Day Sixty-four

Day 8: favourite trope to read or write and is there a difference in reading or writing that trope.

Hmmm … a very good question! I recently read the Phedre trilogy by Jacqueline Carey. After reading the first book, Kushiel’s Dart, my life and writing has been rendered transformed. The books are written in first person and the detail of the world building and the twists in the plot are exquisite. Reading this trilogy has pushed me to reconsider the roller coaster plot structure and approach my current wip into something more interesting. Hopefully I can be at least a quarter as successful as Carey. If you have not read her stories, I highly recommend them.

In the trilogy, the tropes of “enemies to lovers” and “lovers to enemies” is explored. It is so beautifully done! In my current wip, I’m working on lovers to enemies for my main character. A character who is also a flawed hero with a heart of gold.

Wish me luck!

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I identify as a fattie queer. All other sexual orientation labels feel like a lie to me and don’t fit right when I wear them. I’m queer.

queer is literally a slur. like you’ve never been called that in a derogatory context like most lgbt people? you think your experiences escaping homophobia make it okay to justify the use of a homophobic slur?

queer is an identity.

it has also been used as a slur. there is no denying that. but using a word as a slur does not make it a slur. because before queer is a slur it is an identity. before it is derogatory it is a label. the use of queer as an identity is infinitely more important than the use of queer as a slur because the people who identify as queer are infinitely more important than the people who use queer as a slur.

say a lot of people decided they hated me. despised me. were disgusted by me to the point where my own name became a slur. would you tell me not to say it? would you tell me i could no longer be helena, and instead must come up with a euphemism for the name that belonged to me decades before it belonged in the mouths of bigots?

because that would make you an enabler.

you would tell me i can’t say my name anymore because some lowlife decided he could use it to insult me?

you would tell a gay man that he can’t be gay anymore because some teens in the early 2000’s started calling everything they didn’t like “gay”, and now he has to say “same sex oriented male identifying individual”?

does that enrage you? because it should. that’s exactly how you sound.

you are telling me i cannot use my label. you are telling me that when my great-uncle shouted until his face was red and he spat tobacco and the word queer at my feet, he was right. he was right to insult me, and i was wrong to say my name.

you are shitting on every single one of our predecessors. you are slandering every person who fought for their rights to exist and and be tolerated and be celebrated in their countries, every person who was lost to the aids epidemic, every person whose country criminalizes love and gender expression, every child whose parents abandoned them for straying from the norm, every person who was born and will die in the closet longing to be themselves. the queer umbrella is a safety net, a security blanket, the comfort of being known without being pressured to tell. it is near and dear and important as fuck to every member of the lgbt+ community and you are a blight upon the earth you walk.

how dare you speak upon my experiences with homophobia. how dare you disguise your own homophobia as activism. and how fucking dare you have the audacity to come to my blog and hide behind an anonymous ask and preach to me about how i’m oppressing myself. go look at the fucking wikipedia page for queer and read about how 1980s lgbt+ activists, especially lgbt+ people of color, fought to call themselves queer in a world that still hates peculiar things. and here you are forty years later spitting queer back at their feet.

i don’t give a fuck if people start using my name as a slur. my name is still helena. i will not change it. i chose it, i like it, and it belongs to me. it does not belong to bigots no matter how badly they want it. your discomfort with my identity is not my fucking problem.

i am helena. i am queer. die mad & go fuck yourself

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Thank you clexa content creators

I will literally heart any clexa related content that I see on my dash. I love all you clexa fans who keep making gifs, writing fanfic, making art and videos. Thank you!

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From Odette Annable’s instagram. Her friend Arielle’s sister JULIA KEBBEL is MISSING from the LOS ANGELES area.

I’m sharing this partly because Odette did and also because I knew Arielle a little bit before she was an actress. We went to middle school together, and although we weren’t exactly friends, she is a human person I had classes with and now her sister’s missing… so I feel compelled to share the info.

Please reblog or repost, I don’t care. Just get the info out there!!!

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lol!

The lOO’s new love triangle (｡♥‿♥｡)

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To read!

Some of my favourite fanfics from my favourite wlw couples

Brittana:

- you are all that I need (Santana plays guitar and is in love with her best friend)

- Front row, baby (Santana and Rachel are having conversations)

- This love of mine (Christmas away from each other then new year party with the glee club)

- Secret heart (Brittana told from Rachel's point of vue)

- Simply divine (demi gods)

- In between days (after 3x06 Santana feels like she’s breaking apart)

Sanvers/Supercorp

- pajama based assumptions (Maggie finds Kara in Alex's apartment one morning)

- Is she? Or isn't she? (Maggie and Alex make bets on Lena's sexuality)

- Isolated (Kara feels isolated and Maggie is there to help)

- Oblivious (Kara is dating Lena but Alex thinks she is dating mon-el)

- Of Food and Romance (Lena steals Kara’s food, something that usually ends in a 30 mins lecture. The gang are baffled)

Vauseman

- If your heart was a prison (pick up lines)

- You little shit (baby in prison)

- Piper's best laid plan (book club)

- Hey you! Laura Ingalls Wilder! (Soulmate au)

Clexa

- Stealing kisses (secret relationship in high school)

- I run to you (Clarke runs after her father and Wells die, Lexa is her new roommate, Clarke is pregnant and Lexa helps her)

- Seven minutes (Seven minutes at a party but they know each other and the others don't know that)

- Unspoken words (soulmate au in which whatever you draw appears on your soulmate's skin)

- are you a doctor (because I’m bleeding) (lexa is a cop who gets shot and Clarke is a doctor who happens to be there)

Daisy

- On the run (after Hive, Daisy comes back to the base)

Shoot

- The little moments, our moments (cute af one shots)

- Reverie (cute one shots post Samaritan)

- The one where Shaw misses Root (cuddling and missing Root)

- You and me, we made vows (bored at a wedding)

- My therapist said... (undercover married people)

- Domestic hell (suburban couple+Halloween)

- 94 days (Root and Shaw are in prison for 94 days together)

- Close quarters (Shaw is a cuddler but she doesn't admit it)

Naomily

- Desiree (last chapter-> party, Effy came with Naomi whom Emily has a huge crush on, really cute at the end)

- Red (They are in a dark place and Emily overdose)

- Travelling together (Naomi is sick and Emily is there for her)

Trini and Kim (Power Rangers)

- Too busy lying to myself (to see your color) (soulmate au, really good and long)

- We're electric (friends with benefits to lovers)

- You arrive along with the sun (soulmate au, short one)

- I am in love with what we are (not what we should be) (fake married au)

Clizzy

- In that little café (Clary and Alex friendship)

- Waiting... (Clary meets the gang at the clinic)

- Come in a little closer (there was never much space between us) (Clizzy start fake dating until they are dating for real)

- Isabelle (Izzy coming to term with her sexuality in a really cute way)

Emison

- honest, let's make this night last forever (Ali knows it's a date but Emily doesn't)

- Sleepover protocol (the girls learn about emison and a sleepover ensues)

- Shut up Aria (they get together, the girls find out and they get high of Jason's brownies)

- 25 Occasions People Have Celebrated in the Liarverse (25 little one shot with emison as endgame)

- Mama (Emily carries the baby and then it's Alison's turn feat. the other Liars)

- Begin again (Ali comes back in season 5 and Emily helps her in her first day back at school)

- Place your bet (accidentally married in Vegas, 21 chapters)

- Right now it feels like we're bleeding (so deep that we might not get back up) (emily is in a dark place after Sara's death so she travels and sleep with a bunch of people but Emison is still endgame.)

Wanda Maximoff/Scarlet Witch

- Mistrust - 1.2 (The Avengers have difficulties trusting Wanda, but then she’s hurt in battle)

- No Matter What (they go on a mission, get kidnapped and Wanda volunteers to be the one tortured)

- Do you trust me? (They are trapped on a roof during a mission and Wanda and Tony must trust each other)

- The Wisdom of Children (Wanda and Peter are best friend and the Avengers don’t like them)

- It’s the Little Things that Matter (After civil war, Wanda becomes the hero she was always meant to be)

Posie

- you know (three times Josie hates Penelope and one time she doesn’t)

- get in the closet (Caroline walks in on Posie and P has to hide in the closet)

- Stupid Cupid (Love Is In The Air) (a girl does a spell on Penelope so that she falls in love with her but her love for Josie is so strong that is doesn’t really work)

- (meet me) under the mistletoe (mistletoes show up around school and people have to kiss each other)(long, really well written and good)

- You and I (are a Molotov cocktail of idiocy and sexual tension) (Posie knows Lizzie is in love with Hope)

Deanoru

- Rooftop Rendez-Vous (Karolina is popular, Nico is not but they’re dating)

Kelly and Becca

- You Do Something To Me (first night without Eden and Becca has a nightmare but Kelly is there for her)

- Paradise Rebuilt (snippets into their lives)

- Stuck on you (late night at the hospital)

Crisana

- Crisana fluff (what happened at the hospital)

- a night at the hospital

- Studying (cute fluff)

- I just want you (5 kisses no one saw and one they did)

Zoe and Madison

- we’re a shimmering balance act (the entire coven knows they are in love but they don’t)

- morning pretender (coffee shop au)

Hope and Amy

- Just a Basic Hot Girl (Hope doesn’t walk away at the end because Amy makes a move)

- They Can Wait (after a year in Botswana, Molly throws a surprise party for her best friend and Hope is in the attendance)

Kellex

- electric love (preath from Alex’s pov but still kellex endgame)

- let’s make this moment a crime (Kelley sprains her ankle so Alex and her stay in for New Year and they get together)

- A Little Slip Up (Kelley accidentally reveals and they are married)

- One day (after the World Cup, they kiss and it gets messed up)

Cazzie

- you’re one of the few things that I’m sure of (after holding hand in the car, C distance herself from I but realizes that she wants to be with her)

Juliantina

- Respite (after Juliana is kidnap, angst)

- Best of me (fake relationship)

Lintz

- Give Me Something (Maggie briefly moves in with Sydney and they get together)

- it’s better when they’re cute (no one know they are married until Maggie gets hurt)

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Writeblr Glossary

A list of words commonly used in the Writeblr community and their meaning!

I’ve gotten a lot of questions about what some things mean, so I thought it was time to compile a list of meanings.

Writeblr — A community of writers on tumblr; A blog that posts primarily about writing. See here for a more in-depth explanation. (Also written as Writblr on occasion)

WIP  — Stands for Work in Progress. Primarily, it’s a piece of fictional work that is still in the writing process and is unfinished. (Also see: WIP page)

OC  — Stands for Original Character. This is a character entirely of your own creation.

Tag list  — A tag list is a list of users who will be tagged in every post that a Writeblr makes about a certain WIP. It is often included at the bottom of a post, and people are free to ask to be included, or removed from it.

WIP Page  — A page or a post on a Writeblr that describes a WIP. Commonly includes a synopsis, setting, characters, etc. See here for what goes in a WIP page and how to make one.

Tag games — Tumblr games where people will do something (often answer questions, a snippet of their WIP, etc) and ask other users to participate by using the @ function in that post.

Ask games  — A tumblr game where a user will request people to send them things with the ask function. Often times will include a list of questions they wish to be asked.

Fanfiction  — Fiction written by a fan about an existing TV show, movie, book, etc. Often features the characters, the setting, etc. of that piece of media.

AU  — Stands for Alternate Universe. AUs typically feature the same cast of characters of a WIP or an existing piece of fiction with a major change or two. (For example, a Fantasy AU would involve placing the characters in a fantasy setting. There also may be an AU of what might happen if a certain character didn’t die in their story).

Canon  — Material or information that is accepted as an official part of a story. (i.e., the creator confirms it and includes it in their story).

Headcanons  — Ideas and interpretations of a fictional work that is accepted by a fan, but isn’t necessarily supported by canon.

Moodboard  — A collection of images meant to evoke a certain feeling or emotion. Often used by Writeblrs for their WIPs and OCs.

Have a word you’d like to see included? Let me know and I’ll add it!

Have a question on what a writeblr term means? Ask!

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Day Thirty-two

of @the-wip-project‘s challenge

Q22: What’s your favorite trope you’re not writing and why?

A22: Best friends to lovers. In my wip, the protagonist is pansexual whereas her bff is a gay man who comes out during the story. I want to show a healthy(ish) friendship between a man and a woman without sexual tension or romantic undertones.

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Some words to use when writing things:

winking

clenching

pulsing

fluttering

contracting

twitching

sucking

quivering

pulsating

throbbing

beating

thumping

thudding

pounding

humming

palpitate

vibrate

grinding

crushing

hammering

lashing

knocking

driving

thrusting

pushing

force

injecting

filling

dilate

stretching

lingering

expanding

bouncing

reaming

elongate

enlarge

unfolding

yielding

sternly

firmly

tightly 

harshly

thoroughly

consistently

precision

accuracy

carefully

demanding

strictly

restriction

meticulously

scrupulously

rigorously

rim

edge

lip

circle

band

encircling

enclosing

surrounding

piercing

curl

lock

twist

coil

spiral

whorl

dip

wet

soak

madly

wildly

noisily

rowdily

rambunctiously

decadent

degenerate

immoral

indulgent

accept

take

invite

nook

indentation

niche

depression

indent

depress

delay

tossing

writhing

flailing

squirming

rolling

wriggling

wiggling

thrashing

struggling

grappling

striving

straining

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“If?” Lexa asked teasingly. “Since when is anything an if when it comes to you?” She inched her way forward, keeping an eye and an ear out for any movement around her.

“Well, I didn’t want to brag.”

Lexa chuckled lowly. “That’s new.”

“Shut up and go get your girl,” Raven said, a smile in her voice. So maybe, just maybe, Lexa was forgiven. She doubted it, but she could hope. As long as Clarke was safe, she was pretty sure the rest of them would get over her sneaking out.

“See you on the other side.”

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The Starkeeper’s Guide to Love and Soccer (XXIX)

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