Day 1

T-1 day until my physics II final and the last exam of my undergraduate degree! 🎀

friday | october 4

i'll spend the weekend catching up on readings and prepping for my first exam of the term, but friday evenings are the time to curl up with a good book and forget about homework.

Really is demanding, but the satisfaction afterwards is truly something else

Yep, school is demanding.

University feels...

06.26.24

good morning!!! happy wednesday 🌸 we had our adcon this morning. our lectures were asynch so I had my car cleaned and now I’m staying at my fave café studying before my afternoon lecture. 2 days left before clerkship ends!!!!! 🎀

This is so important and always a great reminder!

Information is worth almost nothing if you're not in the (physical or mental) state to use it.

To answer qotd: im struggling with giving up on the "bright kid" mentality. Learning and understanding new things require time and energy and active and constant studying. I'm aware of that. But i sometimes still feel frustrated and stressed out when I don't instantly know or understand a concept.

It's been a process getting better and letting go of the way things used to be, but it now means that i am always excited to learn new things and it feels so rewarding to know stuff because i worked hard for it!

october 5 /24

Self-love, right now, is taking up a large portion of my brain. I don’t have a ton to say about it, but I know that over the years spent on academia pulling all-nighters and placing so much emphasis on blame I’ve learned that having mercy for yourself is so important. I’ve had great mentors and teachers that have taught me that flexibility and balance is so much more important than a 4.0 GPA. So, moving forward since I last spoke to you guys all those years ago, I’ve put in a serious effort to not run myself down. And, I’m proud of being able to see the world as a place to enjoy as well as a place to progress slowly and efficiently towards my goals. I’ve been taking more time off to spend with friends, to connect with new people, to do yoga and singing and reading, all while balancing school and my career goals. It’s been a difficult task, but I’m glad I’m taking it on. Here’s a picture of me halfway through my choir session, learning Laura Jēkasbone’s “Jumalo” 🎵. Always show yourself mercy!

QOTD: what is something you often stress about, when you know you shouldn’t?

🎧 lie still and fade — exist strategy

📖 A Swim in a Pond in the Rain — George Saunders

HA!

I have the exact same issue :')

(though i like the professor way too much to wish even the most harmless "evil" thing upon her)

📝 June 12, 2024

whoever decided my final should be from 3-6 pm tomorrow deserves to find a hole in their favourite pair of socks

Hey, long time no see!

I try to post more regularly, but it’s really stressful lately. I’m still working on my bachelors thesis, the experiments do not seem to come to an end. I really struggle with my adhd atm and just try to hold every together :’)

Let’s see what the next weeks bring!

9/01/22

Today I managed to do nothing.

I think it is a remarkable thing on its own, but the exams are still coming and I was really hoping I would get some studying done today. I guess it wasn't meant to be :'). I ordered a new book for an upcoming exam and I will get my hands on it tomorrow, so that feels pretty motivating

4/100 days of productivity

june! is for open opportunities! self-care! studying! and ✨ getting it together ✨ more reflecting on my journal! finally establishing a routine when I’m on PM duty: sleep in, workout, and study. things are good!

⭐ 17.06.2024 // I DID IT!! I DID IT GUYS!!! I STUDIED 10 HOURSSSSS!!!!

I'm tired but especially extremely motivated by the fact that I was able to achieve that much. Like, a few years ago I would never have thought that it would be possible for me to do it EVER. It says so much about my recovery journey and it's awesome. Like I'm able for the first time in YEARS to manage studying a lot of hours, doing a minimum of self care, answering people's texts, planning events for later AND be able to function like a human (so not be overly tired by it). It means a lot for me. I still have progress to make in some domains tho, who doesn't, but it's still amazing

(And honestly Tumblr has something to do with it, I met amazing mutuals here and maybe the "do it scared, do it bad, do it tired" helped me in my journey after all ahah)

PS : my cat didn't want to sleep in my room today so I don't have any pictures of her yet :(( (but she killed a mouse today, ig she had other priorities)