Just Passing By

Huh...

I create a Tumblr blog and the first thing I see in the #asoue tag is incestous ships content.

me when somebody asks me if i was a harry potter kid or a twilight kid

Maybe I'm just a sentimental fool but sometimes I think too hard about the Baudelaire's parents, and all their peers in VFD before the schism, even Olaf, going on missions together and gathering for dinners and defending each other in fights and bickering during a stakeout and my entire brain just goes :(

Olaf putting out fires and doing good work with Jacques and Kit and the others. The others listening to him play piano (because genuinely? He was good at it in the show.) Lemony being everyone's collective friend that constantly needs to be stopped from starting a soliloquy every time they're out anywhere. Esme being well-intentioned, if a bit egotistical, and using her penchant for blending in with high society to gather important information. Monty bringing his iguana to group meetings sometimes, and teaching certain other members how to take care of his reptiles temporarily when he needed to leave the house for longer periods of time- keeping guest rooms ready in the house. Beatrice inventing a way to patch up Lemony's typewriter when he drags it along on a mission and it gets damaged. Kit and Olaf using empty safe places to slack off a little and relax in-between missions, when they need a moment to take things less seriously. Group musical theatre nights. Beach visits. Theme park attendance. Vacations, even.

Thinking about them all together, bonded by good intentions, shared secrets and common interests kills me inside </3

Here is my paper mache Bombinating Beast.

Reblog to steal the sugar bowl from the person you reblogged this from

Relationship status: Single, as always

Favourite colour: Cannot possibly decide, but when I have to give an answer, it’s green. Or yellow.

Favourite food: I’m really bad at choosing favorite things. But I really enjoy any type of soup and salad.

Song stuck in my head: Strawberry Fields Forever, by The Beatles. I keep singing out of nowhere. Your Existence by Wonstein too.

Last thing I googled: The translation of a Latin phrase

Time: 01:27 (or 1:27 AM)

Dream trip: Not sure... there are many places I’d like to go to (although traveling to Peru with friends has been a dream for many years now- and recently, I added “traveling someplace in the world where I could meet my online friends” to that list).

Something I want: To publish a book some day- oh, and have at least one small role in a movie/television show at some point in my life.

Thanks for tagging me :)

Don’t know anyone else to tag, though, sorry.

starting a new post so it won't be so horrible long

Rules: Tag 10 people you want to get to know better.

i got tagged by @how-to-be-a-hero tysm bestie<3

Relationship status: single

Favourite colour: darkblue and darkgreen

Favourite food: sushi

Song stuck in my head: Maybe you're the problem by Ava Max

Last thing I googled: nevermoor thai cover

Time: 7 am.

Dream trip: australia

Something I want: to keep the contact with my friends after changing school

no pressure tags: @belle-the-mess @idiot---witch @queen-fenestra @niamhous @iyahpostsstuff @neherandunasflor @necromancers-incorporated @frey-the-they @okay-hamlet @queercodedcadence

I wish everyone reading this a very good night.

Or a very good morning. Or a very good afternoon. Depends on where in the world you are, and when you are reading this.

I’m going to LOSE my shit Webb took some pictures of Jupiter and………………………….

was going through my asoue tag yesterday (of posts i’ve reblogged, not my own posts) and found the post about klaus thinking even years later that he should’ve done something to help uncle monty and prevent his death and how important and heavy and terrible that guilt is and i was reading my tags on it and wanted to make them into a bigger post bc like, this really is heartbreaking, and so is reptile room in general

reptile room is such an important book!! bad beginning sets up olaf and his desire for the baudelaire fortune (and general abuse), but reptile room is the one that creates the set up for the rest of the books – new guardian (or new circumstances), olaf eventually appears – and is the first time it happens!! the kids go from suddenly losing their parents, to getting olaf, who’s a terrible, abusive person, to then getting a new guardian, who’s, nice. monty is still, incredibly misguided and a well-meaning but ultimately useless adult, because he doesn’t recognize olaf and focuses more on the herpetological society than baudelaires telling him olaf is a threat, but he’s also still a good person, and he’s the first good, kind, decent person the baudelaires meet after losing their parents.

he gives them their own rooms, with things he knows they’ll like, and he lets them be involved in his life and work and help prepare for the trip to peru. (this is also assuming that peru was not vfd-related, which i don’t think it was.) he makes them feel important and needed for themselves, not for the money they’ll one day have. he gives them a home, a safe place, somewhere they’re cared for, by someone who genuinely cares about them. it’s not like being at home with their parents, because nothing is going to compare to that, but it’s close. especially after living with someone like olaf, who hit klaus, locked sunny in a cage, tried to marry violet. and in no other book do they have the opportunity to be as comfortable and safe and cared for as they are with monty in the reptile room. (josephine’s fear prevents her from really being a parent and connecting with them, sir makes them do child labor, nero doesn’t care about his students and puts the kids in the orphan shack, esme and jerome are, esme and jerome, the vfd village also treats them as child labor, after that they’re on their own and the adults they meet still can’t do anything to really help. even dewey’s offer of the kids staying at the hotel falls flat in the face of, it is a vfd hotel, and even as neutral territory and ‘the last safe place’ it’s never going to be completely safe. the only place they have ever been remotely as safe as they were in their parent’s house is with monty.)

(and especially in the way that monty isn’t just montgomery montgomery, he’s introduced as uncle monty. it’s unlikely that he really was related to beatrice and bertrand, but he’s considered family.)

and then olaf comes back. and he corrupts that safety, and murders monty.

and it’s like the baudelaires lose their parents all over again. but this time, it was supposed to be different!! because before, when the fire killed their parents, they weren’t home, they were at briny beach. but now!! this time they were home!! this time they were there!! they were with a guardian who was family and like a parent and supposed to protect them, and the baudelaires could protect him, too!! and they were there when monty was murdered and just didn’t know!!! this kind of loss wasn’t supposed to happen again but it did! of course klaus would still think even years and years later that he should’ve done something, because he feels directly responsible for this loss that wasn’t, by any stretch of the imagination, supposed to happen a second time!!

and there’s no way he could’ve possibly changed anything about how it played out. olaf would’ve murdered monty eventually no matter what, because monty was in his way, and olaf was always going to do it in a way no one could interfere with. even if klaus had called out to the taxi driver to take olaf away when he arrived as stephano, likely nothing would’ve happened. but klaus’ survivors guilt exists and stays with him because it’s a horrifying loss that he blames himself for, because he was there, and monty was alive and then he wasn’t, and there’s proof this time, there’s a body this time, there’s a house that remains that didn’t burn down that klaus was in, monty’s possessions are left behind, his peaches are still there, such tangible things that only reinforce what was lost and wasn’t supposed to be lost this time. klaus is twelve years old and just lost his parents and then lost the only other adult who could’ve come close to them. (and it’s not going to stop there, but how this loss functions first in bb/rr specifically is pivotal)

and that trauma never stops! ideally he should know better as an adult, that it was never his responsibility to save monty, or his parents, and there was nothing he could do, but he still thinks it was because they were so close and so similar. it’s heartbreaking that even some time later klaus can’t stop re-imagining what he could’ve done differently