One Of The Greatest Tragedies In Life Is That You Will Always Be Loved More Than You Will Ever Know.

And so, the simplest things bring me the most joy

🩷 15.06.2025 // I studied with a 90/15 schedule today and I'm feeling wayyy better than yesterday :)))

I did some physics, chemical analysis, a lot of immunopathology and some pharmacology! I'm glad my bf is here to help me do the past papers because everytime I'm reading one I'm panicking ://

I "only" studied 8 hours today but first I slept in a bit so it was nearly impossible to study more ahah (tomorrow I hope that I'll wake up earlier tho)

Also, tell me if you want more pictures of my cat as she spend all day in my bedroom, sleeping on my bed ahah

Quick sketch, needs a lot of work :)

Draw a dress a god/ess would wear!

i finished babel last week and only managed to recently finish annotating because i needed time to digest everything that happened in the book 🥲😭❤️‍🩹 . babel’s a masterpiece. i loved the book from the beginning till the end. the diverse characters are amazing, the dark academia setting/atmospheric writing is stunning, and tying all this with the whole plot being focused on the power of language and translation is just exquisite. this is one of the best books i’ve ever read 😭 so many books that i’ve read this hear have been so amazing 🥹✨ what is a book that you’ve recently read and loved? https://www.instagram.com/p/CklBX86vPAd/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Whenever I take a break from reading because I'm too lazy and return to it later, I'm always surprised. Because I really really find my courses interesting and I love reading and finding out more things about it. I'm always like "I didn't want to read this??"

Anyways, I'm locked in again! I have to catch up on A LOT of classes, so wish me speed. I also have a test by the end of this month and I've not started prepping for it. And it's PSYCHOLOGY! Oh well

This is so important and always a great reminder!

Information is worth almost nothing if you're not in the (physical or mental) state to use it.

To answer qotd: im struggling with giving up on the "bright kid" mentality. Learning and understanding new things require time and energy and active and constant studying. I'm aware of that. But i sometimes still feel frustrated and stressed out when I don't instantly know or understand a concept.

It's been a process getting better and letting go of the way things used to be, but it now means that i am always excited to learn new things and it feels so rewarding to know stuff because i worked hard for it!

october 5 /24

Self-love, right now, is taking up a large portion of my brain. I don’t have a ton to say about it, but I know that over the years spent on academia pulling all-nighters and placing so much emphasis on blame I’ve learned that having mercy for yourself is so important. I’ve had great mentors and teachers that have taught me that flexibility and balance is so much more important than a 4.0 GPA. So, moving forward since I last spoke to you guys all those years ago, I’ve put in a serious effort to not run myself down. And, I’m proud of being able to see the world as a place to enjoy as well as a place to progress slowly and efficiently towards my goals. I’ve been taking more time off to spend with friends, to connect with new people, to do yoga and singing and reading, all while balancing school and my career goals. It’s been a difficult task, but I’m glad I’m taking it on. Here’s a picture of me halfway through my choir session, learning Laura Jēkasbone’s “Jumalo” 🎵. Always show yourself mercy!

QOTD: what is something you often stress about, when you know you shouldn’t?

🎧 lie still and fade — exist strategy

📖 A Swim in a Pond in the Rain — George Saunders

22|09|2022

lecture readings may destroy me 

I had a lovely time with my friend D this weekend:

we went to a light & sound installation that was really impressive & fun,

had mala tang (I think I technically had mala ban?) for dinner,

tiny mock mojitos on my balcony before bed

and a delicious breakfast in my favourite café.

I'm now reading to bridge the gap between saying goodbye to D and meeting two friends for our museum sunday outing (museum sunday is a Thing in berlin and I love it).

we're going to see an exhibition on menstruation that's supposedly created with an intersectional feminist approach (which also means it uses trans inclusive language, very curious about that!)

14.06.2024—desk set up