1st Day Of A Month Of Denial

Ruined orgasms...

Sir just told me apparently ruined orgasms are going to be a norm for me now and proper orgasms are just for rewards >< I don't know how to react to this... when he told me about it I kind of laughed at the absurdity and yet also found the idea of it very hot.

Denied for a week

This morning sir asked if I'd like to try denial for a week which I agreed to. He said he wants to start making my releases rare so they are more of a reward... 

I've edged for a total of 15 minutes >< totally haven't been feeling horny...

I ordered a blonde flat white from Starbucks while on my break and the barista must have been having a long day bc he goes “that would be my stripper name” and there was like five seconds of dead silence between us before he looked up realized he said that out loud

Pillar of Creation

She tried to ignore the toes rubbing up and down her leg.. that suggestion that she would feel aroused at any touch by her neighbor was ridiculous. She only went along with the session to appease her so called party trick. Sure she had obeyed when she was told to strip down to her shoes but she was only just going along with it. She wasnt slipping to the pleasure... She could resist... She would stay in control... Nevermind a whimper just escaped her and she was told she wouldnt cum without her permission.

Crying is all right in its own way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.

C.S. Lewis (via lotsofpinkplaid)

A task Sir asked me to do. I wrote a spiral of words relating to my submission. l also made the suggestion that each word I wrote would give me pleasure.

Sunday

The day I can cum without permission and it still feels weird. Although I still feel very submissive as sir uses me as his little obedient slut while I'm made to write this post. It's so hard to think.