I Can't Deal With Physical Loss. I'd Rather Lose You To Someone Else Than Lose You To The Earth. Come

The night sky see's it all~

02.01.23

Okay, so I need to start studying like crazy. Today I visited an academy which helps you prep for exams in the evening. I'll be joining it from tomorrow. I realised that I'm not just paying for learning, but for time allocation as well. I'm paying them to take my time so that I can get my life together. I hate how my self-accountability in terms of studying went downhill. I'll be waking up at 4 am from tomorrow.

" What is a person, if not the marks they leave behind? "

- the invisible life of Addie LaRue by V.E Schwab

live your life now. don’t save clothes for a time you’re happier in your body, don’t put off adventures because you think your friends would be happier without you there, don’t deprive yourself of good things just because you can’t see the good in yourself

I don't want to live anymore

I am not lost;

I just don't wish to find.

not anymore...

🌻 study update 🌻

Pictures from yesterday

🌱okie so today, I felt like shit, I had about one hour of sleep :( however, I didn't listen to that tiredness and did some physics hehe. I'm really proud of myself.

"...it is sad of course, to forget. But it is a lonely thing, to be forgotten. To remember when no one else does."

- the invisible life of Addie LaRue by V.E Schwab

But perhaps no parent can truly see their child. When we look we see only the mirror of our own faults.

- Madeline Miller, Circe

What's meant for you will be all yours at the end. The constellations are in your favour, so my little star-bright, what are you worried about?

02.21.23

So, I found myself a study buddy and we're committing to a weekly schedule, rather than a daily one. It's much better on me mentally to have that. Also, I'm going through a lot right now. Ahh, I need to push through. I need to work hard.

A study buddy is important.