By Wayne

I got to hold a 500,000 year old hand axe at the museum today.

It's right-handed

I am right-handed

There are grooves for the thumb and knuckle to grip that fit my hand perfectly

I have calluses there from holding my stylus and pencils and the gardening tools.

There are sharper and blunter parts of the edge, for different types of cutting, as well as a point for piercing.

I know exactly how to use this to butcher a carcass.

A homo erectus made it

Some ancestor of mine, three species ago, made a tool that fits my hand perfectly, and that I still know how to use.

Who were you

A man? A woman? Did you even use those words?

Did you craft alone or were you with friends? Did you sing while you worked?

Did you find this stone yourself, or did you trade for it? Was it a gift?

Did you make it for yourself, or someone else, or does the distinction of personal property not really apply here?

Who were you?

What would you think today, seeing your descendant hold your tool and sob because it fits her hands as well?

What about your other descendant, the docent and caretaker of your tool, holding her hands under it the way you hold your hands under your baby's head when a stranger holds them.

Is it bizarre to you, that your most utilitarian object is now revered as holy?

Or has it always been divine?

Or is the divine in how I am watching videos on how to knap stone made by your other descendants, learning by example the way you did?

Tomorrow morning I am going to the local riverbed in search of the appropriate stones, and I will follow your example.

The first blood spilled on it will almost certainly be my own, as I learn the textures and rhythm of how it's done.

Did you have cuss words back then? Gods to blaspheme when the rock slips and you almost take your thumbnail off instead? Or did you just scream?

I'm not religious.

But if spilling my own blood to connect with a stranger who shared it isn't partaking in the divine

I don't know what is.

Hello Neil, have you seen the news about an amateur submarine that sank in the Atlantic Ocean and now there are people there without much hope of salvation. Do you think they will be saved? I feel sorry for these people, I hope everything will be fine

I have indeed seen that news. Did you know that last week a ship with about 750 migrants on it sank off the coast of Greece? 82 bodies were recovered, about a hundred people were saved, another 500 people are unaccounted for and probably drowned. The vessel may have capsized due to the Greek Coast Guard trying to tow it. Most of the people on the ship were from Pakistan, trying to get to Italy.

EMMA. (2020) dir. Autumn de Wilde

Abandoned church in the settlement of Budimilovo, Tver Oblast. Built in 1819-1827.

Vatican Museum | © LeronMasoN

STOP no more live-action remakes. We're going the other way now. Animated Casablanca. Animated The Godfather. Animated Oppenheimer. Animated Fight Club.

Me in my 30's and probably when I'm in my 40's.

you’re only in your 20’s. relax.

winter mist (Kodak Portra 160)

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