One thing I've been struggling to articulate is how meaningfull the “now we're even” line is to sskk. Because I believe it's really so poignant even beyond it's meaning of “returning the favor”. With sskk, it's always been a fight to surpass, to get the upper hand, to prevail. Always trying to come first before the other, always trying to win over the other. Akutagawa literally tells Atsushi “defeating you, that alone is my meaning”, and Atsushi too says “I have to become stronger [...] that is what I must do to deny Akutagawa's strength”. It's fight for supremacy: for Akutagawa first of all, since he feels like the only way he has to gain his validation to live is by the way of proving himself to Dazai through defeating Atsushi; but it's a matter of triumphing over the other for Atsushi, too, for whom doing good equates to it being okay for him to keep living, and for whom doing good often came in the form of defying evil, evil that Akutagawa so perfectly embodied. It's always been a fight to prevail, it's always been a “either you, or me”. Coexistence for them was simply unthinkable.
But now Atsushi knows better. He's grown to recognize Akutagawa's value, and to appreciate his sacrifice. Most importantly, he concluded that they don't need to fight for supremacy anymore; now that he aknowealdges Akutagawa's humanity and respects him, he can finally think of the two of them as equals, peers. That's the “even” there is to it: they've finally found their common ground. Aid, support, look after one another: it's not about trying to get in front or surpass the other anymore, but rather, stand side by side. And it gets me so emotional.
While Loki bullying his brother and dissing his mom were obviously horrible things to do, I don't think that Loki actually felt any real prejudice towards Hajrudin or his mother. I think that he was just saying the thing that he knew would hurt his brother the most and this was part of an already established pattern of Loki lashing out due to already being treated poorly by the rest of Elbaf by this point.
Remember, every giant was dunking on Harald's first wife for being non-Elbafian so it's more likely that Loki, who is much younger than Hajrudin who himself looks about seven or eight here, parroted what the older giants were saying without understanding the actual weight of it. Kids say stupid shit they overhear from adults who should know better all the time.
Plus, notice how none of the older giants in this flashback are jumping to Hajrudin's defense or holding back Loki from attacking him? If anything, it looks like they're egging on the violence. Even Harald, the peace-loving king who just said he wants his sons to get along, isn't putting a stop to one of them beating the other bloody while spewing xenophobic remarks.
You could give Harald the benefit of the doubt by saying this happened when he wasn't around (I took the 'get along when i'm gone' as 'get along after i die' but he could have just been leaving on a day trip here), but still the giants are doing nothing to defend the king's eldest son from physical and verbal abuse even from one of their pariahs implicitly because, in their eyes, Loki isn't saying anything that they don't agree with.
Frankly, it's a miracle that Hajrudin didn't become as resentful of Elbaf as Loki did.
the thing is not only akutagawa regaining his memories by having atsushi throw himself to save him like he did, but also that akutagawa's eyes have never been more clear
Elise is a child despite having existed for decades because she looks like a child, thinks like a child and acts like a child.
Sigma is an adult despite having existed for three years because he looks like an adult, thinks like an adult and acts like an adult
Obviously Gaban would come to help with the monsters, he must have heard the announcement saying that they were attacking the school and the children and immediately ran out to help, after all, Ripley works there as a teacher and Collon is a child, he probably came to try to find the two to protect them.
kind of upset that so many people seem to have forgotten or not known that trauma can result in hallucinations. of course atsushi is hallucinating dazai. he’s hallucinating someone he trusts and getting advice from them somehow
Asagiri reminds us of Akutagawa, Atsushi and Dazai's past and expects us to be fine after that??
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