Temples Are Built For Gods. Knowing This A Farmer Builds A Small Temple To See What Kind Of God Turns

Your heart aches for the bitter work that lead you down this destructive path.

Update:

So we are on speaking terms. The elders aren't pushing too hard about meeting or formally disassociating because the CO (their higher up) was visiting at the same time. Despite all their freaking out they contact me like nothing has changed now.

I plan to leave things like this for now and am glad I can still talk to my younger brother. Curious to see if things will change as I'm more honest online.

I finally moved out and told my parents I was leaving the cult. Moving was fine i suppose but the phone conversation explaining my stance was much more emotional than I expected.

My parents aren't the type to question their beliefs so I wasn't going to put effort into explaining myself, but they kept pushing. They had preconceived notions that I was just bitter or foolish and kept poking only to have me explain how their bigotry made my life hell. My dad tried to play off the slurs and awful things he said as jokes only to have to come to terms with the fact that I grew up feeling unlovable and disgusting because of him.

Now I'm waiting for them to decide if they ever want to talk to me again. They're crushed but still miss the point. Rather than realizing "homophobia bad" they took "we did homophobia wrong". While I can't say I wanted to spill so much to them, I'm happy that they have to live with what they've done.

This is EXTREMELY real. I would have people regularly tickle or touch me even if I told them not too. Once a teenage boy around my age essentially chased me becuase I wouldn't let him pat my shoulder and no one said or did anything.

Your wishes and autonomy aren't respected because wittness aren't allowed to be people. Just "one of Jehovah's Wittnesses"...

hate hate hate the jw greeting of physical contact. i dont want to hug 30 plus people every single meeting ugh. even worse is when youre walking past someone and they like squeeze your arm or rub your back like no!! i dont want that!! please!!

to be honest its most not about the touch (though when im already overwhelmed and stressed it doesnt help) but my lack of autonomy.

i feel like i cant say no. i feel like i have to hug everyone and i hate it so much. sure, i could refuse, but i know id be made to feel bad by the jw wanting one.

idk i just wish i could go to a meeting without getting touched for once

Family means the knife held against my throat is done out of love

It is morally correct to be horny on main.

If we really want to fight against this puritanical culture that seems to be hell-bent on running sex workers off the internet and banning pornography wherever they can find it, you have a moral duty to post hole on main. Doesn't have to be your own hole but you got to post it.

The amount of times I decided religous trauma related breakdowns/nightmares were "a sign from God" is honestly crazy. How can you connect that you are miserable because of the cult but not reach the conclusion "I should leave".

Me, holding Apostle Paul up by the scruff of his neck like a kitten to a group of christians: Is this really your mans? Is this really who you listen to? Pathetic.

Changed my icon to an angel @haxxydraws designed based on an emoji prompt. If 90% of my blogs content is going to be about religous trauma I might as well have an icon to match!