Hey Don't Cry. Even Hell Itself Contains Soup

I have some beef with jgy stans not because I hate him or because I think he's a bad person but because they always make him so... perfect?? and that's just plain boring. I usually like people for their flaws and the fanfics are usually like.... "he's super humble he doesn't like luxury and has superior taste and doesn't seek admiration from people and would never ever do anything purely selfish (I'm not talking about the cRiMeS and if they are justified I mean like. little everyday things??) and always thinks about common people and so uwu cool and understandind and great and..." come on. come on. that's boring. I fell asleep.

like I'm not saying that doing this is wrong or not canon or smth but that's just not how I see him. I like the worst of him not the best of him.

There’s a great deal of interpretation possible regarding how and how much JGY’s deceptions hurt LXC, but, at the end of the day, what’s really not up for interpretation is that the single deception that hurts LXC the most, the deception that breaks him, the deception that plays on his trust to get him to take an action he would not have otherwise, and the deception that shows a complete lack of regard for his feelings, does not come from JGY.

"would you love me if I was a worm"? easy. worms are innocent and kind. but would you love me if I was the real me and not the faint reflection of me I show you to seem better? if even the best version of me, stripped of almost all flaws, disappoints people sometimes and seems unbearable, what would they think of a monster which hides behind that? would you run from me? would you hate me? would the reveal break everything we've built together?

@3cosmicfrogs sadly no, I can't even respond to your comment :( that's why I'm so angry about the shadowban, it cuts almost all the ways for communication...

ok. ok. I'm thinking about the ways I could still communicate with my mutuals if my fate is to be shadowbanned. I think even if I delete this blog and make a new one it will be banned in less than a month to because apparently they may just be banning all people with russian ID...

Maybe I just will reblog things with tags and people who care enough could be just checking my blog sometimes to see if I reblogged their stuff or something? The most problem is that the only way we can communicate now is through the tags; no dms, no asks and no comments are available... I have a Telegram btw. I'll try to get a Discord since I've seen some of you have it but I'm not sure if it's available for people from my country.

I do not want to give up that easily but honestly I don't have many ideas... I really like you all. I want to chat, to discuss things and to communicate! I don't care about popularity, but I do care about preserving my connection with all the cool people I met here (•ˋ _ ˊ•)

Pull a major arcana from this picker wheel!

yayyyyy it's my birthday!! I'm 19 now :>

look at me I was super tired and irritated for several days and wanted to write the saltiest thing ever but I didn't because I try to be a good person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111 tell me I'm cool and great.

By Ed Himelblau