The Girl With The Pinned Smile

The Girl With The pinned Smile

there is a girl with a pinned smile that “everyone adores” 

She knows what they say when she closes her door

and knows that her tears dropping like flies will not help her

The girl with the pinned smile is a model student with straight A’s

She feels like screaming every time everyone says that she will be fine when they give her double the normal amount of work

She wants to drop dead when everyone gives her all the work in a project

When she tries to tell anyone her accomplishment that she worked for and she gets in return is a “yeah, we get it you're smart.” or a “stop showing off.” She wants to stop trying.

The girl with the pinned smile won the lottery with her looks

She has such smooth skin, that isn’t covered with bumps

The bumps are scratched until crimson runs down her skin

When someone says she looks pretty she will respond “thank you!” even though she knows they are lying

When they say that she is ugly she doesn’t respond to it and walks away, and she believes it

The girl with the pinned smile says “I love you too” as she closes her door

She walks over to her mirror and looks the stranger in the eye

She unpins her permanent smile as tears race down her face, her cheeks are sore

Her perfect curls look like bramble bush on top her head

She pushes up her hair revealing the ugly bumps on her forehead

She takes off her shirt showing the bumps on her back and the ugly pudge on her stomach

She takes off her shorts, and bra

She puts on some cute pajamas that don’t match her at all

Words such as Ugly and useless cloud her head

She wants to shut them up

But she agrees with them

A small voice says the opposite she quite’s it so it is not heard

That small voice is lying

She curls up on her bed

So small in the big world

She is scared

And lonely

And fat

And loud

She wants to scream but knows that will only make her more loud

She wants to be quite, but knows that is not her

She gets up out of bed and grabs her sandals

She runs out of the house which is silent

She runs to the closed park

No one ever goes there anymore

In the dead of night when not even a mouse awake

She lets her silent scream reach the world

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4 years ago

thank you! it’s beautiful.

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Here’s All The Sides In Some Cute Lolita Dresses!
Here’s All The Sides In Some Cute Lolita Dresses!
Here’s All The Sides In Some Cute Lolita Dresses!
Here’s All The Sides In Some Cute Lolita Dresses!
Here’s All The Sides In Some Cute Lolita Dresses!
Here’s All The Sides In Some Cute Lolita Dresses!

Here’s all the sides in some cute Lolita dresses!

The original prompt was by @thenextyellowfish I hope you like it!


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5 years ago

a snek is scared of a nerd who know what flavor of ice cream he likes and is blackmailing the snek with it.

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1 year ago
Here’s The Closeted Furries “hey Man… Can U Bum Me A Cig” And “the One Uncle Nobody Invites
Here’s The Closeted Furries “hey Man… Can U Bum Me A Cig” And “the One Uncle Nobody Invites

here’s the closeted furries “hey man… can u bum me a cig” and “the one uncle nobody invites to the family reunion but SOMEONE keeps telling him where it is anyways”

if you want an idea of what john is like, imagine hau from pokemon sumo

ALSO the ppl who kept asking me for trans thomas art, HERE he’s trans in this au (; 

ft John:

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4 years ago

never has or will be a Hans.

reblog if your name isn't Hans.

2,121,566 people are not Hans and counting!

We’ll find you Hans.


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4 years ago

BLM movement should be nearly everywhere not just in the USA as I hear it to be


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4 years ago

Today is good, some things could be changed but today is still good

Today is good, thank you to all who voted for some one that wasn't that orange guy. Now we need to focus on the unbridge problem on the supreme court. Ruth Bader Ginsburg, May her memory be a blessing, will not be replaced by that knock off Barbie. Wait no that would be offensive to barbie. Either way she needs to get off the supreme court.

Now onto my cat, today she has been cuddling me and my other cat seems happy to. So I say that too day is good.


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4 years ago

FANDERS, WHATEVER YOU DO, DON’T SIGN THIS PETITION.

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No, not even as a joke. Don’t share it with your friends as a joke either, or make a meme out of it, or anything. I don’t know what the motivation was behind creating this petition – I guess it very well could have been a younger well-meaning Fander who genuinely doesn’t understand how elections work – but regardless of what the intentions were, this is so so so awful and could have so many terrible consequences if it starts gaining traction.

Listen, we all understood why Kanye’s “presidential bid” was harmful, right? This is basically the same thing: right now, every third-party vote is a vote for Tr*mp and, no offense to my American friends, but your country cannot afford to vote Tr*mp back in. The upcoming election needs to be taken seriously now more than ever. 

The fact that this petition is being directed at the Thomas Sanders fandom is extra unsavory. It’s common knowledge that a huge chunk of this fandom is made up of younger people, and as much as I love, cherish, and respect our younger population – heck, I’m a minor myself – the fact is that we’re much more easily influenced, eager to give people the benefit of the doubt, and unfortunately, way too many of us may not know any better.

“But Spec!” I hear you cry. “If this petition is mainly being spread by the younger side of the fandom that doesn’t know any better, what harm could it do? They can’t vote anyway!”

The thing is, if you follow multiple Sanders Sides blogs, you’ll know from all the times you’ve seen the same post on your dash ten times in a row that we spread stuff like wildfire. If enough people aren’t aware of the harmful consequences and start spreading this petition around, then regardless of whether they’re seriously asking for signatures or just spreading it as a joke, one viral post would be all it takes for the mainstream internet to take notice. I cannot stress enough how disastrous that would be. 

The second that this petition catches the attention of the wider public, the US will be at risk of having a repeat version of Kanye’s presidential bid: people with a vote, a terrible sense of humour and no understanding of the consequences may write in Thomas Sanders as a joke, thus effectively wasting a vote that could be used to take Tr*mp out of office.

Oh, and if for whatever reason you’re a Fander that “doesn’t care about politics”, then first of all check your privilege at the very least you could care about Thomas?? He is a real person that could suffer very real harm not only to his brand/reputation, but also his personal safety if this petition thing gets out of hand. A similar thing happened to the author of the Diary of a Wimpy Kid series when a petition to change the US flag to the face of his fictional character began to gain traction. He was unaffiliated with the petition, but still received honest-to-goodness death threats. We cannot let this happen again.

Sorry if this post makes me sound angry, but it’s because I am. This is absolutely ridiculous. Please signal boost.


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5 years ago

adding onto this

albino any side

Virgil with dark skin

Stuff I wish to see more

Blonde Roman/Remus or Virgil

Patton with dark hair

Logan or Janus with wild hair colors

Finally just any of the sides as redheads


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4 years ago

Master Post

Sunday Tea With The King

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Summary: the King and Virgil used to have tea every Sunday, but now Virgil is left with an empty seat at a table by a bay, with extra macaroons, and a cup of tea untouched. Roman left with a faint memory of fine china and kind eyes. Remus is left with the faded memory of macaroons and a table by a sparkling bay. Both of them share the memory of loving Sundays. Patton’s guilt will forever eat at his chest, and he will do anything to make it up to Roman and Remus.

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5 years ago

I haven’t fully decided my brand of *Gay* but I know I ain’t fully straight.

if you dont reblog this youre straight


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