Oh Team Natsu How I Love U

Look at his drunk ass jamming to the TSL soundtrack

if i was a casting director who saw the description of a catholic cardinal as young and boyish even at 67 i would have said fuck awwwfffff and given up. but thats not what the casting director of conclave said,,, they knew he was out there

i have this constant feeling of wanting to leave all the time, i don't know when, i don't know where, but i only know that i want to leave

Hello again, I have something to say about the way you post Gojo and Geto's relationship. I hope im not bothering you, and I'll try not to repeat myself

I reread the scene where Gojo and Geto were dancing together (chap. 3) and I think you did a very good job expressing how, despite their closeness, they weren't able to truly reach their hearts (it's not possible due to their line of work)

I think you did it very creatively when you used mathematical metaphors

(you used other metaphors I just forgot to make a screenshot of them :'D)

I think it gives a really clear image of how, despite Gojo's efforts (or anyone's efforts really) he's not able to touch their heart, he only sees with his six eyes the "skin" (soul) but not the "blood"(heart).

Even when it comes to Geto, the one he considers and equal and deeply loves (whether it is romantically or platonically), he's not able to fully understand him, despite Geto displaying himself "naked" in front of Gojo. Despite them not having boundaries, there's a space between them no matter how much Geto tries to reach for Gojo's heart. Gojo will always be a step ahead from him, because he didn't allow himself to connect with anybody. (I think the way you worded it could mean that Gojo has his infinity on, which also represents that protective barrier he has put for himself to avoid anybody trying to reach his heart willingly or unwillingly).

ALSO, you portrayed very well the miscommunication in their relationship and how they never addressed their feelings for each other in this screenshot, with these particles that denote ambiguity:

it's never clear to us (well, it is, they love each other, we all know, but Gege's intention was it not to be clear for us) or for Gojo and Geto themselves. They don't talk about it. They can't. They can't allow themselves to be vulnerable and love each other. Not the strongest sorcerers. Not when love is a weakness. Yet... they still want to be close. They still fight to reach for one and others' heart, but Gojo does not allow Geto in. He can't do that, not to the one he loves.

It's like Gojo knows that Geto is not as emotionally detached as he is and doesn't want to destroy that, not Geto's biggest virtue.

(They were so doomed omg☠️)

Hello think you for sending more comments, I'll try my best to give you detailed author's notes since you put so much thought into your comments.

reread the scene where Gojo and Geto were dancing together (chap. 3) and I think you did a very good job expressing how, despite their closeness, they weren't able to truly reach their hearts (it's not possible due to their line of work)

One of the main themes I wanted to cover in this fic is Gojo and Geto's inability to understand one another despite the fact fact they are each other's one and only friend they can never be more because they don't understand each other. It's like, one theme I tried to get across in this fic is Gojo has a god complex, and he sees Geto as the same as him and he can't comprehend that Geto is only human and can have human flaws and do bad things like any other human. Because Gojo sees himself as fundamentally above others.

He also misunderstands why Geto makes him feel accepted. The real reason is that Geto sees Gojo as a person and accepts him for who he is, but Gojo believes it's because someone who is the strongest they are each other's one and only equal. Something he doesn't realize until the end of Jujutsu Kaisen because he tried to find understanding and satisfaction but he couldn't find it in Sukuna who was the only one as powerful as him and then he confesses to Geto in the afterlife that the only thing that would have satisfied him if Geto was still alive and said goodbye to him. And this is Geto in his monk robes who already fell and became a curse user Gojo would still accept all of him.

I think this quote beautifully sums up my attitude towards Gojo and Geto's relationship, about their fundamental ability to touch each other no matter how much they reach out.

Someone who doesn't want to be saved is like the setting sun sinking into the mountains. No matter how you hold out your hand, there's no way to reach them. There was no way to reach him. It doesn't matter how strong you are, so long as you are alone.

Which is why the fic is called Expoential Decay because as you observed an asymptote is a metaphor for the infinity that doesn't allow anyone to ever touch Gojo. Also since this a post Hidden Inventory fic, Gojo now has his infinity up all the time which makes him even more different from Geto. Whereas in the past he used to drop his infinity because he trusted Geto to protect him.

I also wanted to show neither of them are able to deal with their trauma or even be open and honest about it with each other, which causes Gojo to drift away from Geto and be blind to Geto's mental spiral and the first cracks in their friendship are showing now. Yet they both continue to look away because they're so desperate to hang on to each other they don't want to acknowledge there's a problem.

ven when it comes to Geto, the one he considers and equal and deeply loves (whether it is romantically or platonically), he's not able to fully understand him, despite Geto displaying himself "naked" in front of Gojo. Despite them not having boundaries, there's a space between them no matter how much Geto tries to reach for Gojo's heart. Gojo will always be a step ahead from him, because he didn't allow himself to connect with anybody. (I think the way you worded it could mean that Gojo has his infinity on, which also represents that protective barrier he has put for himself to avoid anybody trying to reach his heart willingly or unwillingly).

Geto wants to confide in Gojo and is probably more open to him than anyone else, but Gojo's inability to see himself as human and accept human weakness makes him fundamentally able to see that Geto is legitimately struggling. As I mentioned above Gojo was satisfied by Geto not because they were equal in strength but because Geto is the first person to ever treat him as well... a person. I think Geto wants to be seen as a person too, to be loved in spite of his flaws, to be able to show weakness in front of Gojo but Gojo is deliberately blind to that.

As I said that Gojo does accept Geto in the end but doesn't realize it until late in life, just as Geto thought their friendship was over after he defected but actually Gojo's feelings never changed in all that time. They both have a fundamental misunderstanding of one another, because they're both insecure about their relationship and don't want to talk. I think they're both afraid of being rejected by the other too, if Geto rejected Gojo there would be no one left to understand him and vice versa.

In some ways, Geto and Yuuta were the same. Geto was too sincere. To someone like him, the reality that the world of sorcerers presented to him was just too cruel.

'...that in a world like this, I couldn't be truly happy from the bottom of my heart.' To live for the purpose of being yourself. And for that goal, Geto could only continue to pursue his twisted dream, drowning himself in the curse that lies in the gap between ideal and reality. This was the final confession of a man who could only choose to warp himself, who had erased himself in pursuit of his goals. The only person who could bear such a curse was Gojo Satoru.

Another quote from the Jujutsu Kaisen light novel proving that in the end their insecurities that ruined their relationships were unfounded, Gojo accepted everything about Geto. But Geto couldn't see that until he was literally on his death bed.

It's never clear to us (well, it is, they love each other, we all know, but Gege's intention was it not to be clear for us) or for Gojo and Geto themselves. They don't talk about it. They can't. They can't allow themselves to be vulnerable and love each other. Not the strongest sorcerers. Not when love is a weakness. Yet... they still want to be close. They still fight to reach for one and others' heart, but Gojo does not allow Geto in. He can't do that, not to the one he loves.

I think that's what it ultimately comes down to, Gojo and Geto love each other but they can't show their weakness in front of the other. Geto hides his mental spiral from Gojo for a whole year, and Gojo can't see it because he thinks Geto's place is standing on top of other people with him. Gojo is unable to see his own humanity which makes him unable to see Geto's humanity also and his human weaknesses.

At the same time, I portray Geto as the most painfully human character in the story despite the inhuman acts of cruelty he's capable of committing. It's his inability to divorce himself from his own humanity and his inability to exist in a dehumanizing system that kills him eventually.

I also wanted to display Geto's deep ability to sympathize with others, which is why he notices Michi's distress and he's the only one to reach out to him whereas Gojo actively bullies Michi for his weakness and has like almost zero sympathy for him despite the fact they're family. At the same time, Michi tries really hard to see Gojo as a human being and understand him even though he has a difficult time.

Gojo just can't connect to others because he can't get over himself, that's the central theme of this fic lol.

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Future Natsu and Lucy hurt my heart. What do you mean his last act was protecting her and that he was the one to welcome her to the afterlife.

learning that people want you in their lives is a skill you can develop if it does not come naturally