I love thinking about the goldfinch's religious symbolism
Theo's name meaning "God's gift"
Boris introducing Theo as "Fyodor" to people the night they meet again, name which means the same thing
Still, Boris rarely uses the name Theo, preferring nicknames instead
The Goldfinch being wrapped by Theo like "a Christmas present"
The Goldfinch returning on Christmas
The Goldfinch being described as something "immortal" as long there were people that loved it
Boris converting to different religions solely because of people
Like Islam because the people were nice to him
When he tattooed David's star because he wanted to work for a Jewish man
When he loves Dostoyevsky's philosophy on orthodoxy
at the same time, he can't manage to be a good man or follow through with any of them
like when he starts drinking and leaves Islam because of that
hiiii *trying not to sound desperate for human connection*
yes all my favorite characters are desperate to be loved. no i don’t think that says anything about me
december will make you go insane if the passage of time is something that scares you
born to be richie tozier (loud, always laughing, thrives with other people, unapologetic yourself), forced to be eddie kaspbrak (worries too much, easily grossed out, full of rage, trapped in a cycle of familiarity even though it’s awful)
yeah im good the light has left my world though
the devil couldn't reach me so instead he made sure I have a hard time expressing my emotions and thoughts
Cat silhouette.
& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!