After you leave a toxic or abusive environment, a lot of normal things are going to feel weird, and just plainly awful at the beginning. Buying that thing you've always wanted can make you feel guilty for spending money on yourself. Resting can feel a lot more like being lazy. Safety and happiness can feel so temporary, almost like you are just waiting for life to get bad again.
It's normal, it's part of the process. You will get used to be at peace. To feel joy. To be safe. I know you will<3
fuck literary gatekeeping, read whatever you want.
it takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends.
- Dumbledore
“No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell.”
— Carl Gustav Jung
my parents were never really bad nor toxic for that matter, they loved me and i know
it's just that my mom never really told me she loved, she never hugged me tight, she never really cared how i was feeling, she sometimes says things that hurt me, things i'll never forget (i still don't understand why she says them, i don't think i ever will), still, she does everything she can to be the best mom she can be, despite everything, she struggles to keep it all together for us and i know that
my dad is a good father too, he's just not a good husband, he never really loved mom, nor did she, their relationship was never really good at all, he never really did much to make it better, it was all on mom's back, he had problems of his own too, but he was selfish and stubborn, he always thinks he's right, he hurts her and she stays silent until she lets it out on us.
my parents are trying their best, it's just that their best was never enough..
“The strongest people are the ones who are still kind even after the world tore them a part.”
— Raven Emotion
Sorry I am not who you want me to be.
in 2022, someone will always be prettier. someone will always be smarter. someone will always be faster. but they will never be you.
So..... I'm a ten?
She’s a ten but anytime she’s going through a hard time, she automatically reads and listens to music all day because she would rather escape this world and focus on other peoples sorrow and problems than her own.
[text id: i am too little, and too much, and never enough.]
fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am tired of making a religion out of my suffering’.
THE ERAS TOUR ✧・゚: *✧