the objects to your immediate left and right are now this year's art fight teams. what's the theme?
Which answer describes best your inner monologue / voice?
If you are not sure that's totally okay, inner voices are a weird thing to think about and until we learn how to read other people's minds no one is totally sure what it is like for each person
you ever eat watermelon after waking up and it's like the most delicious and refreshing thing ever
watermelon <3333
This scene from one of the Suicide Squad movies reminded me of team ENA so I had to animate it ✨This drawing helped me a lot with the posing of the shotgun!!
The thing about ADHD is that the "lack of reward chemicals in your brain" doesn't just mean that you don't want to do any tasks that don't feel particularly yummy :(, it means that your brain will look at chores and tasks that need to be done like "doing this would be painful and tedious for absolutely nothing to gain from it, Do Not Do That." The same thing that your brain tells you about everything else that would feel really bad and hurt the entire time that you're dying. The part of your brain that stops you from doing the thing is the same part that keeps you from shoving your arm into a wood chipper.
With unmedicated, unmanaged ADHD, "I have to do this assignment or I fail and my life will be ruined and I die" feels like a SAW trap, every single time.
This is actually extremely similar to what I experienced.
(vent hidden under cut for those that do want to read it.)
I had one person I stuck close to for half or maybe even a majority of elementary school, and she had other friends she liked just as much. A part of me could tell they didn't like me at all, and I never understood why. Anytime I approached them during recess, they'd drag her away to talk about something else, when all I wanted to do was to just hang out with my best friend.
I don't remember how, but I learned they thought I was 'annoying'. At some point in 4th or 5th grade, I stopped trying. I stopped trying to get along with them, and I just let them take her, even though I really didn't want to. Depression hit me pretty hard then, because she was my favorite person at the time. And it just hurt. We were only 9 or 10.
It's been over 8 years since then. I still think abiut that. I fear that people will eventually see me as 'annoying', or that they'll let others drag me away from them. It fucked me up a lot.
People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.
I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.
I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.
There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me
the smeemer!!
why are they so smeemy
Smeemo ate a smeemoberry every day.
your local gremlin and menace to society new to tumblr be niceys IM STILL FIGURING OUT STUFF FOR MY PAGE SORRY ABOUT IT BEING SO EMPTY
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