How Ironic Is This... I'm Telling Her Everything. I Guess One Of My Friends Will Always End Up Being

This jirai wishes to be a child again but with a different/better childhood

you should just block her if you hate her that much?

Wish you luck

I'm planning on it. I just don't know how far she'll go to keep me around because shes obsessive.

Thank you, as usual :)

I have a better relationship with my brother than I do with any of my real family.

and yet i would have shoved it at you and ran away because regardless i want you to be alright

ill be fine, i already found ways to be okay.

focus on yourself right now. please.

you're the one who needs support, and i hope you're getting enough from everyone.

the reason i've been running away from you is because i hate seeing how you look at me these days.

i hope that soon, you'll be able to look at me normally again.

ykw nah I'll take fate in my own hands for once. I don't need a coinflip

I'm happy with just waiting for things to play out.

Talking with my brothers kinda fixed my mindset for now so I'll be okay for a while.

Taking time away is the only way for progress to be made at this point. My emotions are numbed for now but I know I’ll have a few breakdowns. That’s okay though. I have my brothers and I have my distant friends. This is the way I will grow. I don’t need to recover to progress with growth. The recovery can happen at the same time. I have lots of time, I don’t need to rush it.

As for my plans for school in the meantime, I think I’ll start hanging out with my classmates for once. There’s a few of them who interact with me on a normal basis.

I left some people waiting for me but I won’t rush to them. I need some time.

I will probably be posting some terrible stuff soon but I can almost guarantee I won’t act on any of my urges.

"...You're strong. I know you are..."

What an oddly familiar phrase. What an odd thing to tell me.

Thank you, Opal. I'm glad I stopped you back then.

I hope Ch lives.

I can promise you that I'll do literally anything to prove I've made improvement.

Nope nope nope nope nope nope

Yes, we used to be friends

NO, I am not getting with you no matter what you threaten, D

What makes you think I'd let myself make a mistake like that again?

You can go dig yourself that hole, I'm done listening.

I know what I want, and it's NOT a fake angel who wants me to abandon my friends for her.

You can go fuck off now, D

I cried today.

I cried in that very same spot.

You wouldn’t have been able to tell though.

Cried with my head in my hands.