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Two new dolls going up for auction on my eBay this Friday! (25th Oct) The auction will begin at 21:00 GMT+1, and last for 3 days.
It's been years since I've auctioned anything, I'm a little nervous to dip my toes back into it π Good luck to anyone that might decide to take part! π
Nothing is βTMIβ for me. Iβm nosy as shit. Tell me everything. Spare no detail.
just one psychotic episode will change your life, forever. it'll alter your self perception beyond recognition. you'll remember who you were before, back when you were (relatively) sane, always been sane, and you won't recognize her anymore. she'll feel more like a sister. you're still the same, you are--but you aren't. you're different, you know you are. You're different in ways you cannot articulate, in ways your loved ones cannot truly grasp. you've experienced something most people believe is impossible to experience. likely because it is. it was something impossible, grand, and terrifying. the most scared you've ever felt in your life. God looked down on you and laughed, and finally, finally you know what it feels like to be that small and vulnerable. you can't go back to before, when you were naive, ignorant to your size. but it's okay. you're okay, now. it's over and you're safe. and you've always been safe, really, it wasn't real, but the trauma is. the trauma is real and it's lasting.
and it's not real. and you know it's not real. but sometimes you get scared again. so, so, so scared, because it was traumatizing and now you're left with flashbacks to a time when the world didn't make sense, when you weren't yourself, when you were small and confused and lost and could not understand yourself let alone be understood--and it feels real again. but you don't believe it, not really, you know you don't. you know it's not real. it's not psychosis round 2, but you're still so so scared--scared that you're wrong, that it is real, scared that you'll go back there--that you'll lose the sanity you grappled for. fought for. but you don't. not yet, at least. the flashback passes, same as any other flashback. but the fear lingers. you'll fear losing control like that for the rest of your life. years of sanity, remission, and you're still afraid, because you know what that felt like and it was scary. it's weird to believe again, when you don't really believe, it's weird to relive unreality while knowing you're within reality. you can feel your sanity, you know it's there, because it's saying "this isn't real and we know it's not real. we know this. but I am so so so scared anyway. I am so scared of experiencing it again. I am so scared that I was right and now I'm wrong."
psychosis is traumatic and trauma leaves you with flashbacks. and sometimes it feels like you're there again. like you've slipped away again. and it's scary. but you'll be back, I know you will, because I'm back, I'm okay, and you are too. I love you. I love all of you. love yourselves for me.
β¦Λ~ ANIMATED STARS DIVIDERS by enchanthings ~Λβ¦
Info: these were all drawn & animated by me. please reblog/like if use!
I made a lil whiteboard if yall ever wanna do some doodles. I'm specifically doing a YV related one rn, but feel free to hop in and do whatever (just keep things appropriate pls uvu).
β goulie-girl Follow
my vampire gf cant visit my crypt cuz they fucking buried me in a church cemetery fuck my entire unlife i wish i killed myself when i was alive
π» creeps-and-crypts Follow
Hey. No. I killed myself when I was alive and it was the worst thing that ever happened to me. You do not get to joke about that shit just because youre dead. Suicide jokes are never funny.
β goulie-girl Follow
its not a joke im serious. if i had just offed myself when i had the chance my grave wouldnt be holy ground and my girlfriend wouldnt literally burn when she enters my crypt.
π§ββοΈ spike-through-the-heart Follow
oh if its holy ground thats the issue you just gotta figure out a way to desecrate it
β goulie-girl Follow
okay like how
π¦ unsound-familiar Follow
ill kill myself over ur grave if u want
β goulie-girl Follow
thanks but im not looking for a roomie
π§Ή doubledoubletoilettrouble Follow
desecration potion
π§ͺ hexes-and-exes Follow
potion of desecration
πΈ wartsandall Follow
loOking for a poTion that deSecraTes? haVe I got the PotiOn for You πππ
β goulie-girl Follow
great the hexbots found my post
π§ββοΈ i-bid-u-velcome Follow
babe just come over to my castle
β goulie-girl Follow
ur hellhound scares me
What do you use to make the tweets :0 !
I'm an iOS user so I use these two apps ^^
I'm pretty sure TwiNote is available on Android? though I'm not sure about Social Maker.
in my previous posts, all of the tweets and the message convos I've posted were all made on Social Maker, but recently I've tried out TwiNote and have yet to post them.
I find Social Maker easier to navigate but it does have a limit to the tweets you can post before it asks you to pay. before, I used to just delete the tweets I make right after making them so I don't have to stress myself out with deleting bulk tweets after reaching the limit.
aaaand all of the pfps I use for the profiles are from pinterest !!
he/him 21/yo artist π posting from my wizardβs tower in the bogπ¦
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