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“Maybe you don’t go to hell for the things you do. Maybe you go to hell for the things you don’t do. The things you don’t finish.”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Lullaby

“you okay?”

no I just want to drown here forever

“The most memorable people in life will be the friends who loved you when you weren’t very lovable.”

— Aidan Chambers

The veil is thinning.

Seattle, Washington

January 2021

Eliienkind

Autumn 🍂 or spring 🌼 ?

With spooky season coming upon us… let me tell you about one scary thing: Shadow work

There’s nothing more scary than facing yourself, the parts you don’t like about you, the ugly parts you want to keep hidden. The parts you want to deny about yourself. Dare I say lie about yourself. 

But shadow work is that necessary pain you need. You need to check yourself, work through your issues, whether that is trauma a reality check or something else. It overall should make you a better person or at the very least help you move on your way to becoming the best you you can be. And it’s hard to admit things.  Humbling yourself is a bitch. Admitting things about yourself is a bitch and it all hurts. But with that comes acceptance and change. Addressing an issue is the first step to overcoming said problem. You have to admit you’re addicted to something before kicking it. You have to acknowledge you’re a quitter because you’re either afraid of failure, success or…both at the same time. And I’m just naming things off the top of my head. 

When I first started looking into shadow work, I first thought it was more like Persona series. You gotta fight yourself and defeat yourself like the inverted version of yourself. But a lot of it isn’t about who wins and who loses. It’s all about you and what can be your best self. You don’t do shadow work to eliminate the darkness, you accept it and work with it. It reminds you of your mistakes, your shortcomings, your flaws. But most importantly, it allows you to not be perfect and I think that’s what we need the most. Like persona, your dark selves, the parts you hate, want to deny, ignore, can destroy you just as much as it can help you. It can easily become your armor, your weaponry, because it is you, but those dark parts of you don’t have to rule you. 

im calm because i know whats coming and i deserve it

Reconnecting with witchcraft and spirituality

As I'm in the process of reconnecting with witchcraft after being not so dedicated for the last two years, there are things I'm being mindful of as I read books as research and wait for some supplies I ordered to be delivered (just coz I wanna do some crafty stuff, not that you need supplies for witchcraft!). Here are some things I've been up to:

Lighting a candle or more everyday and feeling it's warmth and watching it for the fire element

Lighting an incense stick every few days and watching the smoke and taking in the smell. Opening my window wide and smelling the air outside whether it's sunny or raining. For the air element

Being more mindful of how water cleanses and feels when I wash my hands or shower. Drinking more water. For the water element

Researching on herbs and flowers by reading green witchcraft books. Making plans for indoor plants, even if they're fake because of responsibilities and cat. Plans to check the front yard for any herbs my mum may have planted there before she moved. Incorporating more herbs and spices in my food and drinks. Drinking tea. For the earth element

A few minutes of meditation and non screen time. Thinking about my belief and forming it. Working on the arrangement of my altar and making plans for it. Rolling crystals around in my hand as I do uni work. Being more mindful of what I say and my intentions. For the spirit element

Setting up sun water to charge on the windowsill during the day with crystals and the sun tarot card. For Solar and water

Looking into the current moon phase on my side of the world and what to do during it (currently waning crescent for me!). Aligning my goals and intentions with the moon phase. For Lunar and spirit

Despite me having a giant shopping list of things I want to get over time to make things and do spells, and books I want to get physical copies of for taking notes and referring to, right now I'm finding ways I have at home to connect with the elements, especially work on my relationship with earth as one I've neglected previously but now want to focus on as a green witchling, and work on my belief.

Blessed Be!