“And I Knew It. That’s The Worst Part: I Knew It.”

i’m the problem. i’m draining to be around. i turn everything good into something toxic. i can’t stop myself from ruining everything, no matter how hard i try. i’m the only one to blame. i’m poison to everyone around me, i destroy everything i touch

Ever hated yourself so much that the only thing you could is think about is punishing yourself and making yourself suffer? Doing every self destructive thing you can think of. Wanting to harm yourself because there’s so much hate. And you don’t know how to deal with it without taking it out on yourself

The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.

Nikki Giovanni, from “Poem (for EMA)”

I'm just so tired of this. my body is tired, my mind is a mess. I just really want to lay in bed and never get up. I'm just so tired of life.

Feel free to message me anytime about anything going on in your life. I’m here for you, the same way you guys have been here for me ❤️

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I fought so hard in the past years for recovery and at some point I thought that I was getting better but now I hate my life even more than before and I don't know what to do anymore..

The way I loved you wasn’t normal and the way you broke me wasn’t either.