If You Close The Door, The Night Could Last Forever

[…] something we both knew well enough without me saying it out loud to him…

“Sure—I did plenty of stupid things. Stupider than you! But me,” he said, toying with a cigarette, “I was trying to have fun and be happy. You wanted to be dead. It’s different.”

— Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch

my yearning compilation

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

STOPPPP😭😭😭😭😭

every day i discover the meaning of life and then i lose it again and then again a new day and i discover the meaning of life and lose it by night time and then again and so on

the goldfinch left me permanently insane because why have I thought about it every day for the past 4 months

u used to be able to put a dvd in your computer. and then u could watch it

reaching the point of hyperfixation where I can no longer engage with it due to the nausea that I experience at the mere thought of seeing it on my screen is the closest I’ve ever been to being diagnosed with female hysteria