / fredrika bremer / naomi shihab nye, “different ways to pray” /Olive    -   Kostas Papanikolaou , 1991. / mahmoud darwish, “the second olive tree” /

Olive Trees with Yellow Sky and Sun, Vincent van Gogh. /

miftah, olive trees – more than just a tree in palestine / @imransuleiman - palestinian lady collects gas bombs fired by israeli army. she grows flowers in these bombs. /miftah, olive trees – more than just a tree in palestine