Bella Swan Is Autistic But The Government Doesn’t Want You To Know That

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“Queer dharma, or that Buddhist dharma as experienced by queer and trans people, challenges every one of these heteronormative codes. Even the notion that you are a gay man, or a lesbian, a trans man or trans woman, is challenged by both dharma and transqueer experience. Your female partner that you thought was a woman is now transitioning becoming a trans man; the gay man you are dating also performs as a drag queen and goes about as a woman in certain social contexts. Nothing is fixed or permanent; nothing can be pinned down for long; everything is impermanent; everything changes. This experience of profound impermanence is common to queer and trans people. It is the pattern of our lives; it is our lived experience. And it is one of the gifts that we have to share with the greater sangha. We know, perhaps more profoundly than heterosexuals, that there is no fixed “self,” that all facets of identity are ascribed, learned, performed, negotiated, discarded, transformed, and mutable.” - Shaun Bartone in Transcending: Trans Buddhist Voices

you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me.

maybe this time picking at Textures on my skin will lead to being silky smooth

Orgasm denial. Orgasm anger. Orgasm bargaining. Orgasm depression and orgasm acceptance.

X-Ray Image Taken By Nikola Tesla (1896)

The discovery of X-rays is credited to German scientist Wilhelm Roentgen for first detecting the electromagnetic radiations by accident in his 1895 experiments where he was testing whether cathode rays could pass through glass. Not many know this, but Nikola Tesla was experimenting in the same field prior to Roentgen and published his experimental results in numerous scientific periodicals during the early 1890s. Since these rays were still unknown Tesla used the term “radiant matter" to describe these radiations. Tesla produced some of the first X-ray imaging, which he called “shadowgraphs,” but his laboratory caught fire on March 13, 1895, and Tesla would lose everything including all photos and paperwork.

He would later give all credit to Rontgen for the discovery, and throughout the next few years produced some of the best X-ray images that even Roentgen praised. Tesla would also be the first scientist to warn the scientific community about the harms of X-rays, and designed methods to use them correctly.

dear americans,

as a polish queer woman and human rights activist, i know exactly how you're feeling right now and what to expect from these elections. i lived through the 2015-2023 regime of pis, a right-wing populist party that divided families in the same way trump did. i’ve experienced the rise of fascism in poland, the influence of far-right parties like konfederacja, and their “santa’s little helpers”—ordo iuris, an ultra-conservative catholic organization (banned in many countries, mind you) that helped enforce a near-total abortion ban and runs anti-queer campaigns in public spaces. i supported the black protests in 2016 as a middle schooler when they first tried to ban abortion. as an adult, i actively participated in the 2020 women’s strike, running from police tear gas daily after they finally passed the ban. i supported friends who faced charges.

i’ve lived through intense homophobia in poland as a queer teen and adult. i survived the first pride march in my hometown, where far-right extremists threw stones and glass at us. i endured the anti-queer propaganda spread by the ruling party in state-owned media. i survived the “rainbow night,” poland’s own stonewall moment in summer 2020, when police arrested around 50 queer activists following the arrest of margo, a nonbinary activist. i survived the "lgbt-free zones," the targeted violence, the slurs from strangers on the street, and the protests i held against queerphobia. it was hard as fuck, but i survived.

but just because i survived, it doesn’t mean others did. many women died because of the abortion ban—marta, justyna, izabela, dorota, joanna, maria, and many others who didn’t survive pis’s draconian anti-abortion laws. milo, kacper, michał, zuzia (she was 12), wiktor, and other queer and trans kids and young adults took their own lives because of the relentless queerphobia.

despite all of this, our experience in poland can serve as a guide now. here are some tips for staying safe and how we, polish queers and women, organized under the regime:

safety first, always. if you know someone who’s had an abortion, no you don’t. if you know someone is trans, no you don’t. if you know people who help with safe abortions, no you don’t—at least not until you know it’s 100% safe to share. if you are queer or have had an abortion, only share this with people you trust fully. most importantly, not everyone has to be an activist just because they’re part of a minority. if it feels unsafe to share that you're queer, trans, etc., then don’t. it doesn’t make you any less queer.

use secure, encrypted messaging like signal for conversations on potentially risky topics, such as queerness, abortion, organizing counter-actions, protests—anything that might be used against you.

stay anonymous online. if you want to research or report something without surveillance, do not use regular internet. get a vpn (mullvad is affordable and reliable), download the tor browser (for both onion and standard links), and if you plan to whistleblow, consider using a riseup email account.

organize and build networks. community is everything now. support each other, foster independence, because your government won’t have your back. set up collectives, grassroots movements. create lists of trusted professionals—lawyers, doctors, etc.—who can offer support.

to lawyers and doctors: please consider pro-bono work. this is what got us through poland’s hardest times. your work will be needed now more than ever.

for protests or risky actions: always write a pro-bono lawyer’s number on your arm with a permanent marker.

get to know the anarchist black cross federation and other resources on safety culture: "Starting an anarchist black cross group: A guide"; Still We Rise - A resource pack for transgender and non-gender conforming people in prison; Safe OUTside the system by the Audre Lorde Project;

for safe abortion info or involvement: get familiar with womenhelpwomen.

stay radical, stay strong, stay informed: The Anarchist Library

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