Just Because They’re Nice To You, Doesn’t Mean They Value You. When You Value Something, You Deeply

“As I grow older, I pay less attention to what men say. I just watch what they do.”

— Andrew Carnegie

I have found myself getting things done, things I've been putting off for weeks, for months, for years! I'm taking care of myself in ways I wasn't used to in a long time, I cleaned my room, I moved that big ugly chair in front of the house (been there for a year!), I fixed all my ripped clothes, I cleaned the bathroom, I'm taking my meds, I'm brushing my teeth at least 3 times a day, I decluttered my messy stuff all over the house, washed my favorite backpack. I'm taking care of my skin, I'm running. All the things I hoped I would have eventually done on my own, I could only really do with the help of someone who cares about me. She made me want to be a better man. I don't even dissociate as much anymore, dissociation comes from dysfunctional attachment, when you don't have somebody who looks at you and picks you up and responds to you when you are in distress, so you learn to deal with your misery by shutting yourself down. I'm not shutting myself down! I'm not shutting myself down! I'm opening myself up, just, JUST because of the prospect of love. And the thing about love, is that when it approaches you like a soft kind touch, it makes you realize what you've been missing out on.

ورغم هذا كله فأنا لن أهرول مُلقيًا بحزني على عاتق أحد، أنا أتداوى ذاتيًا، ألا يبدو هذا فعلًا مقدسًا.“

i think I like to just sit and drink coffee while reading

“Stay hydrated, stay exfoliated, stay fit etc etc” girl, I can’t even stay awake

From the sky ⁧of AlUla

credit to: @Astro_MAA on X

Waiting until you feel “ready” to start is the biggest trap of all. The perfect moment simply doesn’t exist.

We tell ourselves things like: “I need more experience,” “I’ll wait until I’m less busy,” or “I’m not good enough yet.” But these are just excuses to run from our fears.

(grabs you by the shoulders) you have to make room for new experiences in your life. you have to go through the unpleasant work of leaving your comfort zone, even if just for a few minutes at a time. because if you don't, your brain will trick you into stagnation. you will start to believe that the world can barely fit you in it. but that's not true. it's the opposite way around. you can fit the whole word inside of you. your task is only this: to welcome it with open arms