“Whatever You Had To Do To Survive, Whatever You Did From Spite Or Rage Or Selfishness … I Don’t

Some poems were easier than others. Some were inscrutable. I was thinking that maybe I did know the meaning of that word.

I got to thinking that poems were like people. Some people you got right off the bat. Some people you just didn’t get—and never would get.

~Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe

“You don’t think monster girls and wicked boys deserve love?” 

~How the High King of Elfhame Learned to Hate Stories

You've heard of kanej death trope but what about WESPER DEATH TROPE- Wylan dies BEFORE JESPER because he's not grisha,, but that would still be a peaceful death-

But what if he dies in a heist that he didn't wanna go on, but he went for Jesper, and got shot. There's blood everywhere and even Kaz is beginning to panic. Jesper keeps trying to use his powers to get the bullet out but he's not skilled enough to. So Wylan dies in his arms, Inej cries and prays and wishes Nina were there to save him, Kaz blinks back tears and thinks "I never thought I'd have to bury one of my own". Jesper blames himself forever and distances himself from kaz. The crows fall apart.

Many years later Kanej have a kid and name him wylan.

SOMEONE PUT THIS INTO BETTER WORDS-

I was craftier with my observation, kept my head down and my eyes ready to leap away. But he was craftier still. At least once a dinner he would turn and catch me before I could feign indifference. Those seconds, half seconds, that the line of our gaze connected, were the only moment in my day that I felt anything at all. The sudden swoop of my stomach, the coursing anger. I was like a fish eyeing the hook.

~Patroclus, The Song Of Achilles

I love it when characters say "Please don't punch me for this" or "Live long enough to hate me for this" before kissing their love interest IT'S THE SUPERIOR ENEMIES TO LOVERS TROPE

Remember when Cardan said "Jude jude jude jude jude jude jude jude..." and achieved poetic cinema?

Jesper fahey said "if only you could talk to girls in equations." and then Wylan van eck asked "just girls?" and Jesper had the audacity to reply with "no. not just girls." AND I haven't recovered since. anyways happy pride month ya'll.

I'm fine but then-

Thinking about how "No one is ever the villain of their own story" and "We are all someone's monster" are opposites but the same.

This book just got real painful real fast- what have I gotten myself into *sobs*