{it's Been A While! Honestly I've Lost Some Motivation For This Blog Because I Don't Really Get Interacted

This is another really old one that I still really like, based off of the fanfic ‘step, two, three’ by Pittedpeaches on ao3 :]

I believe this is my first time trying to render something seriously, some of the colors turned out a little muddy but knowing this whole thing was created using my extremely limited knowledge on lighting is inane to me

these two lego bricks shaped an entire era of my existence lemme tell ya that

Closeups:

The Last Irken AU Chapter Archive

Chapter 1: part one

Chapter 1: part two

Chapter 2: part one

Chapter 2: part two

Chapter 3: part one

This is the funniest shit that ever happened to me.

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When you hear people going off about how you’re a horrible person because you can’t explore unhealthy dynamics in fiction, and yet those same people were nothing but toxic and unhealthy and constantly horrible to and cannibalizing each other in their actual lives despite only liking and touching “wholesome media”, and when you watch people be in long term abusive relationships and everyone around them deny it and praise how cute they are, but also go on about only liking wholesome stuff in fiction...

You start to realize most people are in varying levels of unhealthy situations and a lot of people are really not self aware about it. And part of the reason I explore unhealthiness in fiction is because it helped me recognize and make sense of the way these people treated me and others in a controlled environment because most people are unhealthy and so fiction was reflecting that.

It’s so baffling to me because the things I want in real life are so viscerally different than the things I want in fiction. I love shipping za//dr because they are super co-dependendent and possessive and the intense feelings created from a dynamic like that are, kind of awesome to explore in a removed way. But if anyone was say possessive of me irl i’d back out of that fast because I find that kind of unhealthy intensity scares me coming from real people. I only like it if I don’t actually have to be involved because I never want to be. A lot of the things I like in ZA//DR also just vent the feelings from past situations so it’s cathartic to be able to talk about it without retraumatizing myself through my art as opposed to being forced to only talk about myself and what happened to me directly which is triggering, instead I can have layers of removal by depicting it through characters. Then there’s also just the fact that I can learn about situations outside my own and gain a broader underetanding with experiences I don’t have. It’s like, the ship fills several purposes to me.

My point is like, this stuff seems so so obvious to me that fiction can be used in complex ways for individual people but today’s environment is set on it can only be a direct reflection of your real life wants? And I think if that’s the only way you know how to interact with fiction then you’re damaging yourself. There are some ships that are things I want IRL, and others that are more for venting or communicating feelings I’ve had, or exploring things outside my wants that I don’t desire IRL, or being symbolic for other things, and to me allowing myself to use fiction in a multitude of ways has been so healthy. But on the outside people may not always know the context, but I know what I’m doing with the fiction I interact with and so I know I’m not hurting myself.

It’s healthy to use fiction and art. Like normalization of bad things happens when people don’t have a strong grasp of what is and isn’t ok due to lack of education on it, but like that’s why in my opinion it’s more productive and important to have those discussions. Like no matter how much I explore say possessiveness and co-dependency in fiction (and use fiction to understand it) I will never desire it IRL because I already know it’s generally unhealthy and have had bad experiences with possessive people in my past to never want it near me again. If I didn’t know that maybe then it may influence my reality. But that’s kinda how it works. It’s definitely complicated. And again, i’ve seen plenty of people live and breathe these things in denial while refusing to touch it in fiction, while the worst i’ve done is come to understand it through fiction and work to avoid it in my actual life.

Grooming is a discussion people miss the point on by a mile and i’ll keep this brief bc it’s a lot to unpack and I don’t wanna get into all the nuances but people don’t get groomed by art simply existing, they get groomed because the art is used in a personally targetted way or normalizing things to them that gives the abuser more power over them. You can literally get groomed by “healthy ships” too if the abuser convinces you that your relationship to them is like that dynamic or if they make “wholesome” art that encourages you to want to trust them more (speaking from literal personal experience unfortunately). You’d probably be less likely to be groomed by art that you had a strong understanding you didn’t like and would wanna cut contact with anyone that interacted with you through it. So it’s important to know what you do and don’t want because then people have less control over you.

It boils down to understanding what you interact with and why and having important discussions around how to protect yourself IRL and what is and isn’t ok. Your understanding of the world around you will influence how you take fiction in. I’ve gotten wildly different interpretations on some of my art alone because people have different experiences so take away different things from my art. It’s definitely more like fiction relfects reality through our personal understanding of the world more than anything and that’s how that interaction works.

We win

FOR MY MINIONS!

I’m not the best with words, so I’ll try what I can, but It’s almost impossible to describe the sheer amount of joy I had yesterday evening because of the takeover

The excitement you could feel from everything that was happening was so strong that at one point I thought “damn, I wanna partecipate in this as well” after quickly remembering that I was the takeover.

Never would I thought that so many of you joined, the dedication in every fanart, meme, animatic, fanfiction, edit that I saw could be absolutely felt through your work and passion.

Seeing all the fandom joined together and so passioned and joyful for something so small as my silly comic kind of teared me up. It motivates me and brighten my day knowing that some of you find comforts in my update

The numbers!

In just 2 hours we were able to make the fandom tag trend, and it reached number one a couple of hours later.

But! Even for just a little, you did the impossible!

You made the comic tag trend!!

More than 700 posts have been posted during the takeover, and I’m absolutely STUNNED by all that you created!!

And now, what you have been waiting for …

A deal is a deal! Prepare yourself, because tomorrow you are in for a treat.

Our story continues with a 40 panels double update on December 8th, 1PM-2PM!

You all deserved it! Just for your information, even if the tag didn’t succeed to trend, I would have gave you the double update anyway, no way I would have left all your dedication unrewarded.

Have a small Spicynoodle doodle for now as my appreciation of all of you! Thank you again from the bottom of my heart!💜

Finally a good art of the Best cuple ever

i love them<3

Hiiiiiiiiii everyone in everywere and mister @moringmark

Travel log : 11-12-19

This is a great idea I've been thinking about since I saw the design announcement of sending an egg into space.

the situation of sending the egg into space just for sending it seemed very short

Why?

is why I like to think about things, maybe.

So,I planned the entire mission to colonize an uninhabited planet with the optimal conditions for the development of the wells.

First healthy eggs are collected and fertilized making sure you have 2 feet of breeding:

two females and one male that would be 4 females and 2 males, this ensures a stable genetic variety. the second is an incubator that gives them the rotation, humidity and temperature necessary for the chicks to occur.

Third would be to ensure a constant supply of food that mixes with the local fauna and flora but also give a balanced diet to chickens and their future offspring

also a water tank that collects the humidity of the environment and is stored in addition to having a pump included for when it is necessary to water the plants or fill the drinking fountains.

Also a seed germinator for the first seasons or emergency.

Also things for birds, such as shelter, drinking fountains, medicines, nests and various things... 🤔

The ship has several layers of protection to ensure a safe trip through space to the destination planet, all-terrain tires and an AI that monitors the internal and external conditions of the ship and crew with robot arms to take care of all animals and also with a self-repair protocol.

And I think it's all, I can't draw more why my hand hurt but I hope you like it

and the mission is called: EGGNIZATION

(because is a colonization with eggs 😅)

I also made a small flag why every mission needs a flag!!!

Moonface out.. peace ✌️

end of travel log

All the Spirited Away references in Part 8: A Dark Long Night

It was a long night indeed :)

LEGO: Monkie Kid AU

'Expired Monkie'

Draw this on MediBang and I really really liked it!